Sorry, here, here's a better idea on what types of games i like/am interested in (ignore some of the horror ones since those i liked bc i played with friends years ago on their streams)

Final pic in comments. I hope this was more helpful, sorry :(

I'm going to give you guys in on a secret that i've been hiding.. I actually didn't quit Youtube. I'm just doing it on different accounts. Now, i'm not uploading often, but i am posting stuff that fits more of what i like to do.

& no i'm not abandoning my main channel. I'm just doing a side thing.

What's right? What's wrong? Idk. Idk anything anymore.

My mother talked about grandkids with my brother. Not me. No one else has talked to me about this but me.. So why am i thinking this? I'm only 19.. i haven't hit 20 yet.. I don't even have a job, a license, graduated even. So why am i fearing?

It tends to bother me & make me feel like i'm being used & never get recognized for it.. it feels like deja vu or something..

But surely it's no big deal. It's just a yt editing job. Plus it's robux, who cares. The more important thing is to make people happy. I don't need anything in return ...

I truly thought i was doing the right thing & protecting them from the monster that i see myself as. But all it did was hurt my 2 closest friends. One of them being so scared that i was going to end my life. There was no way i could see that & move on with my day. So i immediately came back & talked

Yet here i am coming back for the 10th time atp..

I don't know what my mind wants anymore. My mind & thoughts is like a rocking chair. Just goes back n forth on repeat & i'm just stuck in the middle mindless on what i should do & if it's even good for me.. Will i even regret making this account...?

Later on i searched: "how can i tell if i'm being annoying test" & one of them was; "Are you being overly critical & nitpicky?" Which made me think. Am i?

There's also: "how can i tell if i'm being mean test?" & it said; You're consistently critical of others opinions.

Which again. Am i? Cuz idk..

I originally didn't want to tell people because i wanted to be a secret. But i knew that would've been dumb & i didn't want people confused that they were subscribed to a random user. So i decided to tell them.

& i did go ahead & block my old Alias because of what i discussed in my previous post.

I had a strong hurtful feeling that my old Alias 'Zea', was too hurtful for me to continue to be known that due to all the bad memories i've had with it. So i decided to change my identity completely thanks to some Reddit users i found online. Hence the name 'Asha Nash' is born & i'm in love with it

Being in a Family that supposed to be Christian, but yet acts nothing like a Christian is baffling to me. It's like they're using God as a way to get away with their evil traits. Such as; emotionally abusing me, manipulating me, neglecting me, being a narcissists, no catering towards my needs, etc.