cephalapoda
@cephalapoda.bsky.social
They/she, neuroweird awkward autistic, tired & angry queer, far left, UK - disabled, occasional designer & tattoo artist. Roller derby, sci fi, emotional illness, trans rights.
I actually had a pretty nice Christmas, antidepressant combo has been working pretty well so far, didn't even cry. Just stayed at home with my gf, ate food and played a boring computer game. I've even started doing a bit of drawing/painting in a sketchbook with a view to trying to do some actual art
December 29, 2024 at 7:48 PM
I actually had a pretty nice Christmas, antidepressant combo has been working pretty well so far, didn't even cry. Just stayed at home with my gf, ate food and played a boring computer game. I've even started doing a bit of drawing/painting in a sketchbook with a view to trying to do some actual art
I've been playing hours & hours of a terraforming simulator where I oversee the manufacture of concrete & such. At heart I am extremely dull. I'm actually proud I've found games I like these days though so I can do something that is actually pure recreation. Even if my recreation is playing at work.
December 29, 2024 at 7:44 PM
I've been playing hours & hours of a terraforming simulator where I oversee the manufacture of concrete & such. At heart I am extremely dull. I'm actually proud I've found games I like these days though so I can do something that is actually pure recreation. Even if my recreation is playing at work.
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My various musculoskeletal problems are forcing me to sit up straight with my feet on the floor. Frankly homophobic.
December 23, 2024 at 5:09 PM
My various musculoskeletal problems are forcing me to sit up straight with my feet on the floor. Frankly homophobic.
I've actually been looking forward to just being at home with my partner doing nothing for a couple of weeks. I don't want to think about tattooing for a while. I am so underemployed I will probably have to stop & it's the only thing I've been able to do with my mental health the way it is.
December 24, 2024 at 8:35 PM
I've actually been looking forward to just being at home with my partner doing nothing for a couple of weeks. I don't want to think about tattooing for a while. I am so underemployed I will probably have to stop & it's the only thing I've been able to do with my mental health the way it is.
my new roller derby team has a nonbinary captain, co-captain and vice captain. that's cool. I kind of like being in an open to anyone league rather than a women's league now, even though it's inclusive as a rule. I don't know. I guess I'd feel differently if it became overrun with normie men.
December 24, 2024 at 8:19 PM
my new roller derby team has a nonbinary captain, co-captain and vice captain. that's cool. I kind of like being in an open to anyone league rather than a women's league now, even though it's inclusive as a rule. I don't know. I guess I'd feel differently if it became overrun with normie men.
I think I got the last full set of these wheels in the country, I ordered a set of 4 from two different shops because that was all they had in stock. I wanted to replace my radar bullet wheels but I think they've been discontinued for years. these are very similar & also apparently discontinued
December 24, 2024 at 8:16 PM
I think I got the last full set of these wheels in the country, I ordered a set of 4 from two different shops because that was all they had in stock. I wanted to replace my radar bullet wheels but I think they've been discontinued for years. these are very similar & also apparently discontinued
Recently discovered Coke Francis and I love them.
December 22, 2024 at 11:37 AM
Recently discovered Coke Francis and I love them.
I just want to spend my life making costumes for my girlfriend. If only I had secure home, space, money, and mental health.
December 22, 2024 at 11:37 AM
I just want to spend my life making costumes for my girlfriend. If only I had secure home, space, money, and mental health.
I played in a roller derby scrimmage for the first time in 6 years+ last week, I was not ready and the standard was really high (against my new home team who are now apparently tier 1 in OTA (open to all/men's/not wftda). Stamina was a problem unsurprisingly & I was quickly reduced to a baby deer.
December 22, 2024 at 9:35 AM
I played in a roller derby scrimmage for the first time in 6 years+ last week, I was not ready and the standard was really high (against my new home team who are now apparently tier 1 in OTA (open to all/men's/not wftda). Stamina was a problem unsurprisingly & I was quickly reduced to a baby deer.
Bit of a rough night last night, my psyche has decided I'm being abandoned. Though I'm better than I have been. I'm stacking fluoxetine on bupropion now - just found out it's possible. I've tried almost everything else and they both work well for certain things, it'd be nice to find a minor miracle.
December 18, 2024 at 4:47 PM
Bit of a rough night last night, my psyche has decided I'm being abandoned. Though I'm better than I have been. I'm stacking fluoxetine on bupropion now - just found out it's possible. I've tried almost everything else and they both work well for certain things, it'd be nice to find a minor miracle.
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The difficulty is outside of the report, Cass is saying all kinds of shit that isn't supported by evidence. She also opposed a ban on conversion therapy saying it might prevent therapeutic approaches she supports for trans kids. So we're not party to what she's said to wes streeting but we can guess
Using the Cass report as justification for banning puberty blockers is simply dishonest. Cass's actual findings, documented in the appendices, found PBs have been used safely for trans kids since 1988 with not a single case of harm documented in thousands of records. Cass did *not* recommend a ban.
