Gluing myself back together...
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At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone
I'm 49 now. I have no delusions about it being as easy for me to slim down now as it was the first time around, but it's not really about my weight anyway... it wasn't the first time. It's about how I feel and what I see when I look at myself in the mirror. I want to get back to liking her.
January 5, 2026 at 2:33 AM
I'm 49 now. I have no delusions about it being as easy for me to slim down now as it was the first time around, but it's not really about my weight anyway... it wasn't the first time. It's about how I feel and what I see when I look at myself in the mirror. I want to get back to liking her.
I realize what an asshole that makes me sound like, but it's the truth. It is what it is. I've been really lucky. At least I'm not dumb enough to think I had anything to do with it or that it was anything more than blind good fortune, because that's definitely all it's ever been.
January 5, 2026 at 2:25 AM
I realize what an asshole that makes me sound like, but it's the truth. It is what it is. I've been really lucky. At least I'm not dumb enough to think I had anything to do with it or that it was anything more than blind good fortune, because that's definitely all it's ever been.
Yeah, I've always just been able to attain a level of professional success that was acceptable to me without really having to work at it. Same with grades and all that as a kid. I'm lazy AF and really never wanted anything bad enough to work for it. I think that... might be changing.
January 5, 2026 at 2:24 AM
Yeah, I've always just been able to attain a level of professional success that was acceptable to me without really having to work at it. Same with grades and all that as a kid. I'm lazy AF and really never wanted anything bad enough to work for it. I think that... might be changing.
Ya know, here's the thing: I've never really been a person who does that. I know how terrible that sounds, but it's true. I don't really try. If I can't just do something, I don't. So I've decide to try... ya know... trying. I figure no harm can come from giving a fuck enough to... try. 🤣
January 5, 2026 at 2:21 AM
Ya know, here's the thing: I've never really been a person who does that. I know how terrible that sounds, but it's true. I don't really try. If I can't just do something, I don't. So I've decide to try... ya know... trying. I figure no harm can come from giving a fuck enough to... try. 🤣
Right back at 'cha! 😉
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January 5, 2026 at 2:19 AM
Right back at 'cha! 😉
Hooray for things in our lives that we don't hate! 🤣
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January 5, 2026 at 2:16 AM
Hooray for things in our lives that we don't hate! 🤣
This place has been a particularly vivid & odiferous shitshow this weekend.
January 5, 2026 at 2:14 AM
This place has been a particularly vivid & odiferous shitshow this weekend.
Gonezo... just completely out of their goddamn gourds.
January 5, 2026 at 2:13 AM
Gonezo... just completely out of their goddamn gourds.
Yeah... you're tellin' me. 🤣
January 5, 2026 at 2:09 AM
Yeah... you're tellin' me. 🤣
I definitely will.
January 5, 2026 at 2:07 AM
I definitely will.
Oh, it's not something that belongs in a kids' room or being used. It never was. It's a showpiece.
January 5, 2026 at 1:11 AM
Oh, it's not something that belongs in a kids' room or being used. It never was. It's a showpiece.
I saw those whiny posts and laughed my ass off. 🤣
January 5, 2026 at 1:09 AM
I saw those whiny posts and laughed my ass off. 🤣
I think I always knew why I was doing it, too. I used my fat as a defense. I never had to worry about how to handle attention from boys the way all my stupid friends did if I just stayed fat & funny, so I just stayed fat & funny. It was so much easier. And I wouldn't change a thing, honestly.
January 5, 2026 at 1:09 AM
I think I always knew why I was doing it, too. I used my fat as a defense. I never had to worry about how to handle attention from boys the way all my stupid friends did if I just stayed fat & funny, so I just stayed fat & funny. It was so much easier. And I wouldn't change a thing, honestly.
And the reason I'm still sitting under it is because I went from letting her kids be my priority to my mom being my priority. So, for all the same reasons, I just made it so I could use my weight as an excuse for not being able to have the life I wanted again, so I wouldn't resent my mom either.
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January 5, 2026 at 1:06 AM
And the reason I'm still sitting under it is because I went from letting her kids be my priority to my mom being my priority. So, for all the same reasons, I just made it so I could use my weight as an excuse for not being able to have the life I wanted again, so I wouldn't resent my mom either.
That fat became an excuse for everything. I went to work, I came home, I took care of the kids, and worked on my best friend's business stuff... that was my whole life. And to make that enough, I buried everything else under mountains of junk food I'm still sitting under right now.
January 5, 2026 at 1:06 AM
That fat became an excuse for everything. I went to work, I came home, I took care of the kids, and worked on my best friend's business stuff... that was my whole life. And to make that enough, I buried everything else under mountains of junk food I'm still sitting under right now.
The coping strategies we develop, especially during adolescence, are often quite fascinating. I wish people were more willing to throw open the curtains and examine their own motivations & such. I typically find it very cathartic. Painful, obviously, a lot of the time... but ultimately rewarding.
January 5, 2026 at 12:56 AM
The coping strategies we develop, especially during adolescence, are often quite fascinating. I wish people were more willing to throw open the curtains and examine their own motivations & such. I typically find it very cathartic. Painful, obviously, a lot of the time... but ultimately rewarding.
"How's your mom?!?" is a common refrain at every reunion and every time I run into anyone around town. If I didn't like myself so much, it could really undermine my self-esteem. 😜🤣
January 5, 2026 at 12:53 AM
"How's your mom?!?" is a common refrain at every reunion and every time I run into anyone around town. If I didn't like myself so much, it could really undermine my self-esteem. 😜🤣
I'm so sorry for your loss. 😢
January 5, 2026 at 12:50 AM
I'm so sorry for your loss. 😢
There are often entire phases of a woman's life in which she makes specific choices about how she presents herself out in the world to either intentionally attract or very intentionally repel the male gaze.
I feel like this is a Seinfeld "shrinkage" thing that we women know, but men don't...
I feel like this is a Seinfeld "shrinkage" thing that we women know, but men don't...
January 5, 2026 at 12:48 AM