ATwistedYarn
@atwistedyarn.bsky.social
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Gamer, aspiring writer, yarn enthusiast, severe weather enjoyer. 41F 🔞 to be safe. Cranky, but I don't bite. Currently obsessed with FFXVI. Ultima Apologist.
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I'm not going to sit here and say I've never had to work on any internalized misogyny, but that early experience sure did give the lie to a lot of the systemic shit for me. It was a rare contrast that prompted me to ask questions, continously.

I feel that exhaustion w/ failures to reflect too.🙃
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Every day I count myself fortunate that, in an otherwise crappy upbringing, one of my best adult influences outside of home was my father's female commanding officer during his Air Force career.

She was assertive, confident, competent, etc. My father had to salute her any time we crossed paths.
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understanding the facts, motives, and contexts behind choices and behaviors.

Shitty judgment involves jumping to conclusions based on little more than personal biases, preferences, animus, etc.

Ironically, the judgment that people actually tend to call judgmental is far less judicious!
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I might have said this before, but I don't think there's such a thing as literal 'non-judgment'. Even if your conclusion about a person is overwhelmingly positive or compassionate, that's still judgment.

What people call 'non-judgment' is usually just good, slow judgment that's concerned with+
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If you come for the woman, the dog will eat you. #FF16 #FinalFantasyXVI
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Hmmm...Interesting. But for legal purposes, I do not have, nor have I ever had any plans with regard to any current or future colleagues that could conceivably lead to this conclusion as a result of my own actions or influence on others.

I have neither the funds nor the charisma.
sorrowscopes.bsky.social
Virgo: You are destined to become the best in your chosen profession, in a last person alive sort of way.
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#inktober2025 #inktober #ff16 #ffxvi #finalfantasy
Ink drawing of Dion Lesage from Final Fantasy 16, sitting down, bandages around his torso and arm. In the background, a giant crystal shaped like the wyvern tail flower is seen, alongside lanterns drifting on the water.
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Oh, I understand all of that. The thought experiment I'm playing with here is in consideration of whether or not free will is truly free if it's not absolute.

Volition is probably better thought of as a spectrum rather than an absolute, however, for practicality's and sanity's sake.
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Ahh, apologies if I came off...rough in that regard, then.

(Clive is infuriating in his inability or unwillingness to absorb those ideas and messages for himself, though. He gains so much wisdom, but points so little of it inward. Tragic.)
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So, so true. Pisses me right the fuck off too. It would be one thing if those sorts were just being honest about what they personally do or do not like, but noooo.

They have to set up their tastes as false moralistic standards so they can shit on anyone who commits the ~sin~ of thinking otherwise.
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Me: I can absolutely express my thoughts on this thing in a clear, concise, and easy to digest manner.

Me, waking up to see the big thread I wrote before passing out the night before: Hm. Nope. No, I cannot be normal about this at all.
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Got kicked out of my work’s holiday party planning committee for suggesting the theme be “man’s inhumanity to man”
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And I totally agree with the idea that Clive and Joshua’s relationship would hit some serious rough patches post-game if they both lived. Even if Joshua didn’t make it, Clive has that life-long, uphill battle of figuring out who he is to himself beyond the purposes he served for others.
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and chaotic evidence we're meant to digest when looking at the theme of volition.

It's as though Ultima is factually correct, yet morally wrong about humanity. There are no easy answers.

There's just...so, so much to consider and examine and re-examine. It makes for great fic fodder, too. +
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What frustrates me most is that there's a pretty large failure on the part of the audience to realize that Clive is meant to be understood as deeply complicated and flawed character. They treat him and his relationships like they're beyond reproach, when really, they're part of a body of nuanced +
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Clive narrative didn't fall flat to me, because I know his behavioral patterns to be realistic both from my own experiences and studies, and because it suits the themes of the story--it doesn't shy away from the fact that healing is non-linear and that human nature, even at its best, is a *mess*.
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one they followed unconsciously and without question.

Are we free? Is that even possible?
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the weather forecast was calling for more than 2" of snow. They'd all come in and shop as if they might not leave their houses for weeks. Even their procession to check out was...herd-like. Most didn't do any of that because they were genuinely afraid, but b/c it was practically tradition, albeit+
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or the views of this or that influencer? How many people are burning down their capacity for critical and independent thought with AI, a costly toy that has its own masters for sure?

I leave this thread with another memory, from when I worked in grocery retail. Everyone in town would panic if+
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that it took a long minute and a good bit of therapy to begin routinely questioning if the ideas in my head were independently mine and sincere.

But it doesn't take outright codependency to be overly-influenced from the outside. How often do we momentarily lose ourselves in social expectations+
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I had my own codependency issues, and I can readily identify times when I contorted my own perspectives and values to match those of others I was afraid to lose. And at those times, I would have called it mere agreement. My thoughts and feelings were so modeled on what I thought others wanted of me+
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fully objective; to discern where their will ends and our own begins. If these lines become too blurred by the needs, expectations, and even the camaraderie of others--even those we love and trust--do we still belong to ourselves?

I often find myself looking back on my own past, in my 20's when+
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volition become so confused with and wrapped up in the perspective or influence of another that it can no longer really be called volition?

These questions have no comfortable answers (And admittedly, I'm a sucker for those.)

We all know that we can be too close to a person or a situation to be +