December 17, 2024 at 12:18 PM
The difficulty is outside of the report, Cass is saying all kinds of shit that isn't supported by evidence. She also opposed a ban on conversion therapy saying it might prevent therapeutic approaches she supports for trans kids. So we're not party to what she's said to wes streeting but we can guess
I resent my deep, almost absolute insecurity. Ontologically shapeless. it makes me into a person I don't want to be. I am open minded & accepting & I believe in allowing others to grow & reach out beyond me and enrich themselves. But I am also unmoored, rootsless, suppressed, eaten up with shame.
December 18, 2024 at 4:37 AM
I resent my deep, almost absolute insecurity. Ontologically shapeless. it makes me into a person I don't want to be. I am open minded & accepting & I believe in allowing others to grow & reach out beyond me and enrich themselves. But I am also unmoored, rootsless, suppressed, eaten up with shame.
insomnia; mithering.
December 18, 2024 at 4:26 AM
insomnia; mithering.
Saw a weirdly transphobic post that was left up in Dull Men's Club on Facebook for a week - bit disappointed & blocked the page - eventually realised it was just a clone of the group. So that's nice, I can continue to enjoy Dull Men things, at least until it's completely swallowed by bots & reposts.
December 17, 2024 at 7:24 PM
Saw a weirdly transphobic post that was left up in Dull Men's Club on Facebook for a week - bit disappointed & blocked the page - eventually realised it was just a clone of the group. So that's nice, I can continue to enjoy Dull Men things, at least until it's completely swallowed by bots & reposts.
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"Wrong people listened to on puberty blockers ban".
The National in Scotland continuing to do some good work.
The National in Scotland continuing to do some good work.
December 17, 2024 at 9:44 AM
"Wrong people listened to on puberty blockers ban".
The National in Scotland continuing to do some good work.
The National in Scotland continuing to do some good work.
I finished a painting commission I took on, I don't paint or do commissions very often, haven't done one this big or in gouache before. this was as painful as any of them :') but it looks pretty good. I'm proud of it I guess. Some dinosaurs from jurassic world chaos theory, apparently
December 17, 2024 at 4:34 PM
I finished a painting commission I took on, I don't paint or do commissions very often, haven't done one this big or in gouache before. this was as painful as any of them :') but it looks pretty good. I'm proud of it I guess. Some dinosaurs from jurassic world chaos theory, apparently
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Wes Streeting looks like if I asked AI to draw me the human embodiment of the banality of evil
When your policy rollout is going great
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December 17, 2024 at 12:42 PM
Wes Streeting looks like if I asked AI to draw me the human embodiment of the banality of evil
I just read a book called The Fifth Season - really good thoughtful sci fi, warm and incisive, interesting concepts, explores political themes, contains a trans woman just incidentally. Waiting to get the next one in the trilogy
December 17, 2024 at 1:41 PM
I just read a book called The Fifth Season - really good thoughtful sci fi, warm and incisive, interesting concepts, explores political themes, contains a trans woman just incidentally. Waiting to get the next one in the trilogy
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spending the rest of my life chasing this high
December 16, 2024 at 1:33 AM
spending the rest of my life chasing this high
Started a new combo of antidepressants - honestly didn't know there were any left but it hadn't occurred to me these ones could be combined, apparently they can with some success.
December 17, 2024 at 11:55 AM
Started a new combo of antidepressants - honestly didn't know there were any left but it hadn't occurred to me these ones could be combined, apparently they can with some success.
I keep being advertised this mug and it's kind of great
December 17, 2024 at 11:39 AM
I keep being advertised this mug and it's kind of great
Finally finished this commission, I did quite a lot of it while crying-all-the-time depressed in little bouts of 20 minutes or so and cursing myself for taking a commission. I don't know how I manage to do these things sometimes! Spray varnishing it now because it's gouache
December 17, 2024 at 11:35 AM
Finally finished this commission, I did quite a lot of it while crying-all-the-time depressed in little bouts of 20 minutes or so and cursing myself for taking a commission. I don't know how I manage to do these things sometimes! Spray varnishing it now because it's gouache
Made a third account, it's hard trying to have a professional presence and remain able to be myself somewhere. Been struggling quite a lot with depression for the last couple of years (and the last 30 years) and have been watching the world crumble into interregnum and I can be a bit of a downer
December 17, 2024 at 11:34 AM
Made a third account, it's hard trying to have a professional presence and remain able to be myself somewhere. Been struggling quite a lot with depression for the last couple of years (and the last 30 years) and have been watching the world crumble into interregnum and I can be a bit of a downer