paxin
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Agender (it/its) ⚧️ Ace/Queer 🏳️🌈 Engaged @bunthejewels.bsky.social💍 AuDHDer 🦋 GIS Undergraduate 📍 Bun Dad (x2!) 🐇 Zune Enthusiast 💽 Programming Beginner 👩🏻💻 Future Funerary Archaeologist ⚰️
I deserve the pain Im inflicted
February 6, 2026 at 7:56 AM
I deserve the pain Im inflicted
One thing I'd tell past me is to not try to be in a relationship because you're too fucked up to do it right. you'll just love people to death and be unable to show it the way that makes them feel how much you love them. That's not fair to them or you. Don't be a jerk. Isolate sooner.
February 6, 2026 at 7:52 AM
One thing I'd tell past me is to not try to be in a relationship because you're too fucked up to do it right. you'll just love people to death and be unable to show it the way that makes them feel how much you love them. That's not fair to them or you. Don't be a jerk. Isolate sooner.
What do I do when I'm totally alone? My mom doesn't know what to do with 31 year old suicidal me who hasn't live with her for 10 years but lives in another parents basement still. She got 2 fucked up kids and I know its my dad's fault but what do any of us do about it now?
February 6, 2026 at 7:41 AM
What do I do when I'm totally alone? My mom doesn't know what to do with 31 year old suicidal me who hasn't live with her for 10 years but lives in another parents basement still. She got 2 fucked up kids and I know its my dad's fault but what do any of us do about it now?
Every millimeter I get closer to them and finally being able to do the things I normally can't do for them feels like another giant wedge... Wtf do I do besides be someone I'm not or not be with them which i literally cannot. Guess I'll die?
February 6, 2026 at 7:39 AM
Every millimeter I get closer to them and finally being able to do the things I normally can't do for them feels like another giant wedge... Wtf do I do besides be someone I'm not or not be with them which i literally cannot. Guess I'll die?
Why am I only awake when no one else is? Even the people that are usually up this late never are when I am. It's so fun. I don't blame anyone but me, it's just a stupid coincidence, I know.
February 6, 2026 at 7:30 AM
Why am I only awake when no one else is? Even the people that are usually up this late never are when I am. It's so fun. I don't blame anyone but me, it's just a stupid coincidence, I know.
I just feel like every time I try to do anything accommodating, I'm shut down and made to feel at fault for something I wasn't responsible for, yet all I craved was to mitigate it before it got shitty. That's how people want it to be apparently, playing victim in hopes I'll forgo my own autonomy.
February 6, 2026 at 7:29 AM
I just feel like every time I try to do anything accommodating, I'm shut down and made to feel at fault for something I wasn't responsible for, yet all I craved was to mitigate it before it got shitty. That's how people want it to be apparently, playing victim in hopes I'll forgo my own autonomy.
To change that fart
February 6, 2026 at 5:19 AM
To change that fart
I could use a nice week long snow day pls revive my soul chilly precipitation
February 6, 2026 at 4:02 AM
I could use a nice week long snow day pls revive my soul chilly precipitation
Painting my nails always raises my charisma by at least 2 points
February 5, 2026 at 11:40 PM
Painting my nails always raises my charisma by at least 2 points
I don't think I'm doing well rn
February 5, 2026 at 10:53 AM
I don't think I'm doing well rn
I do love standing outside the dutch bros and watching the line of plane lights coming in to land. Reminds me of the now blocked off areas my dad would take me to watch the planes take off and land with Wendy's nuggets in his bronco in the early 2000s. PDX was so different back then.
January 30, 2026 at 4:52 AM
I do love standing outside the dutch bros and watching the line of plane lights coming in to land. Reminds me of the now blocked off areas my dad would take me to watch the planes take off and land with Wendy's nuggets in his bronco in the early 2000s. PDX was so different back then.
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They cannot imagine waking up wanting to die every single day and going to bed as a child BEGGING any higher power that would listen to make things right.
December 17, 2025 at 9:37 PM
They cannot imagine waking up wanting to die every single day and going to bed as a child BEGGING any higher power that would listen to make things right.
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So I lost my day job back in august - just in time for my birthday lol - and I'm struggling financially.
I feel bad asking for help, I've got a lot of trauma around being a burden, and I can't help but remember there's folks out there in worse circumstances...
Even so, if you want: ko-fi.com/orethon
I feel bad asking for help, I've got a lot of trauma around being a burden, and I can't help but remember there's folks out there in worse circumstances...
Even so, if you want: ko-fi.com/orethon
Support Gleam's Producer, Mads
Support Gleam's Producer, Mads
ko-fi.com
December 7, 2025 at 11:13 PM
So I lost my day job back in august - just in time for my birthday lol - and I'm struggling financially.
