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pupperonova.bsky.social
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@pupperonova.bsky.social
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Fox/Husky, troublemaker, this is where I scream into the void before my head explodes.
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pupperonova.bsky.social
Frustrating having a bad ADHD day where like there’s the combo of hyperfixation but flitting thoughts and attention. Fucking tiring.
December 4, 2025 at 7:53 PM
pupperonova.bsky.social
Feeling completely unimportant and like I’m destined to, at BEST, struggle no matter what I try is getting to the point I’m seriously struggling to stay okay.

Ever since Wednesday last week feel my mind unraveling and just exhausted and breaking.
December 2, 2025 at 8:48 PM
pupperonova.bsky.social
Every time I see the papers and what is coming I fucking feel the panic.

Fuck I am so tired.
November 27, 2025 at 4:42 AM
pupperonova.bsky.social
I’m almost at a loss for words at how much can go wrong in life in such a short time.

Wife says my eyes are dead right now. Matches how my soul feels.
November 27, 2025 at 1:27 AM
pupperonova.bsky.social
Ya ever have a realization hit you so hard it makes you stop breathing for a second?
November 23, 2025 at 5:49 PM
pupperonova.bsky.social
Fuck the BPD-like symptoms are fucking bad today I just want to curl into a ball fuck I hate being like this.
November 21, 2025 at 6:07 PM
pupperonova.bsky.social
I ruin everything.
November 8, 2025 at 4:01 PM
pupperonova.bsky.social
God I wish I could punch something hard enough to break it.
October 26, 2025 at 7:40 PM
pupperonova.bsky.social
You know how sometimes you hate everything about yourself?

Yeah.
October 14, 2025 at 2:01 AM
pupperonova.bsky.social
🥺 feel like I’m not good enough at being an adult. It’s overwhelming. It’s so fluffin overwhelming >.<
October 10, 2025 at 3:37 AM
pupperonova.bsky.social
Love realizing… nope. Am still a piece of shit.
October 5, 2025 at 5:14 PM
pupperonova.bsky.social
Not being replaced not being replaced not being replaced not being replaced… please 😣
October 4, 2025 at 2:58 AM
pupperonova.bsky.social
Masking so much is exhausting.
September 26, 2025 at 8:28 PM
pupperonova.bsky.social
a husky dog is laying in the dirt with the words sad husky below it
ALT: a husky dog is laying in the dirt with the words sad husky below it
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September 26, 2025 at 8:25 PM
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shimi.bsky.social
New zine: “Look Into My Eyes One Last Time”

A final love letter to the self I shed
A prayer for the creature. Becoming
A reckoning, a surrender. Homecoming

This is my deepest wish laid bare—needle, fur, breath, & mercy. Being held with a care I never found.

