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I hate everything right now.
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December 20, 2025 at 7:40 AM
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Forgiving ourselves doesn't mean pretending we were always perfect in the past. Realistic trauma recovery has plenty of room for amends & accountability. But it also has room for grace & understanding the reality of our context & limitations in the past.
December 21, 2025 at 2:54 AM
Forgiving ourselves doesn't mean pretending we were always perfect in the past. Realistic trauma recovery has plenty of room for amends & accountability. But it also has room for grace & understanding the reality of our context & limitations in the past.
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It's one of the most common experiences of complex trauma survivors to have no idea who the hell we even are-- wondering if our identity & preferences are really "us," or who we got bullied or gaslit into being for safety.
Reconstructing ourselves is THE core recovery project.
Reconstructing ourselves is THE core recovery project.
December 21, 2025 at 2:53 AM
It's one of the most common experiences of complex trauma survivors to have no idea who the hell we even are-- wondering if our identity & preferences are really "us," or who we got bullied or gaslit into being for safety.
Reconstructing ourselves is THE core recovery project.
Reconstructing ourselves is THE core recovery project.
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Don't let someone give you sh*t about "avoiding" "discomfort." No trauma survivor I know "avoids" "discomfort"-- they're often absolute champions at tolerating pain.
Dissociation is NOT a conscious choice to "avoid." It's a reflex many survivors find annoying & inconvenient.
Dissociation is NOT a conscious choice to "avoid." It's a reflex many survivors find annoying & inconvenient.
December 17, 2025 at 11:28 PM
Don't let someone give you sh*t about "avoiding" "discomfort." No trauma survivor I know "avoids" "discomfort"-- they're often absolute champions at tolerating pain.
Dissociation is NOT a conscious choice to "avoid." It's a reflex many survivors find annoying & inconvenient.
Dissociation is NOT a conscious choice to "avoid." It's a reflex many survivors find annoying & inconvenient.
‘Murica
December 18, 2025 at 3:30 AM
‘Murica
Nice, almost had the house burn down using a charger on my SD
Was literally staring at it when a (non oem) charger suddenly started spewing smoke and sparks from the port
SD seems alright?
But fuck me I cut that cord right away holy shit..
Was literally staring at it when a (non oem) charger suddenly started spewing smoke and sparks from the port
SD seems alright?
But fuck me I cut that cord right away holy shit..
December 18, 2025 at 3:28 AM
Nice, almost had the house burn down using a charger on my SD
Was literally staring at it when a (non oem) charger suddenly started spewing smoke and sparks from the port
SD seems alright?
But fuck me I cut that cord right away holy shit..
Was literally staring at it when a (non oem) charger suddenly started spewing smoke and sparks from the port
SD seems alright?
But fuck me I cut that cord right away holy shit..
I mean I should just block everyone else
December 17, 2025 at 9:46 PM
I mean I should just block everyone else
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At some point in our trauma recovery, we are absolutely going to be faced w/ the choice of losing someone else, or losing ourselves. It sucks-- but if the only way we can keep someone in our life is by betraying ourselves, that price is too high.
No more self abandonment.
No more self abandonment.
December 16, 2025 at 5:52 AM
At some point in our trauma recovery, we are absolutely going to be faced w/ the choice of losing someone else, or losing ourselves. It sucks-- but if the only way we can keep someone in our life is by betraying ourselves, that price is too high.
No more self abandonment.
No more self abandonment.
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Shout out to every trauma survivor working today to shift a belief or behavior that no longer serves you. It's awkward, it's annoying, it's tiring, it can be scary. And, it's how we change how we feel & function over time-- by doing it even though it sucks.
You're doing it.
You're doing it.
December 16, 2025 at 5:53 AM
Shout out to every trauma survivor working today to shift a belief or behavior that no longer serves you. It's awkward, it's annoying, it's tiring, it can be scary. And, it's how we change how we feel & function over time-- by doing it even though it sucks.
You're doing it.
You're doing it.
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I am the type of person who would rather watch a new movie than one I've seen, but I'm getting old enough I think there's some I'm due for a rewatch...
What's a movie you could watch another dozen times and still enjoy it?
What's a movie you could watch another dozen times and still enjoy it?
December 16, 2025 at 2:09 AM
I am the type of person who would rather watch a new movie than one I've seen, but I'm getting old enough I think there's some I'm due for a rewatch...
What's a movie you could watch another dozen times and still enjoy it?
