not to sound off my rocker but it really puts into perspective how shallow things are (good/bad) when you just step out of a space completely and are only accessible to your actual friends. 100% recommend lol

i'm not checking any notfis rn and am bound to miss them when i do come back later so don't take it personally!!

also got over my fear of being an "irrelevant" (my paranoid words) gaius fan if i don't hit a certain number of engagement or don't post enough. who honestly gives a fuck!! 😂 i still want to make my merch but i have other irons in the fire atm hehe

i already had something planned for my valentione's day comic and this is just canon now. thank u for my life................... anyways taking a break has been SO good for me and i've really reconnected with my passion for this game. i have crafts to share when i return hehe

im gonna frow up

full of desire 🫡

Anyways, back to the main point - I'm happy that just doing what I love has continued to bring new friends and acquaintances into my life! I continually find new people to be inspired by in my creative life and hope to keep being inspired. My work has grown so much just from getting into a wolship!!

I'm more indulgent in posting threads about my thoughts on socmed, but the thing is I've always done that and just pared back once I started getting more eyes on my stuff for fear of 'putting ppl off'. Now I'm free and do w/e I want. I'll be annoying about it if it helps others learn something new.

Too many times I've seen someone who has a lot of followers, who did not ask to be 'popular', voice an opinion that might have been better for the private group chat and inspire dozens of other people to spread similarly negative thoughts of their own (not conversing with op, just inspired by) 😅

While I'm here, I feel like follower counts matter a little too much to some when it comes to stripping **fan creators** of their personhood and scrutinizing everything they say. But at the same time, I can see there is responsibility when you have a sizeable audience, y'know?

I think follower counts and engagement numbers are a very, very fine line between making you feel bad or providing tangible fact. I feel a lot better about my work and place in the spaces I occupy so I can view it as a "oh that's neat!" these days. It has no real meaning outside of that haha 😂

that pun lives rent free in my head