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she/they - 30 - in treatment for anorexia
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here’s a little about me:
- my name is Toni, I’m 30 years old and I live in Scotland
- last week I was diagnosed with anorexia and referred for urgent treatment. I’m expected to begin this in the middle of January with Lothian Eating Disorder Services
- my name is Toni, I’m 30 years old and I live in Scotland
- last week I was diagnosed with anorexia and referred for urgent treatment. I’m expected to begin this in the middle of January with Lothian Eating Disorder Services
had two sandwiches in one day. in the past this would have made me freak out but today it’s fuelling my body keeping me nourished and happy and able to do all the things that bring me joy! i love you bread! i love you recovery
February 16, 2025 at 2:44 AM
had two sandwiches in one day. in the past this would have made me freak out but today it’s fuelling my body keeping me nourished and happy and able to do all the things that bring me joy! i love you bread! i love you recovery
anorexia is the STUPIDEST illness. what do you mean i’m afraid of bread
February 6, 2025 at 8:27 PM
anorexia is the STUPIDEST illness. what do you mean i’m afraid of bread
i hate this feeling i hate feeling like this i hate itttttt
February 6, 2025 at 8:26 PM
i hate this feeling i hate feeling like this i hate itttttt
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If you have an eating disorder or struggle with disordered eating, there’s a high chance your hunger cues will be all over the place. But not feeling hungry isn’t a reason not to eat, and there’s lots of ways your body might be telling you it’s hungry without a rumbly stomach: 🧵
February 3, 2025 at 12:44 PM
If you have an eating disorder or struggle with disordered eating, there’s a high chance your hunger cues will be all over the place. But not feeling hungry isn’t a reason not to eat, and there’s lots of ways your body might be telling you it’s hungry without a rumbly stomach: 🧵
some bad news during my appointment today. had a cry in the loo at the clinic. at least i made it through a week. happy one week in treatment to me
February 3, 2025 at 9:54 PM
some bad news during my appointment today. had a cry in the loo at the clinic. at least i made it through a week. happy one week in treatment to me
the eating disorder clinic is a deeply bizarre place. it smells of lucozade. you never ever make eye contact with anyone. the doorbell sounds like gunshots. that tiktok song called messy is playing every single time you’re here
February 3, 2025 at 9:53 PM
the eating disorder clinic is a deeply bizarre place. it smells of lucozade. you never ever make eye contact with anyone. the doorbell sounds like gunshots. that tiktok song called messy is playing every single time you’re here
massively on the struggle bus today. it sucks that I feel bone crushing fatigue after every single meal. no matter how big or small I’m just so tired I can barely stand. I also get headaches sometimes. I know it’s par for the course but it SUCKS
February 2, 2025 at 1:34 PM
massively on the struggle bus today. it sucks that I feel bone crushing fatigue after every single meal. no matter how big or small I’m just so tired I can barely stand. I also get headaches sometimes. I know it’s par for the course but it SUCKS
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they should invent a recovery that isn’t a process
January 27, 2025 at 11:22 PM
they should invent a recovery that isn’t a process
goddamn this is hard. it’s only been a day and it’s already hard
January 28, 2025 at 6:40 PM
goddamn this is hard. it’s only been a day and it’s already hard
first day of treatment today. 2pm uk time. i’m so scared and i’ve barely slept because i couldn’t stop crying
January 27, 2025 at 8:13 AM
first day of treatment today. 2pm uk time. i’m so scared and i’ve barely slept because i couldn’t stop crying
feeling deeply awfully uncomfortable in recovery yet keeping going with it anyway
January 19, 2025 at 10:37 PM
feeling deeply awfully uncomfortable in recovery yet keeping going with it anyway
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This is what extreme hunger feels like when you have anorexia
January 16, 2025 at 7:50 PM
This is what extreme hunger feels like when you have anorexia
three meals and two snacks today!!! who Is she
January 16, 2025 at 9:41 PM
three meals and two snacks today!!! who Is she
huge win with dinner today - made this jasmine rice bowl with fish fingers, wakame seaweed, pickled red onion, mushrooms and egg (the rice is underneath!) and had it all. then was still hungry and had a piece of toast, some delicious sourdough. and I feel … mostly fine about it.
January 12, 2025 at 8:00 PM
huge win with dinner today - made this jasmine rice bowl with fish fingers, wakame seaweed, pickled red onion, mushrooms and egg (the rice is underneath!) and had it all. then was still hungry and had a piece of toast, some delicious sourdough. and I feel … mostly fine about it.
the thing about my eating disorder is that it’s all-consuming, weirdly enough.
January 10, 2025 at 8:48 AM
the thing about my eating disorder is that it’s all-consuming, weirdly enough.
last night I couldn’t make myself have dinner and I was really upset about it. no matter what I did, no matter what I told myself, I didn’t manage to convince myself that I deserve to eat dinner
January 8, 2025 at 1:19 PM
last night I couldn’t make myself have dinner and I was really upset about it. no matter what I did, no matter what I told myself, I didn’t manage to convince myself that I deserve to eat dinner
it feels so weird to see it written down and yet a huge part of having an ED is that imposter syndrome feeling of “I’m just making it up. it’s not real” and I’ve learned that’s the disorder trying to hide. it is real
January 7, 2025 at 2:34 PM
it feels so weird to see it written down and yet a huge part of having an ED is that imposter syndrome feeling of “I’m just making it up. it’s not real” and I’ve learned that’s the disorder trying to hide. it is real
got my letter from the clinic, really weird to see the diagnosis “atypical anorexia nervosa” just written down there
January 5, 2025 at 1:30 PM
got my letter from the clinic, really weird to see the diagnosis “atypical anorexia nervosa” just written down there
I’ve been so incredibly stressed about food like, all day long
January 1, 2025 at 9:13 PM
I’ve been so incredibly stressed about food like, all day long
had a three course meal at a restaurant!! did NOT freak out!!! please clap
December 27, 2024 at 1:16 PM
had a three course meal at a restaurant!! did NOT freak out!!! please clap
the reality of EDs is exhausting to the point where you can barely function, especially around food-centred holidays and family gatherings. i’m very very tired
December 26, 2024 at 9:15 AM
the reality of EDs is exhausting to the point where you can barely function, especially around food-centred holidays and family gatherings. i’m very very tired
the reality of my Christmas this year is that I’m spending the evening in a bedroom, alone, listening to the sound of my family having fun, while I’m panicked and overwhelmed because of food
December 25, 2024 at 8:18 PM
the reality of my Christmas this year is that I’m spending the evening in a bedroom, alone, listening to the sound of my family having fun, while I’m panicked and overwhelmed because of food
I begin treatment on 27 January!
marking the news with some delicious soup :)
marking the news with some delicious soup :)
December 23, 2024 at 8:09 PM
I begin treatment on 27 January!
marking the news with some delicious soup :)
marking the news with some delicious soup :)
today’s small recovery win: had a bread roll with my lunch soup
December 19, 2024 at 11:35 PM
today’s small recovery win: had a bread roll with my lunch soup
anyway this is my current attitude towards recovery having not yet actually started my treatment
December 18, 2024 at 5:45 PM
anyway this is my current attitude towards recovery having not yet actually started my treatment