Ashessss
@starryxashes.bsky.social
Hi I'm Ashes!
25 - edsky - shsky - venting - she/they, plural a lot
Manic restrictive dream girl ✌️🌙
Kinda recovering, kinda relapsing
SW: 167
CW: 145.2
LW: 135
GW: 115
BMI: 23.4
Minors and non ed dni
25 - edsky - shsky - venting - she/they, plural a lot
Manic restrictive dream girl ✌️🌙
Kinda recovering, kinda relapsing
SW: 167
CW: 145.2
LW: 135
GW: 115
BMI: 23.4
Minors and non ed dni
Pinned
November tracker! Probably getting back on it this month but who knows.
Manifesting comfort and self care in safe places, positive transformation and the intuition to guide it, gentleness towards those around me and connection to nature, and quiet but fierce self reliance and protection
Manifesting comfort and self care in safe places, positive transformation and the intuition to guide it, gentleness towards those around me and connection to nature, and quiet but fierce self reliance and protection
I don't understand why people think that caring has to mean like surveillance. I literally said I do not want them to be watching me eat and want them to just mainly leave it alone. That I don't want them to try to force themselves to help me and don't want them to at all. They don't know what it's
November 11, 2025 at 12:00 AM
I don't understand why people think that caring has to mean like surveillance. I literally said I do not want them to be watching me eat and want them to just mainly leave it alone. That I don't want them to try to force themselves to help me and don't want them to at all. They don't know what it's
Don't mind me just getting fucking watched by someone who cries if they don't think I eat enough after I told them they need to not do that
November 10, 2025 at 11:34 PM
Don't mind me just getting fucking watched by someone who cries if they don't think I eat enough after I told them they need to not do that
Idk why I keep photos of my sh like I haven't done it in forever and I don't want to why do I have pictures of this on my phone
November 10, 2025 at 7:56 PM
Idk why I keep photos of my sh like I haven't done it in forever and I don't want to why do I have pictures of this on my phone
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the fact that im nowhere near underweight and ztill feel dizzy and weak all the time iz zuch a zcam
November 10, 2025 at 6:59 PM
the fact that im nowhere near underweight and ztill feel dizzy and weak all the time iz zuch a zcam
Good morning lovelies 💜💜💜 I hope everyone is having a good day!!!!!
November 10, 2025 at 5:14 PM
Good morning lovelies 💜💜💜 I hope everyone is having a good day!!!!!
I think I wanna go back to 500 cal days I miss being in control of my body and not being a big fat whale. I have a meal plan that'll work for a while at least so I think I can do it! Assuming I remember how to restrict at least
November 10, 2025 at 8:55 AM
I think I wanna go back to 500 cal days I miss being in control of my body and not being a big fat whale. I have a meal plan that'll work for a while at least so I think I can do it! Assuming I remember how to restrict at least
Guys what if they made chicken nuggets but fish? Fish nuggets. Like crab nuggets, tuna nuggets, salmon nuggets, etc. Am I onto something or should I report to the nearest psych ward
November 10, 2025 at 7:01 AM
Guys what if they made chicken nuggets but fish? Fish nuggets. Like crab nuggets, tuna nuggets, salmon nuggets, etc. Am I onto something or should I report to the nearest psych ward
My alarm didn't go off so I missed aerial this week I'm so fucking upset man I love doing my flips and now I don't get to :(
November 9, 2025 at 4:58 PM
My alarm didn't go off so I missed aerial this week I'm so fucking upset man I love doing my flips and now I don't get to :(
Cold and cuddly I just feel like I should have someone to cuddle with :/
November 9, 2025 at 8:22 AM
Cold and cuddly I just feel like I should have someone to cuddle with :/
I just feel like we shouldn't be encouraging people to restrict like we're grown we all know this stuff hurts us what if we just didn't encourage each other to hurt ourselves? ESPECIALLY when someone isn't even talking about starting to res again
November 9, 2025 at 2:05 AM
I just feel like we shouldn't be encouraging people to restrict like we're grown we all know this stuff hurts us what if we just didn't encourage each other to hurt ourselves? ESPECIALLY when someone isn't even talking about starting to res again
Yippee my brain is forgetting we have an ED again!!!! At least for today
November 9, 2025 at 1:07 AM
Yippee my brain is forgetting we have an ED again!!!! At least for today
Chat I'm going to drink an energy drink without drinking water and none of yall can stop me >:)
November 8, 2025 at 8:40 PM
Chat I'm going to drink an energy drink without drinking water and none of yall can stop me >:)
I do not want d3ath to be the only way. I wish there was a way to reform this world in this plane. There isn't. Exodus is the only way to try to save those who have not sold their souls to corruption. But this plane does not value things that would help us get to space let alone would let us.