#AnimalHRT #Therianthropy #ShortStory
A hand-drawn black-and-white cover image in a sketchy ink style. At the top, large stenciled type reads: “LOOK INTO MY EYES ONE LAST TIME.” Below the title is a syringe and a small medicine vial labeled “LUPINEX – Therionyl – 5mL,” with a stylized eye logo on the label. The vial and syringe are crosshatched with vintage texture lines. Below the drawing, in handwritten script, is the phrase: “Homecoming, not vanishing” and the signature Shimi & Critter. [Art on Page] A detailed graphite drawing of a wolf’s eyes. One, the left is more formed than the right — indicating a near but not complete transition. The fur around them is dense and wispy, rendered in fine pencil lines that suggest softness and depth. The eyes are highly realistic and expressive, staring directly outward with intense, soulful focus. They seem alert but ancient—wide with instinct, watching as if waiting for something to begin. The drawing fades at the edges into blank white space, giving the eyes a floating, disembodied presence. Look into my eyes one last time Look into my eyes. Hold them close until you can see the last scrap of me — the part that counts thoughts in lists, that weighs choices against rules, that folds shame into tidy, human-shaped pockets. Watch it loosen. Watch the corners of doubt unhook themselves like small animals from a net and dart away. There is no melodrama here, no violent yanking; it slips. The human mind peels like old bark, and underneath, the thing that always was settles warm and terrible and simple. They give me the last injection in a room that smells faintly of cedar and lemon. No needles, no cold clinical lecture — only the careful hands of doctors, veterinarians and nurses who know which bones to cradle and which stories to leave untold. I breathe. I lost the ability to count days back. I let the bracing liquid be a gate, not an instruction manual. I do not want to name it; names are the thin net that caught me for years. The burn is a rumour. It goes through me sideways — a quiet rearrangement, like a convent bell that signals not death but a calling. My limbs answer first. They stop thinking of movement and begin to remember it: how to fold, to coil, to push. Tendons unlearn the polite phrasing of two-legged steps and curve toward the old, fourfold geometry of running. My hands tighten and flatten; the knuckles find a new logic. Fur prickles along my forearms as if a thousand small moths take flight together and settle again. Each hair is a note in a chord I’ve felt… no… known in my bones since childhood. Look again. See how the pupils widen, how the whites retreat like a shy moon. My last maps of metaphor — the maps that turned hunger into lists and longing into projects — dissolve. Where there had been a ledger of self, there is now only the immediate ledger of scent and sound and the earth’s exact tilt beneath my weight. I do not mourn the maps. I never used them as well as the human world predicted and as I pretended. Sound changes. Those little, trivial noises of the room condense into a chorus: the slow tick of breath in the person beside me, the whisper of fabric, the distant wet confluence of gutters. And underneath that: a low, patient life-frequency — root and soil and river. It is not music so much as an acknowledgment. I find I can hear the insect conversation inside the walls, the sap walking up the birch, the small, stupid heartbeat of a mouse two blocks away. There is an intimacy to it that is almost rude. Breath becomes work and worship at once. My ribcage narrows, then widens in ways I know but cannot name. Milk memories — a thing to shame into silence when human — rise like a tide: the cadence of suckling, the doctrinal simplicity of being called to feed and to protect. A swelling around my belly that is not fat but purpose. I think of my children who never were, of the packs I have loved in mute pieces. The notion of motherhood is larger than gender; it is a compass with teeth. My children! You are my children and you are my all! My jaw shifts. I feel the slow, inevitable rearrangement — a socket loosens, a hinge finds its voice. A tooth erupts where an organised thought had lived. The smell of iron, rain-damp soil, and sleeping bodies that have waited for me — flooding my mouth like saliva. Tears come and I do not know if they are human or creature; they taste of salt and release. There is a tenderness in my own trembling that I have never allowed before. Outside the window, someone whose scent I knew laughs and it sounds to me like a distant bell. The handlers murmur: careful, gentle, let her and her pack decide. My mouth forms the shape and bark of guttural assent I could not voice when I was wholly human. Somewhere a crate opens as if the world is taking a breath with me. They will test me further, yes. They will see whether my newness walks toward the wild or clings to the small, safe hands of fosterers who will teach me boundaries, how to pass in a world of paved things. I do not fear them. I am no longer wrapped in that ledger — of consent, of cost, of consequence. I am wrapped in appetite and mercy. The choice, if there is one, feels less like an argument and more like a direction: toward den or home, toward the kill lovingly taken or the bowl lovingly given. Look once more. There is no human drama in my eyes now — only depth, like a riverbed where stones remember every footstep. The last scrap of thought, the tiny librarian of my life who loved lists, things and order, exhales and steps back through the doorway we are leaving open. I feel it go, and where it is gone there is fullness, a pulse that answers the creature’s call without translation. This is not a loss. It is not my obliteration. It is the solving of a long, clenched equation. I am not lessened. I am finally the shape I have been learning. Look into my eyes, one last time. I am awakening. — Shimi & Critter @shimi.bsky.social
September 26, 2025 at 1:47 AM
pupperonova.bsky.social
Mood…
an illustration of a fox walking on a frozen lake
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August 8, 2025 at 8:29 PM
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emilystjams.bsky.social
Feel like "Don't you want to fight these bastards for real?" would be a good campaign slogan for a primarily challenger to a Democratic incumbent.
July 1, 2025 at 8:38 PM