had two sandwiches in one day. in the past this would have made me freak out but today it’s fuelling my body keeping me nourished and happy and able to do all the things that bring me joy! i love you bread! i love you recovery

anyway here’s some nice things I got to eat this week.
- butter and cream gnocchi
- bean stew with sourdough
- porridge
- porridge again

huge win with dinner today - made this jasmine rice bowl with fish fingers, wakame seaweed, pickled red onion, mushrooms and egg (the rice is underneath!) and had it all. then was still hungry and had a piece of toast, some delicious sourdough. and I feel … mostly fine about it.

it feels so weird to see it written down and yet a huge part of having an ED is that imposter syndrome feeling of “I’m just making it up. it’s not real” and I’ve learned that’s the disorder trying to hide. it is real

the reality of EDs is exhausting to the point where you can barely function, especially around food-centred holidays and family gatherings. i’m very very tired

I begin treatment on 27 January!

marking the news with some delicious soup :)

today’s small recovery win: had a bread roll with my lunch soup

anyway this is my current attitude towards recovery having not yet actually started my treatment