I feel bad asking for help, I've got a lot of trauma around being a burden, and I can't help but remember there's folks out there in worse circumstances...
Even so, if you want: ko-fi.com/orethon
I feel bad asking for help, I've got a lot of trauma around being a burden, and I can't help but remember there's folks out there in worse circumstances...
Even so, if you want: ko-fi.com/orethon
Top floor of the performance arts building at uni is p darn liminal in the evenings #liminalphotography
December 3, 2025 at 12:29 AM
Top floor of the performance arts building at uni is p darn liminal in the evenings #liminalphotography
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AH!
Dishwashers exist primarily to make living with traditional dinner ware easier. It's the anti-single-use-item machine.
The pods are like "but what if we force some single-use items into your routine?"
I think that's why I hate them so much.
Dishwashers exist primarily to make living with traditional dinner ware easier. It's the anti-single-use-item machine.
The pods are like "but what if we force some single-use items into your routine?"
I think that's why I hate them so much.
November 5, 2025 at 4:50 PM
AH!
Dishwashers exist primarily to make living with traditional dinner ware easier. It's the anti-single-use-item machine.
The pods are like "but what if we force some single-use items into your routine?"
I think that's why I hate them so much.
Dishwashers exist primarily to make living with traditional dinner ware easier. It's the anti-single-use-item machine.
The pods are like "but what if we force some single-use items into your routine?"
I think that's why I hate them so much.
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Ever tried to drive to a Timbers, Thorns, or Blazers game? If we want to bring back crowds of people to downtown, we need to invest in TriMet.
can tell trimet is bursting at the seams a bit today but when you need to get 10% of the city to downtown all at once there’s really no one else up to the task ✊
I wouldn’t be surprised if TriMet breaks a post-pandemic record for ridership today
October 18, 2025 at 8:52 PM
Ever tried to drive to a Timbers, Thorns, or Blazers game? If we want to bring back crowds of people to downtown, we need to invest in TriMet.
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🌟 very sad that my dear friend Jane Goodall has died. we were 1st in contact via fax letters to her home in Bournemouth, UK. we met in 1999, hit it off. she inspired me to write 3 songs: Counting On You, Roots & Shoots Everywhere and my tribute, Jane Jane (with her own chimp sounds). #RIPJaneGoodall
October 1, 2025 at 9:15 PM
🌟 very sad that my dear friend Jane Goodall has died. we were 1st in contact via fax letters to her home in Bournemouth, UK. we met in 1999, hit it off. she inspired me to write 3 songs: Counting On You, Roots & Shoots Everywhere and my tribute, Jane Jane (with her own chimp sounds). #RIPJaneGoodall
I love fucking up a photo with my phone so it looks like some early 2000s shit tho
September 21, 2025 at 7:59 PM
I love fucking up a photo with my phone so it looks like some early 2000s shit tho
I'd be Eric Andre's girlfriend
September 1, 2025 at 4:29 AM
I'd be Eric Andre's girlfriend
I wish I could trade places with my uncle. Even at twice my age, he has infinitely more to live for. Family, friends, students. There's no way I won't die from medical neglect anyways, so can I just give what's left of me so he can fill his life with more, pls...
August 16, 2025 at 4:08 PM
I wish I could trade places with my uncle. Even at twice my age, he has infinitely more to live for. Family, friends, students. There's no way I won't die from medical neglect anyways, so can I just give what's left of me so he can fill his life with more, pls...
My uncle (youngest of my mom's siblings) was just diagnosed with stage 4b lung cancer at 55. Their dad died of various cancers at 59. My mom is turning 60 this year. My grandma just went thru her (technically 3rd) second heart surgery because the arrhythmia isn't totally controlled by a pacemaker.
August 16, 2025 at 5:13 AM
My uncle (youngest of my mom's siblings) was just diagnosed with stage 4b lung cancer at 55. Their dad died of various cancers at 59. My mom is turning 60 this year. My grandma just went thru her (technically 3rd) second heart surgery because the arrhythmia isn't totally controlled by a pacemaker.
"Indeed, if archaeology is incapable of such sympathy, then by default we transpose our own worldviews onto archaeological materials to create a past as an expression of the present."
June 4, 2025 at 7:59 PM
"Indeed, if archaeology is incapable of such sympathy, then by default we transpose our own worldviews onto archaeological materials to create a past as an expression of the present."
This rocket go team leader person is trans/nonbinary and you CANNOT convince me otherwise
May 13, 2025 at 5:29 AM
This rocket go team leader person is trans/nonbinary and you CANNOT convince me otherwise