I'm actually fine. My anxiety was so high it's gonna stay pretty elevated even though the actual thing that I was most anxious about isn't there. I am like this, that will take a couple more days to die down. I have the time and space, so it will be OK.

The best way I can think of to describe my job, existence, outlook, etc.... average survival in jobs like mine, in companies like mine is 2-5 years, and more like 2 at companies as large as mine. They give up. I have had 7 direct supervisors in the last 11 years.

I did the job for 15 years.

Well, I worked in aerospace and I will still just leave it pretty vague beyond that, I might again after this. But I did something shitty (even if I HAD to) to people with enough pull and reputation to keep me from working at any place of consequence in our general corner of the industry again.

They can guess all day as to why, no longer my problem. And neither is anything else. That's the last bit. Don't be a stranger and all that, but we'll be rebooting some stuff maybe soon, definitely this month.

When they get called on the carpet, they SHOULD blame me ghosting them for the, ehh, $25m-ish(?) hole in their profit by mid-year. I put them in an impossible spot.

BUT they'll have a letter from the asshole responsible it that explains exactly who forced him to, and how.

I'm guessing they will never figure out how to do this correctly, they can learn, but not in time for 2026. There will be a substantial (not-world ending, but... large) shortfall on margins by mid-year. They'll be asked who is responsible for this being fucked up this year. It's in my letter. 🤷

I wanted to say one more thing, very much Columbo style, to actually take a pound of flesh or more. Realized I'd legit be an idiot not to immediately retain a lawyer if I actually did it. I have the goods, but it is in no way worth it. I flipped them off PLENTY hard enough.

Anyway, I addressed that big ass, terse, bullet points (seriously) document in a nice discoverable e-mail to the HR person, 1/2 of the problem and also an officer of the company.

I copied the two people who are getting fucked over, and didn't copy the C-level asshole who started it. Have fun! LOL

Between that, the nature of tasks I had to do and how those go... I was in a position where my stress and anxiety were both maximized, and it was by design. So the people who are getting FUCKED... well, I made sure they knew, step by step, receipts if available, exactly who fucked them, and how.

Don't be, or do be. Let's say it was 100% my choice and I did it in a pretty unapologetic way and because I *really* had to. I kept asking for some kind of basic clarity on what the purpose was of very intentionally and obviously and almost to prove a point putting me on an island.

Right now, my plan is to not land anywhere in 2025. We're just gonna circle up here until visibility improves. Sometime in January maybe.

Thanks for nice comments. I do miss you folks.

I said goodbye to quite a few people I liked working with earlier today because the place we work sucked. Not being on Bluesky feels similar. If you're reading this, you are probably are not why I had to leave. You are why I came back to say hi.

Whichever one brings back the 7-layer burrito permanently. I'm not picky.

But, the past is the past, and the old world is dead as fuck.

I just quit my job of 21 years with no notice a couple hours ago. Have decided it is time to let it all burn. Hope everyone's having a cool Thursday. Maybe I will see you all in hell or possibly at Taco Bell. I want a chalupa.