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I saw a video the other day about how flowers will die when taken care of properly but will bloom in a space that is inhospitable because it's their last chance of making an impact before they die. It's called stress blooming. It explains a lot.

the one on top is the man formerly known as my brother, except he's in debt so maybe also everything is on fire & he's shooting fire everywhere because he's in denial that it's his own fault & he's got a gun pointed at me because he wants my money

yeah...

I'm related to two of the women hanged for being witches in Salem. my genealogy goes back to England. these people are posers.

if he doesn't push me anymore, we'll be able to get out. if he pushes & abuses more... I'm setting the house & garage on fire with everything in em & hanging myself off the front roof. I will leave him with nothing.

I don't know if mom has the evidence. else she would have explored that option already. but thank you.

he's a terrible person. in absolute denial of everything. that he's doing this to mom after the abuse she's endured all her life... I've wasted my time trying to understand him. he's dead to me.

I don't feel safe here. I don't trust him. his apologies mean nothing. he doesn't care about us. he doesn't care how badly he hurts us or how he's taken advantage of mom.

he. doesn't. care.

I just needed some time to heal. I thought I could rely on him to let me stay in my own bedroom while I fixed myself.

this entire time he's had no empathy. he ONLY wants me to get a job & pay rent.

he took all of mom's money.

he chose not to pay the mortgage.

he chose to pay his credit cards.

I came back inside after my feet went numb. I asked mom if he said anything, she said she called him a liar & a bastard. she said the entirety of his anger, abuse & hatred is cause I don't have a job.

I quit work after dad died cause I was breaking down during my shift multiple times a day.

I have tried to be understanding & to connect with him over the years. today he told me he believed that I'm jealous that he has a gf. that I don't care about how he feels at all. that I don't want him to be happy. I asked him to explain why he thinks that but all he did was shrug.

I just spent I think an hour outside in the cold crying cause my brother ordered me out of "his house" after a fight.

he abuses my mom n I. he takes his anger out on us. when we try to fight back, he says we don't care about his feelings. he never stops being abusive, he doesn't care about us.

what happens if I...

anyway that's my Ted talk. now let me have 3 chickens in my own backyard.

they're smart, they play, they feel emotion & have their own personalities. they soft & warm, nice to hug or have on your shoulder while you work. gently hand raising them from chicks means they're not skittish & can be easily handled. they're quiet; they coo, purr & peep just like all birds do. ☺️🐔

my only concern is wild birds & predators. (possums, racoons, cats, hawks) that can be addressed by making a small caged run, using hardware cloth with holes too small for little paws to get through. let them out only when you can watch them. treat them like pets; they deserve the love & care.

they're not expensive to raise (good food, clean water, proper shelter, room to flap their wings.) a bag of feed lasts 2-3 months with grass & their own garden. they eat pest insects, not attract them. their poop is great fertilizer. an adequate coop is not hard to build, or expensive. I did it all.

well you can always go hunting to save money. I hear the investment in a good rifle could feed your family for a lifetime... ✨

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