rax ‘levon honkers’ king
@raxkingisdead.bsky.social
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Levon Honkers is the author of TACKY (2021) and SLOPPY (2025), as well as co-host of the podcast Low Culture Boil. She lives in Brooklyn.
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raxkingisdead.bsky.social
like the way she talks about palestine on her show isn’t virtue signaling it’s…for toddlers…
raxkingisdead.bsky.social
isn’t ms rachel like…for toddlers lol
raxkingisdead.bsky.social
and trying to do so will fuck up your life!!
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I watched my mother die a little less than a year ago, and in a matter of weeks I will watch my mother-in-law die, and this is entirely correct. Also, once you've experienced something like this once, the anxiety will presently differently the next time.
raxkingisdead.bsky.social
‘dear rax, how can i make sure i’m ready for the day my very sick mother dies?’
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Your question was whether there's a way to prepare for your mother's death, not whether there's a way to worry less about it, and I'll take a stab at answering that question using my experience with my father's as an example. No, you can't prepare for it. It will be like nothing you've felt yet. Maybe you think that if you worry about it really well—if you devote yourself to this anxiety, if you memorize your fear like a prayer—you can defeat it before it defeats you, like Roman's "pre-grieving" on Succession. But it didn't work for him because it doesn't work. Authoritative as it can feel, anxiety is incapable of describing anything it hasn't actually seen, like the death of a parent. All it can do is push us around various ugly landmarks in our minds: awful experiences we've already had, pains we've already processed. Anxiety is the blustering cokehead cousin of self-soothing. It brags about everything it knows to conceal the fact that it doesn't know anything. You can't feel what you haven't felt until, well...until you feel it.
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adgwatches.bsky.social
W O W that’s good advice.
raxkingisdead.bsky.social
‘dear rax, how can i make sure i’m ready for the day my very sick mother dies?’
www.patreon.com/posts/140925...
Your question was whether there's a way to prepare for your mother's death, not whether there's a way to worry less about it, and I'll take a stab at answering that question using my experience with my father's as an example. No, you can't prepare for it. It will be like nothing you've felt yet. Maybe you think that if you worry about it really well—if you devote yourself to this anxiety, if you memorize your fear like a prayer—you can defeat it before it defeats you, like Roman's "pre-grieving" on Succession. But it didn't work for him because it doesn't work. Authoritative as it can feel, anxiety is incapable of describing anything it hasn't actually seen, like the death of a parent. All it can do is push us around various ugly landmarks in our minds: awful experiences we've already had, pains we've already processed. Anxiety is the blustering cokehead cousin of self-soothing. It brags about everything it knows to conceal the fact that it doesn't know anything. You can't feel what you haven't felt until, well...until you feel it.
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‘dear rax, how can i make sure i’m ready for the day my very sick mother dies?’
www.patreon.com/posts/140925...
Your question was whether there's a way to prepare for your mother's death, not whether there's a way to worry less about it, and I'll take a stab at answering that question using my experience with my father's as an example. No, you can't prepare for it. It will be like nothing you've felt yet. Maybe you think that if you worry about it really well—if you devote yourself to this anxiety, if you memorize your fear like a prayer—you can defeat it before it defeats you, like Roman's "pre-grieving" on Succession. But it didn't work for him because it doesn't work. Authoritative as it can feel, anxiety is incapable of describing anything it hasn't actually seen, like the death of a parent. All it can do is push us around various ugly landmarks in our minds: awful experiences we've already had, pains we've already processed. Anxiety is the blustering cokehead cousin of self-soothing. It brags about everything it knows to conceal the fact that it doesn't know anything. You can't feel what you haven't felt until, well...until you feel it.
raxkingisdead.bsky.social
but even if your brain can’t figure out a situation, using it to at least try is GOOD FOR YOU! sidestep that part of the process at your own peril
raxkingisdead.bsky.social
i can’t stop thinking about this and i think it’s because it so easily illustrates the supposed problem LLM boosters want to solve, that being: sometimes things are difficult to do on brainpower alone
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David Simon, creator of ‘The Wire’, being interviewed by Ari Shapiro (NPR)
SHAPIRO: OK, so you've spent your career creating television without Al, and I could imagine today you thinking, boy, I wish I had had that tool to solve those thorny problems...
SIMON: What?
SHAPIRO: ...Or saying...
SIMON: You imagine that?
SHAPIRO: ...Boy, if that had existed, it would have screwed me over.
SIMON: I don't think Al can remotely challenge what writers do at a fundamentally creative level.
SHAPIRO: But if you're trying to transition from scene five to scene six, and you're stuck with that transition, you could imagine plugging that portion of the script into an Al and say, give me 10 ideas for how to transition this.
SIMON: I'd rather put a gun in my mouth.
raxkingisdead.bsky.social
look no offense to this person specifically but i do think ‘are we still talking about this’ as a response to an essay about something from a couple weeks ago is pretty silly. we should expect thoughtful writing to take time
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Tracy: no way am I gonna go shuck and jive for Prince Bone Saw!
Liz: wow, you’re really upset about Jamal Khashoggi.
Tracy: who? I’m upset because Mohammed bin Salaman sold me a bad bone saw!
raxkingisdead.bsky.social
before long they are sent home not because jack succeeds at diplomacy, but because the saudi jailers can’t fucking take it anymore
raxkingisdead.bsky.social
tracy refuses to commit to any of the rules about what comedians can’t say at the festival so they send jenna instead, who is immediately removed from the stage because the first words of her act are ‘my vagina is’
suss2hyphens.bsky.social
which 30 rock character was most likely to headline the riyadh comedy festival, tracy or jenna
raxkingisdead.bsky.social
man this really is an embarrassingly white discourse. regardless i must call em like i see em
raxkingisdead.bsky.social
now listen, yall know i love me some bruce springsteen, but you need your head examined if you think he seems cool next to johnny cash!!
bhh.bsky.social
Ah yes, famously uncool singer Johnny Cash. I am glad noted arbiter of cool the Wall Street Journal is willing to reconsider his case.
raxkingisdead.bsky.social
me steeling myself to go to the job i prayed to god for
ben affleck miserably contemplating the ocean
raxkingisdead.bsky.social
if i’m trying to transition from scene five to scene six, and i’m struggling with that transition, what i like to do is think about it until i figure out what to do. controversial stuff i know
junoryleejournalism.com
David Simon, creator of ‘The Wire’, being interviewed by Ari Shapiro (NPR)
SHAPIRO: OK, so you've spent your career creating television without Al, and I could imagine today you thinking, boy, I wish I had had that tool to solve those thorny problems...
SIMON: What?
SHAPIRO: ...Or saying...
SIMON: You imagine that?
SHAPIRO: ...Boy, if that had existed, it would have screwed me over.
SIMON: I don't think Al can remotely challenge what writers do at a fundamentally creative level.
SHAPIRO: But if you're trying to transition from scene five to scene six, and you're stuck with that transition, you could imagine plugging that portion of the script into an Al and say, give me 10 ideas for how to transition this.
SIMON: I'd rather put a gun in my mouth.
raxkingisdead.bsky.social
like, you may be throwing napalm all over your own case, but at least you…were epic? i guess?