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jae lethe ⚧️🏳️‍⚧️✊⚒️
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this is one of the places i store my swear words when i'm not hurling them at the sun in vain

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nonbinary, he/she/they/whatever
bisexual goth weirdo, musician, zealous SubGenius atheist, vegetarian; HARD left

Dayton
Peter Gabriel - Washing Of The Water
youtu.be
November 10, 2025 at 7:16 AM
just saw the new Frankenstein movie

it hits how much i relate to The Creature: born wounded & hurt, enduring & unending torment of living, unwanted & unaccepted by family & society, incomprehensible, intrinsic ugliness, eternal solitude as self defense, never asked to be born, yearning for death &c
November 10, 2025 at 6:05 AM
the dogs appear to be somewhat terrified of my vampire singing voice

they are suddenly not interested in FOOD
November 9, 2025 at 1:39 AM
The worst fucking part of recording is when plugins phone home and force updates, or log you out (why do i need to log into a compressor??) and then the session is delayed and the mood and vibe is damaged. What the fuck. I don't much miss tape, but at least that wasn't a problem with fucking analog.
November 8, 2025 at 11:20 PM
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November 8, 2025 at 11:37 AM
Trying to decide if i should track instruments naked or just the vocals
November 8, 2025 at 11:02 PM
stupid me just haaaaad to go & get a greasy new song in my head to roll & wrestle around with, after i'd damn near swore off making music ever again
November 8, 2025 at 3:33 AM
Here's what it's like to release really good music independently:

a couple weeks later and i've lost my callouses already because i'm so heartbroken that nobody i've sent it to has even listened to it, that i never want to touch or see a guitar ever again
November 7, 2025 at 4:36 AM
I was precisely my current age TO THE HOUR when i first realized my nose has a lil bit of a cute upward curve to it, wtaf
November 7, 2025 at 1:45 AM
I'm so overwhelmed by the world, and by all the peoply people all peopling all over the place

I genuinely don't know how people do it
November 6, 2025 at 11:45 PM
feeling super melancholy today but that's pretty self-centered and i'm trying to be a lil less inward and just cry it out instead of making a whole big me thing about it

like, others have *actual* problems

I may be deeply troubled by some intrinsic, existential hurt but i'm also pretty insightful
November 6, 2025 at 11:41 PM
I need to do some assercising when i'm feeling a lil better
November 6, 2025 at 6:29 PM
i SHOULD work on new music very soon

my heart's so deflated after the last couple releases but the plan was actually to get more out before i get hit by a bus or something, and my goal date passed more than a week ago already

I think i must have about 5 songs just waiting to be finished up
November 6, 2025 at 5:58 PM
think i'll be sick for a few days. haven't done that for awhile. might be nice.
November 6, 2025 at 4:55 PM
It's wild how irrelevant labels are when you're just completely genderqueer and pansexual.

What are *you*, when you fuck *me*? What am *i*, when i fuck *you*?

"Gay" and "straight" are but quaint relics of the past for people like me lmao

I'm just here for novel forms of sin, tbh
November 6, 2025 at 5:14 AM
I've only been on HRT since January of this year, but i'd been GNC for a few years before that. Here's the most recent photo of me from today vs one from before i rebuilt myself in my *own* image (c.~2014)
November 6, 2025 at 4:20 AM
Sometimes in life, one simply must put on the old, pre-weird Tom Waits LPs and have a good sentimental cry, just for any (or no) damn reason at all
November 6, 2025 at 3:38 AM
I have outrageously long cableknit socks and i am NOT afraid to cry in them
November 5, 2025 at 4:20 AM
Why do i feel like i'm on the edge of something? Edge of what? What am i about to do?
November 5, 2025 at 3:47 AM
Last time i felt like a man, there wasn't any worth ordering on the whole menu
November 5, 2025 at 1:59 AM
Bill, you absolute fucker, i am NEVER gonna learn these scales
Because it's not YOU teaching them to me anymore
Fuck you i love you i miss you, you asshole, why when we had all of our lives to
November 4, 2025 at 7:01 AM
I love you

— YOU! —

whoever you are

I love you.
November 4, 2025 at 6:55 AM
I know i owe you for the memories
But I'm keeping them for myself anyway
November 4, 2025 at 6:52 AM
I wish Mike could see me now
Meet who i've become

Dallas i remember your recipe

Tina you were loved! Fuck the past

Bill you fucking motherfucker
We should be playing out you asshole
You were so much better

Jessie you MADE me, you FOUND me, you INVENTED me, you are my forever Queen (i'm sorry)
November 4, 2025 at 6:12 AM
I do still make suicide jokes
And I'm sorry about that
But that's how i cope with the fact that so many of the people who meant so much to me took their own lives
That's, i guess, just how we roll: we kill ourselves
At least now i think it won't be me anymore
November 4, 2025 at 6:01 AM