jae lethe ⚧️🏳️⚧️✊⚒️
@transmothra.com
this is one of the places i store my swear words when i'm not hurling them at the sun in vain
links & about: https://transmothra.com/
nonbinary, he/she/they/whatever
bisexual goth weirdo, musician, zealous SubGenius atheist, vegetarian; HARD left
Dayton
links & about: https://transmothra.com/
nonbinary, he/she/they/whatever
bisexual goth weirdo, musician, zealous SubGenius atheist, vegetarian; HARD left
Dayton
Welp at least now we can somewhat understand His Majesty's obsession with a "Big Beautiful Bill"
but at what cost
but at what cost
November 14, 2025 at 6:26 PM
Welp at least now we can somewhat understand His Majesty's obsession with a "Big Beautiful Bill"
but at what cost
but at what cost
i've been so fucking DELICATE lately. The tiniest things make me spiral into a self-loathing doom loop and then i want to drink myself into oblivion like i used to. I guess if you asked the people who used to be my friends years ago, they'd just laugh and say "some things never change"
November 14, 2025 at 12:34 AM
i've been so fucking DELICATE lately. The tiniest things make me spiral into a self-loathing doom loop and then i want to drink myself into oblivion like i used to. I guess if you asked the people who used to be my friends years ago, they'd just laugh and say "some things never change"
welp i made my therapist legitimately crack up 2½ times today, so either there's hope yet for me, or i'm not taking this seriously enough and all is lost
November 13, 2025 at 8:24 PM
welp i made my therapist legitimately crack up 2½ times today, so either there's hope yet for me, or i'm not taking this seriously enough and all is lost
"And in this moment, I need to be needed
When my self-esteem is sinking, I like to be liked
In this emptiness and fear, I want to be wanted
'Cause I love to be loved"
youtu.be/iJzfmrYqtJ0
When my self-esteem is sinking, I like to be liked
In this emptiness and fear, I want to be wanted
'Cause I love to be loved"
youtu.be/iJzfmrYqtJ0
Love to Be Loved
youtu.be
November 13, 2025 at 3:34 PM
"And in this moment, I need to be needed
When my self-esteem is sinking, I like to be liked
In this emptiness and fear, I want to be wanted
'Cause I love to be loved"
youtu.be/iJzfmrYqtJ0
When my self-esteem is sinking, I like to be liked
In this emptiness and fear, I want to be wanted
'Cause I love to be loved"
youtu.be/iJzfmrYqtJ0
"Digging in the dirt
Stay with me, I need support
I'm digging in the dirt
To find the places I got hurt
Open up the places I got hurt"
youtu.be/X0C3DHp36zc
Stay with me, I need support
I'm digging in the dirt
To find the places I got hurt
Open up the places I got hurt"
youtu.be/X0C3DHp36zc
Peter Gabriel - Digging In The Dirt
youtu.be
November 13, 2025 at 6:23 AM
"Digging in the dirt
Stay with me, I need support
I'm digging in the dirt
To find the places I got hurt
Open up the places I got hurt"
youtu.be/X0C3DHp36zc
Stay with me, I need support
I'm digging in the dirt
To find the places I got hurt
Open up the places I got hurt"
youtu.be/X0C3DHp36zc
i do this all the time: disappear & intentionally make it difficult for people then cry like a child when nobody comes for me — in my head it proves i'm just as intrinsically unlikeable as i thought because it's the only thing that makes sense & explains why my parents abandoned me
November 13, 2025 at 4:29 AM
i do this all the time: disappear & intentionally make it difficult for people then cry like a child when nobody comes for me — in my head it proves i'm just as intrinsically unlikeable as i thought because it's the only thing that makes sense & explains why my parents abandoned me
i wish my parents could have seen the person i've become and been able to take immense pride in the dangerous and overwhelming self-hatred i'm capable of, their most powerful gift to me, next to the intrinsic sense of unwantedness i've felt in every cell in my body for every second of my life
😊
😊
November 12, 2025 at 3:32 AM
i wish my parents could have seen the person i've become and been able to take immense pride in the dangerous and overwhelming self-hatred i'm capable of, their most powerful gift to me, next to the intrinsic sense of unwantedness i've felt in every cell in my body for every second of my life
😊
😊
Peter Gabriel - Washing Of The Water
youtu.be
November 10, 2025 at 7:16 AM
just saw the new Frankenstein movie
