AndSheWas
@and-she-was.bsky.social
30 | Pittsburgh, PA | 🏳️⚧️
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![4 panel comic, ink and colored pencil
panel 1: a masc-presenting west asian trans woman, miss z, is taking her first shot of estradiol. in the background is a butterfly in transgender colors. off to each side is a syringe of pink, blue, and white liquid and a pink, blue, and white caterpillar. the left syringe is full and the right syringe has been depressed, shooting out the swirling liquid. the left caterpillar is extended, and the right caterpillar is scrunching forwards like an inchworm. caption: on nov. 14, 2024, i took my first shot of e. i swore that 2025 would be my "butterfly year."
panel 2: triptych of miss z, now fem-presenting, reacting happily, surprised but happily, and crying tears of joy respectively to the following phrases spoken off-panel: "good morning, miss z!" "pardon me, ma'am" "you're a wonderful daughter" caption: the scariest decision of my life was to socially transition. it was the right one: nearly everyone has been amazingly supportive.
panel 3: miss z, without visible clothing, is tastefully partially illuminated by a spotlight. she is crying and her heart is visible, à la undertale. she is saying, "why me? why now?" "why are we here? just to suffer?" and, "am i going to die alone and unloved?" caption: there were downs; hormones and processing a lifetime of trauma has brought my depression roaring back. with time and therapy, i'll be okay.
panel 4: miss z, without visible clothing, is smiling and looking forwards, presumably into a mirror. there are tears in her eyes and little hearts appear above her head. off to each side are ghostly feminine figures gently resting their hands on her. caption: despite the world, i am hopeful. i see a woman in the mirror now. maybe next year, there'll be more. happy new year. there is still time. [the last sentence is illuminated in pink.]](https://cdn.bsky.app/img/feed_thumbnail/plain/did:plc:hqrskpki4r7q7d3xbjy47p7v/bafkreib5zz4adhpeqcxzsdbupk5dyv22upwh4qi2wk5wwa7htfonuck3qe@jpeg)
2025 can finally get buried in the ground as it deserves. I don’t have a lot of optimism for 2026, but comparatively to 25, yeesh.
January 1, 2026 at 5:17 AM
2025 can finally get buried in the ground as it deserves. I don’t have a lot of optimism for 2026, but comparatively to 25, yeesh.
I love hearing that white man giggle like a little girl at recess
January 1, 2026 at 3:22 AM
I love hearing that white man giggle like a little girl at recess
I had a dream I was a girl in a girl body and it felt so real. I immediately burst into tears when I woke up and was back to being just me.
December 31, 2025 at 2:11 PM
I had a dream I was a girl in a girl body and it felt so real. I immediately burst into tears when I woke up and was back to being just me.
I’m trying to not go “scorched earth” (I’m being dramatic) on de-centering men in my life. But damn, when I just hang out, hell just exist, in a space with another average lady it’s 100x better than a man.
I do still have guy friends who I adore obviously, but after coming out and transitioning…
I do still have guy friends who I adore obviously, but after coming out and transitioning…
December 30, 2025 at 5:26 AM
I’m trying to not go “scorched earth” (I’m being dramatic) on de-centering men in my life. But damn, when I just hang out, hell just exist, in a space with another average lady it’s 100x better than a man.
I do still have guy friends who I adore obviously, but after coming out and transitioning…
I do still have guy friends who I adore obviously, but after coming out and transitioning…
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it's impossible to explain how days like today make me feel. you have to try and do your normal job and be a collected and complete person while also holding this massive amount of grief for the trans child you once were, and if you try to explain that grief to anyone else they don't understand.
December 18, 2025 at 6:31 PM
it's impossible to explain how days like today make me feel. you have to try and do your normal job and be a collected and complete person while also holding this massive amount of grief for the trans child you once were, and if you try to explain that grief to anyone else they don't understand.
I desperately need a new job. If anyone is looking to hire for remote work, I’m looking for some.
I don’t have much experience outside of customer service, but I am a quick learner and highly adaptable.
I need to get out of dealing with the general public every day.
I don’t have much experience outside of customer service, but I am a quick learner and highly adaptable.
I need to get out of dealing with the general public every day.
December 16, 2025 at 1:32 PM
I desperately need a new job. If anyone is looking to hire for remote work, I’m looking for some.
I don’t have much experience outside of customer service, but I am a quick learner and highly adaptable.
I need to get out of dealing with the general public every day.
I don’t have much experience outside of customer service, but I am a quick learner and highly adaptable.
I need to get out of dealing with the general public every day.
Fucking killing myself over a stupid little beginner sewing pattern for shorts. I know I’m a beginner but I just don’t get the instructions at all and I can’t figure it out. I’ve found ONE video on the pattern I have and I also can’t follow along either.
I was so excited to start this project…
I was so excited to start this project…
December 13, 2025 at 5:28 PM
Fucking killing myself over a stupid little beginner sewing pattern for shorts. I know I’m a beginner but I just don’t get the instructions at all and I can’t figure it out. I’ve found ONE video on the pattern I have and I also can’t follow along either.
