disc. I'm a late-diagnosed AuDHD bastard

I do worry that I trigger him, and I am trying to lose weight, but I don't know what to do because you literally can't tell my dad or anyone in his family what to do. They always have to be right.

He has two biscuits for breakfast, barely any lunch most days (we try to "gift" him food that he'll feel it rude not to eat, but it has to be yellow sticker discount), frequently either goes on a big walk or bike ride, then if it's not a family meal night he binges white bread sandwiches for tea

"why are you bullying your dad for having disordered eating" because he's never shown any particular sympathy for mine or my mother's weight struggles and he likes to lecture you about how YOU'RE FAR unhealthier than he is the second you voice any concern he skips meals frequently

I should have just used ONE egg to make this single omelette that I never usually have. Similar incident occurred when I had to make pancakes from scratch because we didn't have much food in except the barest essentials. He likes to buy food like we're in the 1920s bc he just starves himself

Afair he got Too Much for me around the time Yelan released and he did a special livestream pulling for her while nutting in his pants over this woman mocapping her character model and posing suggestively and it felt like watching a lapdance. His wife was in the room iirc. SHOCKED to learn he cheats

Yes, this is the same guy who has basically a Schroedinger's Pedophile (omg would smash haha no jk pedos should d13... but qiqi does have nice legs HAHA OMG NO I'M KIDDING I'M KIDDING) attitude towards all the child characters in Genshin. My stupid ass did think it was just a very unfunny bit

whyyyy. I suspected his leftism was fake af but whyyy. why was I so stupid it's so obvious this mans a dangerous gooner who lied about how abusive his family were for easy updoots (he would then start inviting his elderly rapist dad on stream to rate Genshin women on how goonable they are. V normal)

Okay so who's worse, the non-men who occasionally poke fun at stans or the South Korean businessmen whose entire model is forcing young talent through rigorous and abusive boot camps in order to groom vulnerable women and teenage girls into unhealthy parasocial relationships

I literally have nothing against kpop it's just that specific strain of stans lol (I like some kpop songs but I'm not that into it)

Putting words in women's mouths for them is a bit sexist as well, don't you think?

They're a kpop stan so no ❤️ (this is a joke)

"and now he's out of my life for the last time" is not "he ran into my knife. He ran into my knife ten times"

Not to mention that if literally any little mistake slips through my "manager-who-isnt-technically-my-manager-anymore but still functionally is because my actual manager is ridiculously busy" slips into my team's DMS with a "What Did You Do With This From a Month Ago" and then I shut down for an hr

and also most of our teams manpower is currently being taken up by Dealing With AI Bullshit, which involves using a certain AI detection software that is infamous for the scores lurching up and down even after the submission has been checked. Now I have to screenshot everything I check!! Fun