That said, going from annual to 4x/year visits while we tune all of these new meds

Anywho, very good visit on the whole

I got most of what I was aiming for. And he's on board with approving the rest if/when we wrangle BP

On the flip side, no Orlissa or similar femme hormone deletion shenanigans until/unless BP wrangled

So I'm not free from periods *yet*

But we're trialing a BP med my mom responded well to

And he's gonna try and help apply pressure to get me the diagnostic surgery for endo

Sir

I recommend precisely *none* of that

(That said, congrats on getting the pneumonia itself to GTFO!)

May your recovery be smooth, such that you can at least go back to more routine-for-you flavors of embodiment misadventures (chronic disability is a wild ride, huh?)

Ty <3 Odds are it goes okay it's just I have more hopes riding on this than I'm comfortable with and that fact plus pain is a spicy combo >.<

And, of course, brains are such rational, reasonable piles of tissue, hence my laying here wide awake but knowing I need to sleep so I can wake up in time

Also happy pain fun times cuz my parents' house has literally zero comfortable chairs and the guest bed missed its calling as a torture device

Genuinely, this is the kind of posting that makes a huge fucking difference when a year starts off the way this one has

Thank you!

I am someone who struggles with indecision such that awarding superlatives or making fav lists is nigh impossible

I guarantee you that Sinners is landing somewhere in my top 10 at worst, and will probably quite a bit higher

Fwiw, the smoke also helps subdue them, and according to the boomy lady the ones that are on fire don't last long enough to matter

This is also NY state, so not exactly setting off explosions in a tinderbox

That's a cheeky touch with the magnifying glass ignition though <.<

Between the gasoline and the explosives, *something* worked

Also left an impressive crater in the lawn

Said friend really wants the landscapers to be around sometime when he services the property, just so he can ask what they think of the craters they have to patch up

One of my friends works in pest control, and he has an *excellent* story about one lady who got tired of waiting for a tech to come out and blew up the hornet nest in her yard

She apparently had a similar approach to dealing with squirrels, groundhogs, bunnies, and other digging critters

Oh, and I'm now at 8k words this year for Book 2, and that's without having written on the 3rd or 4th

I know better than to set resolutions like 'writing every day'

But something like 'write most days'? That's more doable, and still leaves time for me to ruminate/digest and take breathers

Friday is a doc appointment that could well be transformative for me, if I can get my doc on board (probably like 60/40 odds?) then we bludgeon insurance into submission

I'm trying not to get my hopes up, but I could really use the win atm

It is such a *deeply* cat thing, too

(Ours also get anxious if the litter box has no turds in it and seek to, ahem, rectumify the issue with all possible haste)

(This gets extremely amusing when multiple litter boxes are scooped in sequence)

So now I'm tapped out, exhausted, in pain, and still have to be ready to head out of town for a week in a little under 60 hours

The most frustrating part in some respects is that even once I wrangle all of those big emotions,

1. My body treats that the same as other kinds of exertion

2. Pain kicks into high gear afterwards, both as a post-exertional response and also just to fill the void left by emotions deflating