crash captain sanguine
@lips.bsky.social
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divine and doing romantic queer rituals. solidarity forever. 🔞 ig
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catsuka.bsky.social
Tribute to "Kingdom Hearts" by Etienne Guignard.
www.instagram.com/cocoshonen
lips.bsky.social
pizza is entirely made out of things that are hard for my tummy but also... it's yummy
lips.bsky.social
I like to think of myself as a gift
lips.bsky.social
there's an almost academic distance to it.
lips.bsky.social
there's something settling in the worst way about having to do a million things with doctors appointments and medical fuck ups. I'm so used to dealing with it I can kinda autopilot and it just triggers and apathetic misanthropic numbness in me.
lips.bsky.social
I don't understand how I find myself with no syringes. there's simply no way.
lips.bsky.social
send this to 20 guys who ruin everything they touch to give them the gift of a deeply relatable story
lips.bsky.social
So the story of King Midas was about a guy who ruined everything he touched.
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treelet.bsky.social
"i'm in love with my own reflection, i'm in love with the fruited earth."
A green line drawing featuring a figure looking out the port window of a space craft unto the glowing planet below. Various plants sit on the table. The text beneath reads: "i'm in love with my own reflection, i'm in love with the fruited earth."
lips.bsky.social
unreal how beautiful this is
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docvivileandra.bsky.social
Every sci-fi author tries to come up with a material "more advanced" than steel, as if steel is a single material with a single set of properties and not, like, hundreds of different materials that we are still advancing and improving

The more advanced equivalent of steel is just better steel lol
lips.bsky.social
god I still have a million things to do of course
lips.bsky.social
it's not my fault but I still gotta use all my energy on it all the time. energy I should use to try and feel happy. to try and do other things. to sleep. to eat. to workm but instead it's gotta go here because it's not my fault but it's my responsibility.
lips.bsky.social
but I've worked my ass off to not be too broken and too much so if I am, after all that, then it's those doctors fault. so if my condition worsens and everything falls apart at least I know the names of who else to blame. :)
lips.bsky.social
just a decade of medical trauma telling me I'll ruin everything by being sick n broken. that I do need too much. I am too much. that the only people that can know and take care of me are highly specialized doctors and then they'll hurt me too. and maybe that's all true, I'm not sure, jury still out.
lips.bsky.social
so much of my life has been being punished by doctors for showing emotion, asking for reassurance, asking for help, asking for time, asking for care, and then being ignored or abandoned. and then that translating in my brain to outside of medical care.
lips.bsky.social
every therapist or doctor who gets to know it literally will tell me they're kinda shocked I'm here alive and able to know what's going on in my brain. which is fair.
lips.bsky.social
I don't think many people understand the mental toll mecfs takes. like I already have PTSD it's a miracle I have it together at all. miracle I'm here at all. just a disability where you don't have energy to manage emotions and I still do.
lips.bsky.social
okay but maybe it's deeply true.
lips.bsky.social
I hate paranoia cuz the thought pops up over and over and it's so hard to not just feel it's true.
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lips.bsky.social
anyways she's gonna stab me in the arm again in 7 hours. feel fine probably.