Nat
@freddiemerqwerty.bsky.social
they/them
aroace, audhd, agender/genderqueer 🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈
OFMD, kpop baby, and other assorted things
aroace, audhd, agender/genderqueer 🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈
OFMD, kpop baby, and other assorted things
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Nat
@freddiemerqwerty.bsky.social
· Mar 20
It would be so much easier to explain my behavior if I was allo
Alas, I am not and this is just autism
Alas, I am not and this is just autism
Staying up drastically impacts my mental health, yet every time I am surprised.
I stayed up until 5am today and I’m like: “Everything good ends and the sooner we accept that the better, life is a slow decline into meaninglessness”
Go to bed and get up before 10am, Nat, then we can chat philosophy
I stayed up until 5am today and I’m like: “Everything good ends and the sooner we accept that the better, life is a slow decline into meaninglessness”
Go to bed and get up before 10am, Nat, then we can chat philosophy
December 30, 2025 at 2:51 AM
Staying up drastically impacts my mental health, yet every time I am surprised.
I stayed up until 5am today and I’m like: “Everything good ends and the sooner we accept that the better, life is a slow decline into meaninglessness”
Go to bed and get up before 10am, Nat, then we can chat philosophy
I stayed up until 5am today and I’m like: “Everything good ends and the sooner we accept that the better, life is a slow decline into meaninglessness”
Go to bed and get up before 10am, Nat, then we can chat philosophy
Graduated college
Started my first full-time job Had my first date, kiss, etc.
Learned how to inject t
Went to my first conference
Taught a classroom curriculum I made
Ran my first streaming ad
Bought my first packer
Went to my first kink event
Got my learner’s permit
Saw Tim Curry, Key, and 8TURN!
Started my first full-time job Had my first date, kiss, etc.
Learned how to inject t
Went to my first conference
Taught a classroom curriculum I made
Ran my first streaming ad
Bought my first packer
Went to my first kink event
Got my learner’s permit
Saw Tim Curry, Key, and 8TURN!
Quote this with what you have accomplished in 2025, no matter how big or small
Reading & writing has kept me alive this year.
Somehow, it’s been my most productive year as an author.
Here’s a guide to what I’ve published in 2025, in case you’ve lost track.
Individual links below but it’s all on itch: danifinn.itch.io
And elsewhere: books2read.com/ap/nAApPp/Da...
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Somehow, it’s been my most productive year as an author.
Here’s a guide to what I’ve published in 2025, in case you’ve lost track.
Individual links below but it’s all on itch: danifinn.itch.io
And elsewhere: books2read.com/ap/nAApPp/Da...
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December 29, 2025 at 8:21 AM
Graduated college
Started my first full-time job Had my first date, kiss, etc.
Learned how to inject t
Went to my first conference
Taught a classroom curriculum I made
Ran my first streaming ad
Bought my first packer
Went to my first kink event
Got my learner’s permit
Saw Tim Curry, Key, and 8TURN!
Started my first full-time job Had my first date, kiss, etc.
Learned how to inject t
Went to my first conference
Taught a classroom curriculum I made
Ran my first streaming ad
Bought my first packer
Went to my first kink event
Got my learner’s permit
Saw Tim Curry, Key, and 8TURN!
My body does indeed hurt good lord, I did indeed fall on my hip and get the wind knocked out of me good lord
I will be fine, but pray thee, what must I do to avoid the clumsiness that accompanies my whimsy?
I will be fine, but pray thee, what must I do to avoid the clumsiness that accompanies my whimsy?
December 29, 2025 at 7:24 AM
My body does indeed hurt good lord, I did indeed fall on my hip and get the wind knocked out of me good lord
I will be fine, but pray thee, what must I do to avoid the clumsiness that accompanies my whimsy?
I will be fine, but pray thee, what must I do to avoid the clumsiness that accompanies my whimsy?
I finally completed my playlist of 2025 in music! Below I’ve got my little silly categories
tidal.com/playlist/9d6...
tidal.com/playlist/9d6...
Nat’s 2025 in Music
Playlist - Nat’s 2025 in Music - 100 items
tidal.com
December 28, 2025 at 9:39 AM
I finally completed my playlist of 2025 in music! Below I’ve got my little silly categories
tidal.com/playlist/9d6...
tidal.com/playlist/9d6...
I love my queer and trans community and how they get me into situations.
A friend wanted support getting their t dick pierced so reached out to me. Did I see someone get their t dick pierced today? Yes I did! Let’s go!
A friend wanted support getting their t dick pierced so reached out to me. Did I see someone get their t dick pierced today? Yes I did! Let’s go!
December 28, 2025 at 2:52 AM
I love my queer and trans community and how they get me into situations.
A friend wanted support getting their t dick pierced so reached out to me. Did I see someone get their t dick pierced today? Yes I did! Let’s go!
