Irony doesn't even begin to cover this 🥲

Hanging by a thread...

What is happening with companies right now? I'm so confused.

The rejection email was enough. It was frankly insulting to have the guys suggest I go through the whole process again for an entry level position. If you think I'm bad at what I do just fucking say so. I've been a "junior" at this job for 7 years. I can't anymore.

And the reason I'm still salty with this last one is because the hiring person tried to "throw me a bone" by offering I apply for the junior position who would be doing a bunch of stuff I did not want to do on a 1 year contract with no option to move into a permanent position.

of a sticking point for me, to the point where I can't hide how anxious it makes me. I feel dread for the in person interview. My mind goes blank and I feel panicky at those things. I've always needed someone else to vouch for me if there's a vibe check interview.

most people's vibe check at first impression. I have experienced years of going to social gatherings with colleagues where a bit of alcohol in their system brings out the "you know, I really didn't like you at first..." or some variation thereof. The vibe check interview is becoming more and more...

Anyway, I've found some names and I have options. I'll make more effort to actually start the process but also I don't know if getting a diagnosis will help me navigate finding work or not.

Repeat this many times over until the lockdowns of 2020 and I find a video about experiencing the world as an autistic woman and... I may have found the roadblock. Me. I'm the roadblock. Look into local and international support groups, look into getting diagnosed and oh wow I can't afford that.

"You can't un-invent AI!" We can't un-invent asbestos either. That doesn't mean we have to use it.

Eeeep hope you get to scurry home and all around soon!