Aleusha
@markeronmyhands.bsky.social
Idek. I like bugs, books, and water.
I write unpublished novels.
Black Lives Matter.
I write unpublished novels.
Black Lives Matter.
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Another really shitty day. The whole family is discouraged.
Not much else I can say.
Not much else I can say.
January 14, 2026 at 11:46 PM
Another really shitty day. The whole family is discouraged.
Not much else I can say.
Not much else I can say.
Stop scrolling and post two characters that bring you happiness.
January 14, 2026 at 5:53 AM
Stop scrolling and post two characters that bring you happiness.
Trying to get ahold of myself. Meds finally incoming. Virus seemingly tapering off. Ate a full dinner! Feeling chill and relaxed, just in time for bed.
Push it 30 min and enjoy feeling okay? Or get to sleep and hope for things accomplished tomorrow?
Lose/lose honestly. 2026 sucks so far.
Push it 30 min and enjoy feeling okay? Or get to sleep and hope for things accomplished tomorrow?
Lose/lose honestly. 2026 sucks so far.
January 14, 2026 at 2:45 AM
Trying to get ahold of myself. Meds finally incoming. Virus seemingly tapering off. Ate a full dinner! Feeling chill and relaxed, just in time for bed.
Push it 30 min and enjoy feeling okay? Or get to sleep and hope for things accomplished tomorrow?
Lose/lose honestly. 2026 sucks so far.
Push it 30 min and enjoy feeling okay? Or get to sleep and hope for things accomplished tomorrow?
Lose/lose honestly. 2026 sucks so far.
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I cannot.
I must lie down
I must lie down
January 13, 2026 at 10:45 PM
I cannot.
I must lie down
I must lie down
Today is not much better so far.
I'm trying not to cry and panic, but I can't go on like this much longer.
Thank God for my family.
I'm trying not to cry and panic, but I can't go on like this much longer.
Thank God for my family.
January 13, 2026 at 10:18 PM
Today is not much better so far.
I'm trying not to cry and panic, but I can't go on like this much longer.
Thank God for my family.
I'm trying not to cry and panic, but I can't go on like this much longer.
Thank God for my family.
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"How are you?"
ME: I'll be sick forever, but other than that I'm fine.
ME: I'll be sick forever, but other than that I'm fine.
January 13, 2026 at 7:39 PM
"How are you?"
ME: I'll be sick forever, but other than that I'm fine.
ME: I'll be sick forever, but other than that I'm fine.
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If you don't think mass blocking JK Rowling would work if she moved here - let me remind you that JD Vance is on BlueSky. A fact you almost definitely forgot.
January 13, 2026 at 9:02 AM
If you don't think mass blocking JK Rowling would work if she moved here - let me remind you that JD Vance is on BlueSky. A fact you almost definitely forgot.
Had a new med start last month, got insanely miserable itchy, quit med, itching totally stopped. Now a week later, it is back? Am I allergic to something else too?
So far 2026 needs to just fuck off.
So far 2026 needs to just fuck off.
January 13, 2026 at 4:57 AM
Had a new med start last month, got insanely miserable itchy, quit med, itching totally stopped. Now a week later, it is back? Am I allergic to something else too?
So far 2026 needs to just fuck off.
So far 2026 needs to just fuck off.
I thought I had kinda hit a low point about a month ago, but honestly tonight is as low as I've felt in a long time.
Debating what the most helpful mindset would be right now.
I really need a positive day tomorrow.
Debating what the most helpful mindset would be right now.
I really need a positive day tomorrow.
January 13, 2026 at 3:34 AM
I thought I had kinda hit a low point about a month ago, but honestly tonight is as low as I've felt in a long time.
Debating what the most helpful mindset would be right now.
I really need a positive day tomorrow.
Debating what the most helpful mindset would be right now.
I really need a positive day tomorrow.
Despite all of my medication/insurance/mental health problems the last month, it is clear now that I am also physically ill. Got flu and COVID shots, and doesn't really feel like them. Might be norovirus I'm afraid.
I am so put out and exhausted at this point.
I am so put out and exhausted at this point.
January 12, 2026 at 11:29 PM
Despite all of my medication/insurance/mental health problems the last month, it is clear now that I am also physically ill. Got flu and COVID shots, and doesn't really feel like them. Might be norovirus I'm afraid.
I am so put out and exhausted at this point.
I am so put out and exhausted at this point.
Feel like shit. Still haven't been able to get my med filled. So feeling crazy and hypomanic.
And yet I'm ill. Can't hardly eat, sleeping too much, muscle spasms, dehydration.
Am I crazy?
Do I have a virus?
Am I crazy and I also have a virus??
And yet I'm ill. Can't hardly eat, sleeping too much, muscle spasms, dehydration.
Am I crazy?
Do I have a virus?
Am I crazy and I also have a virus??
January 12, 2026 at 2:29 AM
Feel like shit. Still haven't been able to get my med filled. So feeling crazy and hypomanic.
And yet I'm ill. Can't hardly eat, sleeping too much, muscle spasms, dehydration.