I was so excited to start this project…
I was so excited to start this project…
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When I’m struggling with ✨emotions ✨ I have a much harder time doing things for myself. I’m harder on myself. But I literally do not have the energy to do things for myself. I’m able to go to work. And usually able to sleep. Everything else is just a bonus.
Even self-care can turn into another stressful job. This is just a little reminder to take the pressure off when you can. It’s okay to just be sometimes. 🐾
December 8, 2025 at 2:35 PM
When I’m struggling with ✨emotions ✨ I have a much harder time doing things for myself. I’m harder on myself. But I literally do not have the energy to do things for myself. I’m able to go to work. And usually able to sleep. Everything else is just a bonus.
Went hunting in my house for our stash of winter gloves. Finally found them!
Not a single fucking matching pairs in the lot.
Not a single fucking matching pairs in the lot.
December 3, 2025 at 3:55 PM
Went hunting in my house for our stash of winter gloves. Finally found them!
Not a single fucking matching pairs in the lot.
Not a single fucking matching pairs in the lot.
Mixed feelings all around for Thanksgiving, this one especially, but at least Peter Parker is here.
November 27, 2025 at 3:20 PM
Mixed feelings all around for Thanksgiving, this one especially, but at least Peter Parker is here.
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Trans Day of Rememberence.
Don't stop climibing, you'll reach the summit someday.
Don't stop climibing, you'll reach the summit someday.
November 21, 2025 at 12:20 AM
Trans Day of Rememberence.
Don't stop climibing, you'll reach the summit someday.
Don't stop climibing, you'll reach the summit someday.
Just found out you can’t change your name in Animal Crossing New Horizons.
I’d have to completely start over…
Kinda crushed, honestly.
I’d have to completely start over…
Kinda crushed, honestly.
November 9, 2025 at 4:54 AM
Just found out you can’t change your name in Animal Crossing New Horizons.
I’d have to completely start over…
Kinda crushed, honestly.
I’d have to completely start over…
Kinda crushed, honestly.
I cannot put into words how tired, sad, and angry I am. Any time I start to type out a post…I just get overwhelmed and delete it. But that pretty much sums it all up.
October 29, 2025 at 11:55 PM
I cannot put into words how tired, sad, and angry I am. Any time I start to type out a post…I just get overwhelmed and delete it. But that pretty much sums it all up.
I am always, forever, stuck in a never ending loop of wanting to learn new things, learning the very basics, getting overwhelmed by learning more, then giving up.
At least I’m persistent in trying to learn new things, I guess 🙃
At least I’m persistent in trying to learn new things, I guess 🙃
October 28, 2025 at 9:18 PM
I am always, forever, stuck in a never ending loop of wanting to learn new things, learning the very basics, getting overwhelmed by learning more, then giving up.
At least I’m persistent in trying to learn new things, I guess 🙃
At least I’m persistent in trying to learn new things, I guess 🙃
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A local polyamorous group has decided to dress up this Halloween as Mystery Inc. for the sixth year in a row.
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October 27, 2025 at 6:00 PM
A local polyamorous group has decided to dress up this Halloween as Mystery Inc. for the sixth year in a row.
paletteswap.site/dif...
paletteswap.site/dif...
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Halloween art 🎃
October 19, 2025 at 6:32 PM
Halloween art 🎃
My first psychiatrist appointment since a few years ago is less than a week away and my therapist in less than two away.
I cannot emphasize how bad I need that to come quickly. I am unwell.
I cannot emphasize how bad I need that to come quickly. I am unwell.
September 26, 2025 at 3:45 AM
My first psychiatrist appointment since a few years ago is less than a week away and my therapist in less than two away.
I cannot emphasize how bad I need that to come quickly. I am unwell.
I cannot emphasize how bad I need that to come quickly. I am unwell.
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Study Finds Regular Journaling Can Help Provide Clues About Mysterious Disappearance https://theonion.com/study-finds-regular-journaling-can-help-provide-clues-about-mysterious-disappearance/
September 25, 2025 at 6:00 PM
Study Finds Regular Journaling Can Help Provide Clues About Mysterious Disappearance https://theonion.com/study-finds-regular-journaling-can-help-provide-clues-about-mysterious-disappearance/
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Maybe the real Ship of Theseus was the Ship of Theseus we made along the way
July 21, 2025 at 9:35 PM
Maybe the real Ship of Theseus was the Ship of Theseus we made along the way
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I memed Emma's art of Claire and Hazel for this very reason
September 24, 2025 at 11:52 PM
I memed Emma's art of Claire and Hazel for this very reason
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there's always a John Waters quote, it seems
September 20, 2025 at 6:41 PM
there's always a John Waters quote, it seems
Forever mad at my ability in life to just kinda give up. Idk if it’s just lack of interest or what. But I’m always giving up. Not that I don’t push myself to do things, because I do, I just get way past that point and eventually just drop whatever it is entirely. Games, hobbies, people sometimes.
September 17, 2025 at 1:58 PM
Forever mad at my ability in life to just kinda give up. Idk if it’s just lack of interest or what. But I’m always giving up. Not that I don’t push myself to do things, because I do, I just get way past that point and eventually just drop whatever it is entirely. Games, hobbies, people sometimes.