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transfigured woman, passionate mathematical artist, survivor of Bad Things, barbie nine jobs, the silliest of geese, multidimensionally queer, just as fucked up as they say
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Why Must You Tell Me This. Butt Out Of My Business. I Am Bearer of the Sacred Flashlight of Galadriel
"your flashlight is on" is the "your shoelaces are untied" of the digital age
ummm yeah i suppose i have observed over and over, to myself and therapists and 988, that life gets harder toward the en of the day and sleep can be an amazing reset

(e.g. last night i went to bed firmly convinced i want to die, so far today i’m not happy but i am unwilling to give up)
If night time is a trigger for you-- as it is for me, & lots of other trauma survivors-- have a strategy for how to handle what comes up at night. Do not try to just vibe your way through.

Your "parts" & inner child need more from us as the sun goes down.
also, sounds like more “spiro is bad” evidence :)
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i have also read i.m. in glutes with a long needle can be significantly slower than in quads or deltoid, but i am not ready to risk changing any time soon after finally resolving my hormone rollercoaster
yes yes this, absolutely

i am not sure about emotional effects but purely from blood tests i discovered that i absorb i.m. shots in my quads waaaaaay too fast (on day 5 my levels had dropped to “too low to measure”);

now i inject 4 days but subq in belly and blood tests show i’m stable
maybe the best thing about orchi/hrt has been that i *can* forget about sex, making it completely a deliberate choice
for me it’s more like actively hating sexuality some of the time, because ewww, but forgetting sexuality most of the time because sighhhhh
what if you did it at night but on a tighter schedule (one day less between shots)?
not allosexual, not asexual, but a secret third thing (it’s dysphoria and mental illness)
i’ve not yet had a moment in this group class where i felt like i learned something i had missed the first time i did a dbt class — we’re not covering any different material (to my disappointment)

(and i still feel like i am an outsider to the group)
group class in just over two hours, doubting its utility for me at this point in time

but this whole exercise might have been useful in a painful way just to gain perspective on my relationship with my old therapist

or maybe it’s all about avoidance and surrender and passivity 😞
she’s a 10 but only for her bust, hips are a 6 and ribcage a 12, nothing fits well
if you swim hard enough you get endolphins
haha i turned off autocorrect years ago, this is all on my semi-distracted brain
i mean, the hardest part is starting to look for the return policy i think, though the thought of printing a label and packaging up and dropping off wherever is also Too Much

sewing project feels so much more in my wheelhouse

(it’s also been 2+ weeks of staring at them on the bedroom floor so far)
is there a word for making a typing mistake that is phonetic rather than slipping up mechanically? like “retune” instead of “return”?

phonetic mistakes seem to be a new thing developing with age 😕
of course the moment i take the threadripper to a seam there’s no return possible
(at least they are not too small, or vastly too large, this is feasible)
the clothes i ordered in what i thought was my size are very definitely too big but i am also still overwhelmed at figuring out the retune process and part of me clearly is arguing it would be easier to deconstruct and retailor them to fit
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I mean, they’ve done worse things to heads of state.
The fact that a former president, in office from 2007 to 2012, will be imprisoned, let alone while still on appeal, has shaken France—and divided it
France puts a former president, Nicolas Sarkozy, behind bars
The first French ex-head of state to be jailed since Marshal Pétain
econ.st
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It's hard to use the word orotund in a post without seeming magniloquent.
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they HAD to demolish the white house, on account of all the diarrhea
ohh i see, it’s not a “pick one” kind of thing necessarily, just different sets of underlying core beliefs that may come to forefront in a certain situation