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neffectual.bsky.social
Neff
@neffectual.bsky.social
Them fatale. Omnivore. Knitter. Married. Disabled. 3 cats, 2 rabbits, 2 snakes. PTSD, c-PTSD, ADHD, ASD, BPD, POTS, CFS, fibromyalgia, migraine etc.
https://archiveofourown.org/users/Neffectual

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Mum friend
Sophie can be Muttley, who we all know was running that show anyway.
January 31, 2026 at 9:29 AM
(It's literally just because Robert has guests of varying levels of loudness, and I don't like waking up to It Could Happen Here as I'm less familiar with it. Molly is Soothing Horrors, Robert is Wacky Horrors. Get him a Dick Dastardly hat.)
January 31, 2026 at 9:27 AM
Just watched the sun come up after waking at 2.30am in the grips of a chronic pain-induced PTSD relapse, and I was wondering when @iwriteok.bsky.social's voice as my "this is calm radio, please turn off the brain and go to sleep to the horrors" had been replaced by @socialistdogmom.bsky.social. Now.
it's not, and if you've ever had so much as a moment of joy while bad things exist you should be ashamed

the next time you smile at a sunrise, remember: you're smiling with Hitler
Its actually good and okay to try and find moments of joy during the horrors. Dont let anyone shame you for it.
January 31, 2026 at 9:16 AM
And that's a shame, because firstly, no one should have to live in the shadow of their teenage selves, and secondly, I was enjoying the show until my brain couldn't split the two.

But now it's just surreal and a tag I have to block on Tumblr and an ao3 section I must never venture into.
January 28, 2026 at 6:35 PM
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JK Rowling: hello children
Rowling: i finally know why the ungrateful kidss thesse dayss have been rejecting harry potter
Barker: we all figured that out a long time ago
Poe: clive
Barker: oh i'm sorry edgar
Barker: am i wrong?
Poe:
Poe: no you're not wrong
January 28, 2026 at 5:49 PM
Fucking love having people ask me "so, you like horror.... what about the Magnus Archives?"

Biggest laughs I get, remembering schoolboy Jon Sims vs what people on tumblr think the character should be. Can't take the damn thing seriously, I just can't.
January 28, 2026 at 5:56 PM
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Rowling: sssee, the kidsss today don't like liberalisssm ergo they don't like harry potter
Barker: hmmm yeah i don't know about that
Barker: pretty sure it's the transphobia
Rowling: NO
Rowling: it'ss becausse of liberalisssm
Barker: is it tho?
Rowling:
Rowling: sshut up
January 28, 2026 at 5:53 PM
That's not any sort of actionable anything, it's just a slow realisation I'm coming to that's a little more scary than if it were the despairing rage of my usual depressive turns. This is just like feeling your body numb when you're out in the cold, slowly, until it hurts. I'm just so tired.
January 27, 2026 at 2:31 AM
I am so fucking ill. I really don't know how we're going to make it to April, I honestly don't. Times like this I wish I was less stubborn and could ask people to come and help me fold laundry, or tidy, or go to the tip for me. I'm just so tired, and feel so unwell. I don't want to keep going.
January 27, 2026 at 2:28 AM
I would like to feel well enough to have a wash. That would be nice.
I really can't deal with the whole bedrotting thing as an *aesthetic* when my body manages about four to six hours awake out of every 30, I manage a wash maybe once a week, and when I am awake, I just lie there wishing I wasn't.
January 27, 2026 at 2:28 AM
I just need one more place where we're the cat spouses, or capouses, and we'll have the full set!
January 26, 2026 at 2:16 AM
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tl cleanse: grackle ritual🪶
January 26, 2026 at 12:15 AM
Geralt is hungry, methinks. It's almost like you should've eaten when we tried to feed you last week, my girl. Twit.
January 26, 2026 at 1:51 AM
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the girls!
January 25, 2026 at 8:22 PM
Part of what I love about different people knowing spouse and I for different things is that in one group of friends we're known as the bunny wives or bun wives, whereas in another via our friend who is also our reptile vet, we're the snake lesbians or snesbians.
January 26, 2026 at 1:43 AM
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Daily bunny no.3206 gets some twigs for the fire
January 22, 2026 at 5:05 AM
I shouldn't have to worry that a robot is telling me bedtime stories.

At least in The Veldt, they knew damn well the nursery was a machine.
January 22, 2026 at 5:26 PM
It shouldn't be something made with all the water in a lake and by someone who doesn't give a shit pressing three buttons.

It should be something made with research and love and care, by someone who wants to help but also be accurate and a reliable source. It should take time and effort.
January 22, 2026 at 5:26 PM
But I'm also really sad. It was calming, and soothing, and helped me sleep, and spouse and I both liked it, which isn't always the case. It didn't bombard us with fucking Lenovo ads every 10 seconds, no one shouted at their friends, it was just calm and droney and restful, and that should be real.
January 22, 2026 at 5:26 PM
So now no more soft, gentle, cosy podcast for us to go to sleep to, and it's like... Fuck these people, who think shoving some prompt into an LLM and not caring about the accuracy, then getting a not real voice to read it out is a fucking podcast! It's not! It's just AI slop, and I hate it!
January 22, 2026 at 5:26 PM
Those that I'd found a great podcast, super calming, low energy, to fall asleep to. Then, looking to see how many episodes we had, wife and I saw how crazy the release schedule was. Wife went "...is this AI?"

And of course, it is. No human can output 3-5 hours of recorded content almost daily.
January 22, 2026 at 5:26 PM
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Just once can we have a billionaire just say 'fuck, that's enough. holy shit. I didn't think you'd give me this much. I'm out of here. I'm shutting down my economic cancer machine.'
January 21, 2026 at 11:14 PM
Managing arla protein shakes here and there, they help!
January 21, 2026 at 11:34 PM
Nah, still fat, so no one really cares, as per usual. But also, I live off full sugar coke, so that's my main calories. Lost about three stone between March and December last year, but we'll see how I go now. The ARFID probably wouldn't make complain or anything any easier, though.
January 21, 2026 at 11:02 PM
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If you have read even a single history of fascism, you are already aware that one thing that its rise has in common in every case is an opposition party that refuses to intervene for fear of looking weak or putting the left into power
January 21, 2026 at 8:46 PM