November 8, 2025 at 6:22 PM
I do not want d3ath to be the only way. I wish there was a way to reform this world in this plane. There isn't. Exodus is the only way to try to save those who have not sold their souls to corruption. But this plane does not value things that would help us get to space let alone would let us.
This plane is so broken no wonder we want to k!ll ourselves ofc we fucking so it's all broken and run by the soulless and the soci0paths built to break us all and cause as much damage as humanly possible. There is nothing savable there is nothing of value left if the g0ds can't stop them how can we
November 8, 2025 at 6:06 PM
This plane is so broken no wonder we want to k!ll ourselves ofc we fucking so it's all broken and run by the soulless and the soci0paths built to break us all and cause as much damage as humanly possible. There is nothing savable there is nothing of value left if the g0ds can't stop them how can we
This plane is a hellhole unsaveable by those with souls and designed to serve the soulless. C0nservatism only survives in the soulless and thrives in the sick, twisted minds that have given up on empathy and connection. It's a festering disease that destroys the souls of all it touches.
November 8, 2025 at 5:54 PM
This plane is a hellhole unsaveable by those with souls and designed to serve the soulless. C0nservatism only survives in the soulless and thrives in the sick, twisted minds that have given up on empathy and connection. It's a festering disease that destroys the souls of all it touches.
Idk why ED is so embarrassed about liking to cuddle stuffed animals like she's not remotely the only part that likes to. Idk how to deal with teenage parts like let me take care of you it's okay.
November 8, 2025 at 5:19 AM
Idk why ED is so embarrassed about liking to cuddle stuffed animals like she's not remotely the only part that likes to. Idk how to deal with teenage parts like let me take care of you it's okay.
Idk how much I ate but it was way more than I should've
November 8, 2025 at 5:05 AM
Idk how much I ate but it was way more than I should've
I know it's not healthy to do this but I've seen some of my roommate's cuts and it makes me really sad because ofc I can't help but compare and mine just look so fucking bad :( I really couldn't be content with just hurting myself I had to fucking destroy myself
November 8, 2025 at 4:56 AM
I know it's not healthy to do this but I've seen some of my roommate's cuts and it makes me really sad because ofc I can't help but compare and mine just look so fucking bad :( I really couldn't be content with just hurting myself I had to fucking destroy myself
My therapist is going to be so disappointed in me :( idk if my roommate's noticed yet either. Tbh I think probably not. I think they think that my ED means literally never eating not heavy restriction
November 8, 2025 at 12:49 AM
My therapist is going to be so disappointed in me :( idk if my roommate's noticed yet either. Tbh I think probably not. I think they think that my ED means literally never eating not heavy restriction
At 585 rn today. A little above my usual 500 rule but I feel like it's okay I probably overestimated anyway
November 8, 2025 at 12:28 AM
At 585 rn today. A little above my usual 500 rule but I feel like it's okay I probably overestimated anyway
I missed being hungry.
November 7, 2025 at 11:26 PM
I missed being hungry.
Threw out my cigs bc this shit is so embarrassing I'm tired of it. Putting strain on my friendships justified or not. Trying to make me dependent. Fuck that. Fuck nicotine.
November 7, 2025 at 8:34 PM
Threw out my cigs bc this shit is so embarrassing I'm tired of it. Putting strain on my friendships justified or not. Trying to make me dependent. Fuck that. Fuck nicotine.
I'm just saying I think it's fucking stupid to be treating me like the bad guy for really wanting to smoke a cig when everyone around me was talking about weed like all yall weren't going to just fucking leave me inside while YOU smoked but me wanting to in response is so fucking evil
November 7, 2025 at 7:50 PM
I'm just saying I think it's fucking stupid to be treating me like the bad guy for really wanting to smoke a cig when everyone around me was talking about weed like all yall weren't going to just fucking leave me inside while YOU smoked but me wanting to in response is so fucking evil
Woke up disoriented and confused and thinking I had to get up to get my nonexistent kids ready for schoolb
November 7, 2025 at 5:20 PM
Woke up disoriented and confused and thinking I had to get up to get my nonexistent kids ready for schoolb
Alcohol does not count as calories tonight
November 7, 2025 at 2:40 AM
Alcohol does not count as calories tonight