I remember when you showed me this song.
How meaningful it is to you.
How meaningful it became to me.
And how I fell in love with you that evening.
February 2019.

True! I had to pick just one disease to name as bluesky has a letter limit :( I dont like letter limits and I dont do well with them.
Diphteria used to kill so many young children.

Im very cautious about side effects, I understand hesitancy.
Diff. cultures also play a part, as well as diff. govs offer diff. ones at diff. points in time.
But lets please keep polio away
I had shingles at age 7. Unheard of so young.
No vax available back then
Lets please keep shingles away too.

I dont have the energy to detail everything that went wrong, + bluesky limits letters sadly.
My feet are messed up again too and that is very worrying in this kind of weather.

I love it here but my body cant keep doing the inhumane amount of tasks of dealing with life without tap water {10 weeks and counting}, especially not in 11F / -13C weather.
Nor can anyone deal with lack of electricity in this kind of weather, when that is the only working utility.

It was so cold in the room today I could see my breath at some points even with the heater on.
I had to plug the heater into an outlet that stinks of smoke since the outage yesterday, but it was that or freeze to death today already.

The electricity has been unstable.
Is a seizure risk.
I need light to function.
Electricity: pc charging, internet, electric heater, microwave, crucial accessibility items
If the weather turns the electric off while all my weather preparations are fucked, I will likely freeze to death in silence

Next to it being dangerously demoralizing:
I am out of energy, out of stuff, out of electric to complete the tasks not just yesterday but also now.
There is no more way for me to get it done.
My muscles are too fucked up to breathe.
No way to access any hot water, clean clothes & bedding

I deeply empathize and relate.
Yes stuff for a few days, only lasts a few days.

I know the feeling of these stacked things going wrong.
I definitely hope you can get what you need to not be endangered by the cold.
Very cold weather here too starting Tuesday, going as low as 16F / minus 9 Celcius.
What is the prediction there?

-Chipmunk
-Deer
-Squirrel
-Fireflies
-Many many birds.

Honorable mention to all street cats&dogs, that I have seen &love{d} during my travels, and the butterflies, ladybugs, snails, other insects.
None of these are "fancy", or the Big 5, but they matter too.

This is part of the Just World fallacy, that the Law will protect good people + usually works well.
Ditto with the belief in "good gov" as part of Just World fallacy.
Non-marginalized people can get by without having to check those assumptions.
So they are aghast when you point out the fallacy.

It's also worth noting that romanticizing the rule of law means adopting a wholly false perspective around what the law is, who it targets, who it privileges, and how it functions—or I suppose it could just be an embrace of that hierarchy, which is also... a problem.

I was too busy dying from the hypothermia to react to the air purifier needing a filter change but my body is definitely noticing it has been 2-3 weeks.
With the cold I might need another heater too.
Pharmacy also needs to be paid.
So that is where I am at right now.

Reposted. 1 thing I do, after a lifetime of trauma, is replace the topic of selfishness with self care.
As in is this purchase, caring for me?
I obviously need to eat so yes.
Is it comforting & practical, then yes too.
If it is something that inspires&fulfills so I can share the mood etc.

As a refugee from a "nice country" I doubt this will happen :(
I fit the Geneva Convention perfectly, as would more people in this case. At least y'alls gov is a lot more publicly laughed at, criticized, named&shamed than mine ever was for doing the same defunding, targeting, just "politely" etc