it hits how much i relate to The Creature: born wounded & hurt, enduring & unending torment of living, unwanted & unaccepted by family & society, incomprehensible, intrinsic ugliness, eternal solitude as self defense, never asked to be born, yearning for death &c
it hits how much i relate to The Creature: born wounded & hurt, enduring & unending torment of living, unwanted & unaccepted by family & society, incomprehensible, intrinsic ugliness, eternal solitude as self defense, never asked to be born, yearning for death &c
November 10, 2025 at 6:05 AM
just saw the new Frankenstein movie
it hits how much i relate to The Creature: born wounded & hurt, enduring & unending torment of living, unwanted & unaccepted by family & society, incomprehensible, intrinsic ugliness, eternal solitude as self defense, never asked to be born, yearning for death &c
it hits how much i relate to The Creature: born wounded & hurt, enduring & unending torment of living, unwanted & unaccepted by family & society, incomprehensible, intrinsic ugliness, eternal solitude as self defense, never asked to be born, yearning for death &c
the dogs appear to be somewhat terrified of my vampire singing voice
they are suddenly not interested in FOOD
they are suddenly not interested in FOOD
November 9, 2025 at 1:39 AM
the dogs appear to be somewhat terrified of my vampire singing voice
they are suddenly not interested in FOOD
they are suddenly not interested in FOOD
The worst fucking part of recording is when plugins phone home and force updates, or log you out (why do i need to log into a compressor??) and then the session is delayed and the mood and vibe is damaged. What the fuck. I don't much miss tape, but at least that wasn't a problem with fucking analog.
November 8, 2025 at 11:20 PM
The worst fucking part of recording is when plugins phone home and force updates, or log you out (why do i need to log into a compressor??) and then the session is delayed and the mood and vibe is damaged. What the fuck. I don't much miss tape, but at least that wasn't a problem with fucking analog.
Reposted by jae lethe ⚧️🏳️⚧️✊⚒️
💫Released on this day 1972💥
#musicsky #recordingsky #recordingstudiosky #musicmoments #musicthread #musicproduction #onthisday
#musicsky #recordingsky #recordingstudiosky #musicmoments #musicthread #musicproduction #onthisday
November 8, 2025 at 11:37 AM
💫Released on this day 1972💥
#musicsky #recordingsky #recordingstudiosky #musicmoments #musicthread #musicproduction #onthisday
#musicsky #recordingsky #recordingstudiosky #musicmoments #musicthread #musicproduction #onthisday
Trying to decide if i should track instruments naked or just the vocals
November 8, 2025 at 11:02 PM
Trying to decide if i should track instruments naked or just the vocals
stupid me just haaaaad to go & get a greasy new song in my head to roll & wrestle around with, after i'd damn near swore off making music ever again
November 8, 2025 at 3:33 AM
stupid me just haaaaad to go & get a greasy new song in my head to roll & wrestle around with, after i'd damn near swore off making music ever again
Here's what it's like to release really good music independently:
a couple weeks later and i've lost my callouses already because i'm so heartbroken that nobody i've sent it to has even listened to it, that i never want to touch or see a guitar ever again
a couple weeks later and i've lost my callouses already because i'm so heartbroken that nobody i've sent it to has even listened to it, that i never want to touch or see a guitar ever again
November 7, 2025 at 4:36 AM
Here's what it's like to release really good music independently:
a couple weeks later and i've lost my callouses already because i'm so heartbroken that nobody i've sent it to has even listened to it, that i never want to touch or see a guitar ever again
a couple weeks later and i've lost my callouses already because i'm so heartbroken that nobody i've sent it to has even listened to it, that i never want to touch or see a guitar ever again
I was precisely my current age TO THE HOUR when i first realized my nose has a lil bit of a cute upward curve to it, wtaf
November 7, 2025 at 1:45 AM
I was precisely my current age TO THE HOUR when i first realized my nose has a lil bit of a cute upward curve to it, wtaf
I'm so overwhelmed by the world, and by all the peoply people all peopling all over the place
I genuinely don't know how people do it
I genuinely don't know how people do it