What's a movie you could watch another dozen times and still enjoy it?
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He doesn't give a shit unless your rich
December 14, 2025 at 10:39 AM
He doesn't give a shit unless your rich
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You shouldn't have had to be funny or cute or entertaining to get the attention & acceptance you needed growing up.
You shouldn't have to "perform" normalcy or anything else to get be "worthy" of support & understanding now.
You shouldn't have to "perform" normalcy or anything else to get be "worthy" of support & understanding now.
December 11, 2025 at 2:13 AM
You shouldn't have had to be funny or cute or entertaining to get the attention & acceptance you needed growing up.
You shouldn't have to "perform" normalcy or anything else to get be "worthy" of support & understanding now.
You shouldn't have to "perform" normalcy or anything else to get be "worthy" of support & understanding now.
Damn… I really needed this reminder today as it’s been another hard day…
You are worth so much more than half assed effort in relationships. Don't let your trauma history convince you otherwise.
"Their" inability to step up has zero to do w/ whether you deserve high effort. "Their" effort issue is a "them" issue -- which WILL catch up to them.
"Their" inability to step up has zero to do w/ whether you deserve high effort. "Their" effort issue is a "them" issue -- which WILL catch up to them.
December 9, 2025 at 8:12 AM
Damn… I really needed this reminder today as it’s been another hard day…
I hate that the moment I wake up my mind says “yep time to ruminate on all your failures in your last relationship that ended 8 months ago” like, the LITERAL moment my mind turns on. It’s the first thing I think about and the last one before bed. I hate this. I hate my brain.
December 7, 2025 at 7:43 PM
I hate that the moment I wake up my mind says “yep time to ruminate on all your failures in your last relationship that ended 8 months ago” like, the LITERAL moment my mind turns on. It’s the first thing I think about and the last one before bed. I hate this. I hate my brain.
I had a terrible bday
But I made it up with FUXKING OWNING one of my hobbies
+ being honest with my person about needs
So that’s simply and fun ig
But I made it up with FUXKING OWNING one of my hobbies
+ being honest with my person about needs
So that’s simply and fun ig
December 4, 2025 at 3:53 AM
I had a terrible bday
But I made it up with FUXKING OWNING one of my hobbies
+ being honest with my person about needs
So that’s simply and fun ig
But I made it up with FUXKING OWNING one of my hobbies
+ being honest with my person about needs
So that’s simply and fun ig
After how ruff thur was I ended up getting drunk and tickling the wallet online (I shopped on like, eBay, Etsy, hempwick and zippo) I tried to avoid any of the major places. They have nothing I want anyways
Havent had hemp wick for the bud for months, and it don’t taste right and the high don’t hit
Havent had hemp wick for the bud for months, and it don’t taste right and the high don’t hit
November 29, 2025 at 6:43 PM
After how ruff thur was I ended up getting drunk and tickling the wallet online (I shopped on like, eBay, Etsy, hempwick and zippo) I tried to avoid any of the major places. They have nothing I want anyways
Havent had hemp wick for the bud for months, and it don’t taste right and the high don’t hit
Havent had hemp wick for the bud for months, and it don’t taste right and the high don’t hit
I’m so fucking broken I just don’t even understand. I feel nothing from hugs. I feel nothing when cuddling. I feel nothing when being held. All those things just make me sob and long for my past. Why did I sacrifice so much for someone who doesn’t even care about me
November 28, 2025 at 4:47 PM
I’m so fucking broken I just don’t even understand. I feel nothing from hugs. I feel nothing when cuddling. I feel nothing when being held. All those things just make me sob and long for my past. Why did I sacrifice so much for someone who doesn’t even care about me
I hate today. I hate this holiday season. I’m so broken. I thought I’d made so much progress a year ago. Guess I was just lying to myself. I’m such a fucking loser.
Sure it’s nice not being spoken down to all the time and whatever. But the shit I dealt with before was better than the longing now..
Sure it’s nice not being spoken down to all the time and whatever. But the shit I dealt with before was better than the longing now..
November 27, 2025 at 3:26 PM
I hate today. I hate this holiday season. I’m so broken. I thought I’d made so much progress a year ago. Guess I was just lying to myself. I’m such a fucking loser.
Sure it’s nice not being spoken down to all the time and whatever. But the shit I dealt with before was better than the longing now..
Sure it’s nice not being spoken down to all the time and whatever. But the shit I dealt with before was better than the longing now..
I just looked at photos for the first time in months. I sobbed uncontrollably for a while..