A friend wanted support getting their t dick pierced so reached out to me. Did I see someone get their t dick pierced today? Yes I did! Let’s go!
I’m so close to finishing my Stizzy one shot! I’m so close!
It’s amazing that it’s taken me this entire year to write one sex scene. My brain spends 99% of my writing time bluescreening, but that 1%—that 1%!! Unhinged
I can’t believe some of the sentences in here aggshshdhdhs
It’s amazing that it’s taken me this entire year to write one sex scene. My brain spends 99% of my writing time bluescreening, but that 1%—that 1%!! Unhinged
I can’t believe some of the sentences in here aggshshdhdhs
December 27, 2025 at 6:15 AM
I’m so close to finishing my Stizzy one shot! I’m so close!
It’s amazing that it’s taken me this entire year to write one sex scene. My brain spends 99% of my writing time bluescreening, but that 1%—that 1%!! Unhinged
I can’t believe some of the sentences in here aggshshdhdhs
It’s amazing that it’s taken me this entire year to write one sex scene. My brain spends 99% of my writing time bluescreening, but that 1%—that 1%!! Unhinged
I can’t believe some of the sentences in here aggshshdhdhs
Reposted by Nat
Oh hello XLOV doing a Sabrina Carpenter Christmas cover where they fully are just singing about the need for dick on Christmas
What a thing to wake up to
What a thing to wake up to
December 24, 2025 at 8:11 PM
Oh hello XLOV doing a Sabrina Carpenter Christmas cover where they fully are just singing about the need for dick on Christmas
What a thing to wake up to
What a thing to wake up to
My new years resolution for 2025 was to get worse taste in fanfiction. I believe that I accomplished this goal! Let's look at some stats from my year in fanfiction reading
*note: I refused to track tags because of how time consuming and personally revealing that would be
*note: I refused to track tags because of how time consuming and personally revealing that would be
December 24, 2025 at 8:40 AM
My new years resolution for 2025 was to get worse taste in fanfiction. I believe that I accomplished this goal! Let's look at some stats from my year in fanfiction reading
*note: I refused to track tags because of how time consuming and personally revealing that would be
*note: I refused to track tags because of how time consuming and personally revealing that would be
Why are people so kind 😭 This is the first holiday season that I’m spending largely by myself and everyone has done a little something to make it bright
December 24, 2025 at 12:41 AM
Why are people so kind 😭 This is the first holiday season that I’m spending largely by myself and everyone has done a little something to make it bright
Today has now been made better by talking to friends and having my dad and stepmom drop off a huge box of assorted Legos from when I was a kid. Let’s goooo Christmas and Legos
Today sure has been a day. I want tomorrow to be better my god
December 20, 2025 at 5:43 AM
Today has now been made better by talking to friends and having my dad and stepmom drop off a huge box of assorted Legos from when I was a kid. Let’s goooo Christmas and Legos
Today sure has been a day. I want tomorrow to be better my god
December 20, 2025 at 1:51 AM
Today sure has been a day. I want tomorrow to be better my god
I gotta say dating someone who's dating someone else is pretty cool
The few times we metamours cross paths, all we’ve got to say is how great it is to see that we make our mutual person happy :)
The few times we metamours cross paths, all we’ve got to say is how great it is to see that we make our mutual person happy :)
December 18, 2025 at 7:35 AM
I gotta say dating someone who's dating someone else is pretty cool
The few times we metamours cross paths, all we’ve got to say is how great it is to see that we make our mutual person happy :)
The few times we metamours cross paths, all we’ve got to say is how great it is to see that we make our mutual person happy :)
Had one of those times out and about where I’m like…oh yeah multiple conditions make me disabled not just one.
I can accommodate myself fine usually, but man…today multiple strangers went out of their way to help/check in on my needs and that just doesn’t happen to me much bc I’m usually more fine
I can accommodate myself fine usually, but man…today multiple strangers went out of their way to help/check in on my needs and that just doesn’t happen to me much bc I’m usually more fine
December 18, 2025 at 3:40 AM
Had one of those times out and about where I’m like…oh yeah multiple conditions make me disabled not just one.
I can accommodate myself fine usually, but man…today multiple strangers went out of their way to help/check in on my needs and that just doesn’t happen to me much bc I’m usually more fine
I can accommodate myself fine usually, but man…today multiple strangers went out of their way to help/check in on my needs and that just doesn’t happen to me much bc I’m usually more fine
My Queen fandom love never truly leaves so here’s a thread of some photos and the immediate thing that comes to mind about them from my fandom days
December 17, 2025 at 7:25 AM
My Queen fandom love never truly leaves so here’s a thread of some photos and the immediate thing that comes to mind about them from my fandom days
Quizzes are silly and don’t have to mean much, but this did bring me joy :)
www.wikihow.com/What-Human-E...
www.wikihow.com/What-Human-E...