November 6, 2025 at 11:45 PM
I'm so overwhelmed by the world, and by all the peoply people all peopling all over the place
I genuinely don't know how people do it
I genuinely don't know how people do it
feeling super melancholy today but that's pretty self-centered and i'm trying to be a lil less inward and just cry it out instead of making a whole big me thing about it
like, others have *actual* problems
I may be deeply troubled by some intrinsic, existential hurt but i'm also pretty insightful
like, others have *actual* problems
I may be deeply troubled by some intrinsic, existential hurt but i'm also pretty insightful
November 6, 2025 at 11:41 PM
feeling super melancholy today but that's pretty self-centered and i'm trying to be a lil less inward and just cry it out instead of making a whole big me thing about it
like, others have *actual* problems
I may be deeply troubled by some intrinsic, existential hurt but i'm also pretty insightful
like, others have *actual* problems
I may be deeply troubled by some intrinsic, existential hurt but i'm also pretty insightful
I need to do some assercising when i'm feeling a lil better
November 6, 2025 at 6:29 PM
I need to do some assercising when i'm feeling a lil better
i SHOULD work on new music very soon
my heart's so deflated after the last couple releases but the plan was actually to get more out before i get hit by a bus or something, and my goal date passed more than a week ago already
I think i must have about 5 songs just waiting to be finished up
my heart's so deflated after the last couple releases but the plan was actually to get more out before i get hit by a bus or something, and my goal date passed more than a week ago already
I think i must have about 5 songs just waiting to be finished up
November 6, 2025 at 5:58 PM
i SHOULD work on new music very soon
my heart's so deflated after the last couple releases but the plan was actually to get more out before i get hit by a bus or something, and my goal date passed more than a week ago already
I think i must have about 5 songs just waiting to be finished up
my heart's so deflated after the last couple releases but the plan was actually to get more out before i get hit by a bus or something, and my goal date passed more than a week ago already
I think i must have about 5 songs just waiting to be finished up
think i'll be sick for a few days. haven't done that for awhile. might be nice.
November 6, 2025 at 4:55 PM
think i'll be sick for a few days. haven't done that for awhile. might be nice.
It's wild how irrelevant labels are when you're just completely genderqueer and pansexual.
What are *you*, when you fuck *me*? What am *i*, when i fuck *you*?
"Gay" and "straight" are but quaint relics of the past for people like me lmao
I'm just here for novel forms of sin, tbh
What are *you*, when you fuck *me*? What am *i*, when i fuck *you*?
"Gay" and "straight" are but quaint relics of the past for people like me lmao
I'm just here for novel forms of sin, tbh
November 6, 2025 at 5:14 AM
It's wild how irrelevant labels are when you're just completely genderqueer and pansexual.
What are *you*, when you fuck *me*? What am *i*, when i fuck *you*?
"Gay" and "straight" are but quaint relics of the past for people like me lmao
I'm just here for novel forms of sin, tbh
What are *you*, when you fuck *me*? What am *i*, when i fuck *you*?
"Gay" and "straight" are but quaint relics of the past for people like me lmao
I'm just here for novel forms of sin, tbh
I've only been on HRT since January of this year, but i'd been GNC for a few years before that. Here's the most recent photo of me from today vs one from before i rebuilt myself in my *own* image (c.~2014)
November 6, 2025 at 4:20 AM
I've only been on HRT since January of this year, but i'd been GNC for a few years before that. Here's the most recent photo of me from today vs one from before i rebuilt myself in my *own* image (c.~2014)
Sometimes in life, one simply must put on the old, pre-weird Tom Waits LPs and have a good sentimental cry, just for any (or no) damn reason at all
November 6, 2025 at 3:38 AM
Sometimes in life, one simply must put on the old, pre-weird Tom Waits LPs and have a good sentimental cry, just for any (or no) damn reason at all
I have outrageously long cableknit socks and i am NOT afraid to cry in them
November 5, 2025 at 4:20 AM
I have outrageously long cableknit socks and i am NOT afraid to cry in them