I just wish I could have my old life back. Idk what things would have looked liked today, but they were better than the constant pain and daily crying I go through.
I know I made this choice for the other
I just wish I could have my old life back. Idk what things would have looked liked today, but they were better than the constant pain and daily crying I go through.
I know I made this choice for the other
November 22, 2025 at 7:13 PM
I just looked at photos for the first time in months. I sobbed uncontrollably for a while..
I just wish I could have my old life back. Idk what things would have looked liked today, but they were better than the constant pain and daily crying I go through.
I know I made this choice for the other
I just wish I could have my old life back. Idk what things would have looked liked today, but they were better than the constant pain and daily crying I go through.
I know I made this choice for the other
That’s gonna be some intense fucking dreams with wormwood
if you become friends with a local wizard you can give him fresh herbs and ask him to craft you health potions. these contain wormwood, lemon balm, hyssop, fennel and anise
November 5, 2025 at 10:55 PM
That’s gonna be some intense fucking dreams with wormwood
Lmao I’ve heard history repeats itself but holy shit
I was watching a 1952 Periscope Films film, which is like the company that filmed those old school health and safety videos we saw in school growing up.
Anyways. The very last moment, they just showed like random teens and Y/a’s and said
I was watching a 1952 Periscope Films film, which is like the company that filmed those old school health and safety videos we saw in school growing up.
Anyways. The very last moment, they just showed like random teens and Y/a’s and said
November 5, 2025 at 12:55 AM
Lmao I’ve heard history repeats itself but holy shit
I was watching a 1952 Periscope Films film, which is like the company that filmed those old school health and safety videos we saw in school growing up.
Anyways. The very last moment, they just showed like random teens and Y/a’s and said
I was watching a 1952 Periscope Films film, which is like the company that filmed those old school health and safety videos we saw in school growing up.
Anyways. The very last moment, they just showed like random teens and Y/a’s and said
I disagree with this wholeheartedly. I live in a small rural state and town and it’s very hard to locate info about voting for it of any definitive help.
More importantly, tons of our large towns/cities ARE VOTING TODAY.
Literally my partner was like, oh we gotta vote! So I spent awhile digging
More importantly, tons of our large towns/cities ARE VOTING TODAY.
Literally my partner was like, oh we gotta vote! So I spent awhile digging
There is a distinct possibility that some people are too stupid to participate in a democracy
November 5, 2025 at 12:27 AM
I disagree with this wholeheartedly. I live in a small rural state and town and it’s very hard to locate info about voting for it of any definitive help.
More importantly, tons of our large towns/cities ARE VOTING TODAY.
Literally my partner was like, oh we gotta vote! So I spent awhile digging
More importantly, tons of our large towns/cities ARE VOTING TODAY.
Literally my partner was like, oh we gotta vote! So I spent awhile digging
So… things have been better like emotionally lately which is good and huge. I have been dating someone, that I have tried to breakup with multiple times, because I’ve never… been with someone that could have adult conversations (don’t worry I’m not trapped) like when we discuss things we don’t like
November 4, 2025 at 6:16 PM
So… things have been better like emotionally lately which is good and huge. I have been dating someone, that I have tried to breakup with multiple times, because I’ve never… been with someone that could have adult conversations (don’t worry I’m not trapped) like when we discuss things we don’t like
I see cat, I heart
Could be like “this cat murdered a family of twelve in the middle of the night”
And I’m like
‘Awwww cute kitty *heart*’
Idc what else is happening, the only thing I have right now is fucking cute kitties
🐈⬛
Could be like “this cat murdered a family of twelve in the middle of the night”
And I’m like
‘Awwww cute kitty *heart*’
Idc what else is happening, the only thing I have right now is fucking cute kitties
🐈⬛
October 31, 2025 at 9:32 PM
I see cat, I heart
Could be like “this cat murdered a family of twelve in the middle of the night”
And I’m like
‘Awwww cute kitty *heart*’
Idc what else is happening, the only thing I have right now is fucking cute kitties
🐈⬛
Could be like “this cat murdered a family of twelve in the middle of the night”
And I’m like
‘Awwww cute kitty *heart*’
Idc what else is happening, the only thing I have right now is fucking cute kitties
🐈⬛
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Every church should be doing this, and if your church isn’t, you’re at the wrong church.
October 31, 2025 at 12:14 PM
Every church should be doing this, and if your church isn’t, you’re at the wrong church.