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Jay Hawking
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Meadmaker, Historian, artist, writes random genre fic, literary, and non-fiction bullshit.

Against "AI" """Art"""

Art by an unknown student.

Stories for sale: jayhawking.itch.io
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Another big style test, this time a double spread at the actual dispatch size of the publication. Trying to thread a needle on collage style and legibility. Could still do with a little more of that overwhelming full text claustrophobia some of the best mothership zines have though...

#over/under
November 21, 2025 at 1:50 AM
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Over the course of the month I drew a portrait or 2(hundred) in #over/under and called them 🩸HEADSHOTS🩸

And @sean.tuesdayknightgames.com said he might put them in the Mothership app so now you can all apply gentle pressure to that situation too! lol

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November 13, 2025 at 9:40 PM
Turns out, I got one last post in me about #over/under- kind of, anyhow. Moreso about its impact on me as a person, absolutely none of which I expected going into the game.
The Wasteland of Reality
Over/Under as a Volumetric Shit Compressor
jayhawking.substack.com
November 14, 2025 at 2:08 AM
We've hit the end of #over/under, so here's blog post #10- cried a bit and I'm sleep deprived, but here it goes.
Living the Dream (Redux)
A (Final) Summary of the Over/Under Game Experiment
jayhawking.substack.com
November 11, 2025 at 9:36 PM
Posting a bit of @d20plusmodifier.bsky.social's art of my silly little guy that he did for #over/under, once again: big ups to him, thanks for betting on me due to your cat's gambling addiction 🫡
November 10, 2025 at 11:07 PM
Blog Post #9 for #over/under, less sad girl stuff, more "here're the websites and other things people put together for the game, along with some other blogs about the whole game."
The Paratext of Over/Under
Alright, we’re moving past the sad girl shit that was in my last blog post (for now, at least, we’re gonna be all about that again next go around) and instead focus on a very interesting topic: the ma...
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November 10, 2025 at 9:09 PM
We're on the final full day of #over/under and. There just isn't enough time to do everything. Which is weighing on me in a slightly existential way but we ball.
Time in a Bottle
The Rush to Get Everything Done in Over/Under
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November 10, 2025 at 7:51 PM
In which I write about how #over/under has *a lot* of information games flying around- and how it lead to the game having its own corrupted blood incident.
The Information Game
Over/Under and Info/Misinfo
jayhawking.substack.com
November 10, 2025 at 4:51 AM
Turns out #over/under is still doing horrific things to my brain, got another post about it despite consistently thinking I'm done till the end (turns out: I'm grieving it, fuck).
One Blow After Another
The Domino Effect of Over/Under
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November 8, 2025 at 10:05 PM
I'm almost freed of my burden of writing #over/under blog posts, but apparently my brain decided to hit me with another idea before the end, so here's #5; it's all about emergent game mechanics rather than the sad girl shit I've been on about
Patterns of Play
Emergent Game Mechanics in Over/Under
jayhawking.substack.com
November 7, 2025 at 11:02 PM
Doing these back to back, since there was a fourth #over/under blog post I just finished writing, with a throughline of "Luke Gearing has made me intensely emotional by way of the devil on his shoulder."
Flowers in Bloom
Why I've Cried Over Over/Under
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November 7, 2025 at 7:03 AM
Forgot to link it on here, but did a third blog post about #over/under a few days back, all about dreading the end of this bizarre fucking game.
The End is Near
Another Set of Ramblings
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November 7, 2025 at 6:59 AM
Was actively avoiding looking at anything related to the Steelers-Colts game today because I knew in my fucking soul the Steelers were gonna eat shit.

Anyway this is how I found out they won, football rocks actually
November 3, 2025 at 1:08 AM
Continuing to be in the pits of essay writing because of #over/under, so take this: art is by @arca-de.bsky.social.

jayhawking.substack.com/p/tears-in-t...
Tears in the Rain
Character Death and Departure in RPGS
jayhawking.substack.com
November 1, 2025 at 1:06 AM
Been having a *lot* of tears in the rain moments with #over/under these past 24 hours, finding that I'm immensely and deeply moved constantly; sometimes with it only *really* hitting hours after the fact. Fantastic shit, no notes (actually I may write a post about death in rpgs, so stay tuned).
October 31, 2025 at 11:11 PM
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irving study
October 29, 2025 at 1:07 PM
Continued to be in the pits of an utter brain rewiring, vomited out over a thousand words about #over/under last night and finally set up a blog just specifically so I could post about it, so I inflict unto you:

jayhawking.substack.com/p/living-the...
Living the Dream
Life Within Prospero Station; A Summary of the Over/Under Game Experiment
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October 28, 2025 at 4:54 PM
Last post about #over/under for the night: adding onto that aspect of completely separate gameplay experiences, barely learned:
1) A writer for mothership's actually playing
2) Image not related
October 19, 2025 at 8:14 AM
Actually, gonna post more about #over/under: there've been parallel play experiences that simply don't *interact at all*. While I was in a fighting tournament (and betting on myself) people were doing shit like setting up fullblown ARGs, submitting art grant proposals, all kinds of wild crap.
October 19, 2025 at 6:17 AM
Been playing #OVER/UNDER for several days and:

1) Actually chill as hell
2) I really wanna run Mothership again
3) Turns out, when players are left to their own devices in a freeform-ish game, a solid 50% of all activity they'll come up with "how do we come up with a new way to gamble"
October 19, 2025 at 5:50 AM
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Windows 10 End of Life is in less than 2 weeks!
But you don't have to upgrade to Windows 11!!

This video will show you how to extend the life of Windows 10 by 3 more years via Extended Security Updates program safely, for free.

MS throws you to the wolves, but the wolves will throw you a bone.
October 4, 2025 at 12:55 AM
David Bowie
Ween
St. Vincent
Nine Inch Nails
Utah Phillips
Lupe Fiasco
Fiona Apple
Daniel Kahn
Sonny Sharrock
Minutemen
Bela Bartok
Kool Keith
Diamanda Galas
King Tubby
Meat Puppets
Gétachew Mèkurya
Define your music taste in eight artists:

the mountain goats
jeff rosenstock (and associated projects)
100 gecs
underscores
lady gaga
david bowie
sophie
guns n' roses
October 17, 2025 at 5:02 PM
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David Simon, creator of ‘The Wire’, being interviewed by Ari Shapiro (NPR)
October 9, 2025 at 4:42 AM
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THE MEME IS REAL
September 29, 2025 at 1:38 AM
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Lupin the Third Part II (1977)
September 28, 2025 at 9:40 PM