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@dookthoughtsdal.bsky.social
🔞minors fuck off🔞
More private account of that one puppydook. Expect ramblings, emotions, and talk of trauma. A place to try and figure myself out without flashbanging my followers on main
She/her, 26, tired
If you're reading this, I love you 💜
More private account of that one puppydook. Expect ramblings, emotions, and talk of trauma. A place to try and figure myself out without flashbanging my followers on main
She/her, 26, tired
If you're reading this, I love you 💜
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@dookthoughtsdal.bsky.social
· Mar 11
I'm not gonna be sharing this account with many people at all, but chances are if you find it naturally, I'll probably let you stick around
I might block you here for whatever reason, and I want to be clear I want no hard feelings over it, bsky just hasn't made locked accounts yet lol
I might block you here for whatever reason, and I want to be clear I want no hard feelings over it, bsky just hasn't made locked accounts yet lol
I want to be told it will be okay, and truly believe it
October 16, 2025 at 9:11 PM
I want to be told it will be okay, and truly believe it
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!["I won't abandon you when your chronic illness gets worse."
[woman whispering into someone's ear and the person gets goosebumps]
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need me a freak like this](https://cdn.bsky.app/img/feed_thumbnail/plain/did:plc:dbzmdmsaz6lkhb4tv3culzme/bafkreiecxh55i7fnniuq7ha576d7cezifflqtukqymvhpnmvlkbx4dfe2m@jpeg)
It doesn't feel like I can ever do enough, give enough, *be* enough, for what people in my life need
September 4, 2025 at 11:41 PM
It doesn't feel like I can ever do enough, give enough, *be* enough, for what people in my life need
It is times like these that bring back trauma. Seeing people around me suffering so deeply and feeling like I can do fucking nothing about it
I just want what's best for the people I love, and I wish it didn't take so much pain for them to get it
I just want what's best for the people I love, and I wish it didn't take so much pain for them to get it
August 7, 2025 at 2:02 PM
It is times like these that bring back trauma. Seeing people around me suffering so deeply and feeling like I can do fucking nothing about it
I just want what's best for the people I love, and I wish it didn't take so much pain for them to get it
I just want what's best for the people I love, and I wish it didn't take so much pain for them to get it
So fucking exhausted
My future has gone up in smoke and I just can't fucking see how the fuck I'm meant to live my life from now on
My job was my structure I built a healthier life around than I ever had before, and it's gone in a moment, and I have to fight back with energy I don't have
My future has gone up in smoke and I just can't fucking see how the fuck I'm meant to live my life from now on
My job was my structure I built a healthier life around than I ever had before, and it's gone in a moment, and I have to fight back with energy I don't have
July 25, 2025 at 8:25 AM
So fucking exhausted
My future has gone up in smoke and I just can't fucking see how the fuck I'm meant to live my life from now on
My job was my structure I built a healthier life around than I ever had before, and it's gone in a moment, and I have to fight back with energy I don't have
My future has gone up in smoke and I just can't fucking see how the fuck I'm meant to live my life from now on
My job was my structure I built a healthier life around than I ever had before, and it's gone in a moment, and I have to fight back with energy I don't have
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Out of work in about 30 minutes, just hold off letting the severe anxiety turn into a panic attack before then
July 8, 2025 at 8:39 PM
Out of work in about 30 minutes, just hold off letting the severe anxiety turn into a panic attack before then
Classic 2:30am panic attack on a night where I *really* fucking needed to get some sleep
July 5, 2025 at 1:53 AM
Classic 2:30am panic attack on a night where I *really* fucking needed to get some sleep
I wish I weren't so fucking anxious about the things I want
I wish I could just send those messages instead of holding them back until I hope they're "appropriate"
I wish my trauma would stop holding me back and convincing me this way is pain
I wish I could just send those messages instead of holding them back until I hope they're "appropriate"
I wish my trauma would stop holding me back and convincing me this way is pain
June 12, 2025 at 12:05 AM
I wish I weren't so fucking anxious about the things I want
I wish I could just send those messages instead of holding them back until I hope they're "appropriate"
I wish my trauma would stop holding me back and convincing me this way is pain
I wish I could just send those messages instead of holding them back until I hope they're "appropriate"
I wish my trauma would stop holding me back and convincing me this way is pain
I just wish I didn't have to give so much, when day-to-day life is exhausting as is
I know I'm lucky and my life isn't as busy as others', and I know that I don't have to give so much in a lot of situations, but that shitty, loud part of me won't shut up and let me relax and rest
Always on edge
I know I'm lucky and my life isn't as busy as others', and I know that I don't have to give so much in a lot of situations, but that shitty, loud part of me won't shut up and let me relax and rest
Always on edge
June 8, 2025 at 6:16 PM
I just wish I didn't have to give so much, when day-to-day life is exhausting as is
I know I'm lucky and my life isn't as busy as others', and I know that I don't have to give so much in a lot of situations, but that shitty, loud part of me won't shut up and let me relax and rest
Always on edge
I know I'm lucky and my life isn't as busy as others', and I know that I don't have to give so much in a lot of situations, but that shitty, loud part of me won't shut up and let me relax and rest
Always on edge
Try being an autistic kid who has emotional regulation issues and getting dismissed or shouted at pretty much every time you have an emotional breakdown by the people you're supposed to trust 🙃
And now being vulnerable in front of anyone makes me scared and brings up *other* trauma too!