Am I crazy?
Do I have a virus?
Am I crazy and I also have a virus??
And yet I'm ill. Can't hardly eat, sleeping too much, muscle spasms, dehydration.
Am I crazy?
Do I have a virus?
Am I crazy and I also have a virus??
omg the pain this morning. The misery.
January 11, 2026 at 1:19 PM
omg the pain this morning. The misery.
All I want to do is wake up hubby. I feel very edgy and worried.
With all the trazodone and propanolol I've taken today, it's hard to believe I'm this worked up.
Really really need my new prescription filled.
With all the trazodone and propanolol I've taken today, it's hard to believe I'm this worked up.
Really really need my new prescription filled.
January 10, 2026 at 4:28 AM
All I want to do is wake up hubby. I feel very edgy and worried.
With all the trazodone and propanolol I've taken today, it's hard to believe I'm this worked up.
Really really need my new prescription filled.
With all the trazodone and propanolol I've taken today, it's hard to believe I'm this worked up.
Really really need my new prescription filled.
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I was staring at the sky, just looking for a star
To pray on or wish on or something like that
To pray on or wish on or something like that
January 10, 2026 at 4:22 AM
I was staring at the sky, just looking for a star
To pray on or wish on or something like that
To pray on or wish on or something like that
All I want to do in the whole wide world is fall asleep quickly.
January 10, 2026 at 3:54 AM
All I want to do in the whole wide world is fall asleep quickly.
Ugh, issue with a prior authorization for my med. I need it so much. Very discouraged and frustrated.
😭
😭
January 9, 2026 at 7:24 PM
Ugh, issue with a prior authorization for my med. I need it so much. Very discouraged and frustrated.
😭
😭
I really super want to be asleep right now.
January 9, 2026 at 2:55 AM
I really super want to be asleep right now.
I wish my meds were not all fucked up. I get the new med tomorrow, but I feel pretty bad tonight. Really sick of the last few months.
January 9, 2026 at 2:07 AM
I wish my meds were not all fucked up. I get the new med tomorrow, but I feel pretty bad tonight. Really sick of the last few months.
I can hardly stand to lay here. I want to shed my skin and run screaming into the night and curl up in the bushes.
January 8, 2026 at 4:18 AM
I can hardly stand to lay here. I want to shed my skin and run screaming into the night and curl up in the bushes.
Can my hypomania and restless legs be under control enough to sleep in bed with hubby? I hope so. Last night was rough rough rough.
January 8, 2026 at 4:07 AM
Can my hypomania and restless legs be under control enough to sleep in bed with hubby? I hope so. Last night was rough rough rough.
What a shitty couple of days.
I am literally too exhausted to pull back the covers and get in bed.
Manifesting tomorrow being calm.
I am literally too exhausted to pull back the covers and get in bed.
Manifesting tomorrow being calm.
January 8, 2026 at 4:03 AM
What a shitty couple of days.
I am literally too exhausted to pull back the covers and get in bed.
Manifesting tomorrow being calm.
I am literally too exhausted to pull back the covers and get in bed.
Manifesting tomorrow being calm.
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Now you have it, so tell me, baby, what's the word?
Am I your gal, or should I get out of town?
I just need to be reassured
Do you just deal it out, or can you deal with all that I lay down?
Am I your gal, or should I get out of town?
I just need to be reassured
Do you just deal it out, or can you deal with all that I lay down?
January 7, 2026 at 7:15 PM
Now you have it, so tell me, baby, what's the word?
Am I your gal, or should I get out of town?
I just need to be reassured
Do you just deal it out, or can you deal with all that I lay down?
Am I your gal, or should I get out of town?
I just need to be reassured
Do you just deal it out, or can you deal with all that I lay down?
9:15am. Still up, no sleep last night. Pain and muscles feeling kinda better, but I'm getting squirrely and worried about mania now.
UGH!!!!
UGH!!!!
January 7, 2026 at 2:16 PM
9:15am. Still up, no sleep last night. Pain and muscles feeling kinda better, but I'm getting squirrely and worried about mania now.
UGH!!!!
UGH!!!!
No new pictures, where are you mentally?
January 7, 2026 at 11:18 AM
No new pictures, where are you mentally?
Finally getting yesterday's meds somewhat out of my system. The burning and itching skin was almost unbearable.
Feeling better and more comfortable, but very wired and shaky. I had a THC gummy and 4 beers and two benedryl and I'm still wired?
How and why?
Feeling better and more comfortable, but very wired and shaky. I had a THC gummy and 4 beers and two benedryl and I'm still wired?
How and why?
January 7, 2026 at 6:20 AM
Finally getting yesterday's meds somewhat out of my system. The burning and itching skin was almost unbearable.
Feeling better and more comfortable, but very wired and shaky. I had a THC gummy and 4 beers and two benedryl and I'm still wired?
How and why?
Feeling better and more comfortable, but very wired and shaky. I had a THC gummy and 4 beers and two benedryl and I'm still wired?
How and why?