December 17, 2025 at 2:35 AM
Quizzes are silly and don’t have to mean much, but this did bring me joy :)
www.wikihow.com/What-Human-E...
www.wikihow.com/What-Human-E...
I’m beginning to think things happen when you do them
December 17, 2025 at 1:17 AM
I’m beginning to think things happen when you do them
Apologies to any coworkers who saw me absolutely demolish that sandwich. Work got me free lunch at a place I can actually eat?
Gone, food is gone.
You fed the creature and got a creature
Gone, food is gone.
You fed the creature and got a creature
December 16, 2025 at 9:06 PM
Apologies to any coworkers who saw me absolutely demolish that sandwich. Work got me free lunch at a place I can actually eat?
Gone, food is gone.
You fed the creature and got a creature
Gone, food is gone.
You fed the creature and got a creature
Pinterest may be horrendous to use these days, but BLESS people who post their niche queer interests.
Now I know there’s a musical where death is nonbinary (he/him) and in love with a woman. It’s apparently very queer, especially the Japanese versions. Watching ASAP
www.tumblr.com/emptymasks/6...
Now I know there’s a musical where death is nonbinary (he/him) and in love with a woman. It’s apparently very queer, especially the Japanese versions. Watching ASAP
www.tumblr.com/emptymasks/6...
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December 16, 2025 at 8:00 AM
Pinterest may be horrendous to use these days, but BLESS people who post their niche queer interests.
Now I know there’s a musical where death is nonbinary (he/him) and in love with a woman. It’s apparently very queer, especially the Japanese versions. Watching ASAP
www.tumblr.com/emptymasks/6...
Now I know there’s a musical where death is nonbinary (he/him) and in love with a woman. It’s apparently very queer, especially the Japanese versions. Watching ASAP
www.tumblr.com/emptymasks/6...
Boys in suits on stairs? I only know how to reference two things
December 15, 2025 at 9:59 AM
Boys in suits on stairs? I only know how to reference two things
Choosing the artistic medium that requires so much data to produce a single visual really was a choice.
My current video project file is half a terabyte 😭
3/4 of my editing time rn is just spent loading project files and rendering so I can see my working section in context
My current video project file is half a terabyte 😭
3/4 of my editing time rn is just spent loading project files and rendering so I can see my working section in context
December 13, 2025 at 5:57 AM
Choosing the artistic medium that requires so much data to produce a single visual really was a choice.
My current video project file is half a terabyte 😭
3/4 of my editing time rn is just spent loading project files and rendering so I can see my working section in context
My current video project file is half a terabyte 😭
3/4 of my editing time rn is just spent loading project files and rendering so I can see my working section in context
It’s always the moments when I’m physically exhausted and mentally eeeehhhh where my brain goes:
what if we went to the mall ? ?
No bad brain, you hate the mall. The mall is the opposite of an enrichment enclosure. Do not go there.
what if we went to the mall ? ?
No bad brain, you hate the mall. The mall is the opposite of an enrichment enclosure. Do not go there.
December 13, 2025 at 12:51 AM
It’s always the moments when I’m physically exhausted and mentally eeeehhhh where my brain goes:
what if we went to the mall ? ?
No bad brain, you hate the mall. The mall is the opposite of an enrichment enclosure. Do not go there.
what if we went to the mall ? ?
No bad brain, you hate the mall. The mall is the opposite of an enrichment enclosure. Do not go there.
It’s fascinating taking this and realizing how explicitly my boundaries around reading certain things are shaped by gender dysphoria and trauma.
I’ll read plenty of stuff, but my hard nos and absolute yesses 100% follow a pattern
I’ll read plenty of stuff, but my hard nos and absolute yesses 100% follow a pattern
Kink Survey is now live and mostly ready to be completed!
Feel free to complete it a second time if you previously did it when it was under more significant construction. I have about 40 pie charts of responses live, and will do more this week.
johannestevans.co.uk/2025/12/10/k...
Feel free to complete it a second time if you previously did it when it was under more significant construction. I have about 40 pie charts of responses live, and will do more this week.
johannestevans.co.uk/2025/12/10/k...
Kink Survey
Interested in the results?
johannestevans.co.uk
December 12, 2025 at 8:43 AM
It’s fascinating taking this and realizing how explicitly my boundaries around reading certain things are shaped by gender dysphoria and trauma.
I’ll read plenty of stuff, but my hard nos and absolute yesses 100% follow a pattern
I’ll read plenty of stuff, but my hard nos and absolute yesses 100% follow a pattern
Everyday look like movie!
December 12, 2025 at 3:17 AM
Everyday look like movie!
Reposted by Nat
Yeah he is
December 11, 2025 at 8:33 PM
Yeah he is