Yayyyyyyy✨️
And now being vulnerable in front of anyone makes me scared and brings up *other* trauma too!
Yayyyyyyy✨️
June 4, 2025 at 9:40 PM
Try being an autistic kid who has emotional regulation issues and getting dismissed or shouted at pretty much every time you have an emotional breakdown by the people you're supposed to trust 🙃
And now being vulnerable in front of anyone makes me scared and brings up *other* trauma too!
Yayyyyyyy✨️
And now being vulnerable in front of anyone makes me scared and brings up *other* trauma too!
Yayyyyyyy✨️
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Biggest cry I've probably had in many years, then a big sleep that didn't feel that big -w-
Did a couple bits, had a drink and a snack, now to try and sleep some more I think, brain still very fatigued
Did a couple bits, had a drink and a snack, now to try and sleep some more I think, brain still very fatigued
May 22, 2025 at 9:03 AM
Biggest cry I've probably had in many years, then a big sleep that didn't feel that big -w-
Did a couple bits, had a drink and a snack, now to try and sleep some more I think, brain still very fatigued
Did a couple bits, had a drink and a snack, now to try and sleep some more I think, brain still very fatigued
I wish I could remember my mom's voice
I just realised that from about a week ago, it's been half my life without her
I've not known her longer than I have
I just realised that from about a week ago, it's been half my life without her
I've not known her longer than I have
May 21, 2025 at 11:30 PM
I wish I could remember my mom's voice
I just realised that from about a week ago, it's been half my life without her
I've not known her longer than I have
I just realised that from about a week ago, it's been half my life without her
I've not known her longer than I have
I love caring for the people I love, it's often tiring but almost always rewarding
But every now and then, the trauma flares up and I spiral and spiral and I remember every time when trying to help someone wasn't enough, or it didn't turn out okay.
I wish I wasn't so scared of not doing enough
But every now and then, the trauma flares up and I spiral and spiral and I remember every time when trying to help someone wasn't enough, or it didn't turn out okay.
I wish I wasn't so scared of not doing enough
May 21, 2025 at 10:59 PM
I love caring for the people I love, it's often tiring but almost always rewarding
But every now and then, the trauma flares up and I spiral and spiral and I remember every time when trying to help someone wasn't enough, or it didn't turn out okay.
I wish I wasn't so scared of not doing enough
But every now and then, the trauma flares up and I spiral and spiral and I remember every time when trying to help someone wasn't enough, or it didn't turn out okay.
I wish I wasn't so scared of not doing enough
Fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK I hate dealing with police
I'm safe, just a casual 6:10am knock on the door from an officer asking for an ex housemate to start my day
I'm safe, just a casual 6:10am knock on the door from an officer asking for an ex housemate to start my day
May 14, 2025 at 5:54 AM
Fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK I hate dealing with police
I'm safe, just a casual 6:10am knock on the door from an officer asking for an ex housemate to start my day
I'm safe, just a casual 6:10am knock on the door from an officer asking for an ex housemate to start my day
Feeling better
Not perfect, but honestly I got the assurances I needed, and I'm trying my best to believe them. Thank you 💜
Not perfect, but honestly I got the assurances I needed, and I'm trying my best to believe them. Thank you 💜
May 1, 2025 at 11:44 PM
Feeling better
Not perfect, but honestly I got the assurances I needed, and I'm trying my best to believe them. Thank you 💜
Not perfect, but honestly I got the assurances I needed, and I'm trying my best to believe them. Thank you 💜
I think I've internalised that the only way I am allowed to have social interaction is when I'm in charge or taking care of someone else
I'm always pushing myself because I crave *anything*
And I constantly feel like I have to take charge or nothing gets done
I'm always pushing myself because I crave *anything*
And I constantly feel like I have to take charge or nothing gets done
April 30, 2025 at 4:32 PM
I think I've internalised that the only way I am allowed to have social interaction is when I'm in charge or taking care of someone else
I'm always pushing myself because I crave *anything*
And I constantly feel like I have to take charge or nothing gets done
I'm always pushing myself because I crave *anything*
And I constantly feel like I have to take charge or nothing gets done
Does anybody else get anxiety sweats?
Because boy I am sweaty and I do not like it
Because boy I am sweaty and I do not like it
April 30, 2025 at 1:58 AM
Does anybody else get anxiety sweats?
Because boy I am sweaty and I do not like it
Because boy I am sweaty and I do not like it
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I hate that receiving love and trust makes me feel so anxious
April 25, 2025 at 2:22 AM
I hate that receiving love and trust makes me feel so anxious