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they/she. middle-aged white queer w the 'tism and 80 of the HDs. me and yr dad probably like all the same movies. death first to vultures and scavengers. love is stored in the goalie.
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![JANUARY
1. The Witch Elm - Tana French [reread]
2. League of Denial: The NFL, Concussions, and the Battle for Truth - Mark Fainaru-Wada and Steve Fainaru
3. Legends & Lattes - Travis Baldree [reread)
4. Bookshops & Bonedust - Travis Baldree [reread]
5. Witchcraft for Wayward Girls - Grady Hendrix
6. Craft: Stories I Wrote for the Devil - Ananda Lima
7. Ordinary Monsters - J. M. Miro
8. The Disaster Tourist - Yun Ko-Eun (tr. Lizzie Buehler)
9. Age of Ash - Daniel Abraham
10. Black Sheep - Rachel Harrison
11. Clockwork Boys - T. Kingfisher
12. The Half Life of Valery K - Natasha Pulley
13. The Goblin Emperor - Katherine Addison [reread]
14. A Prayer for Owen Meany - John Irving [reread]](https://cdn.bsky.app/img/feed_thumbnail/plain/did:plc:yqdkcs2h6feag2bfoir43lj5/bafkreih3b5l75vrz3wsiehptqxvb5lnk5ppbq2jdf47oesmtfhtwk5pbo4@jpeg)
At any given moment I'm equally likely to be the Schmidt or the Nick here, so. Happy liminal last few days to all, may your beans and/or bees be appropriately housed.
i can't hear any part of this song or see any mention of the person who sings it without imagining this. for those wondering which word schmidt mispronounces, it's 'beekeeping.' thank you for your time
December 28, 2025 at 5:57 PM
At any given moment I'm equally likely to be the Schmidt or the Nick here, so. Happy liminal last few days to all, may your beans and/or bees be appropriately housed.
Trying to decide if I think I'm going to read another book in the next 3 days, or if I should call the year at 212. It's a nice number, and I don't have anything out from the library at the moment.
But, I did get the newest Siken in the mail yesterday sooooo maybe I'll wait.
But, I did get the newest Siken in the mail yesterday sooooo maybe I'll wait.
December 28, 2025 at 3:55 PM
Trying to decide if I think I'm going to read another book in the next 3 days, or if I should call the year at 212. It's a nice number, and I don't have anything out from the library at the moment.
But, I did get the newest Siken in the mail yesterday sooooo maybe I'll wait.
But, I did get the newest Siken in the mail yesterday sooooo maybe I'll wait.
Sometimes I think I should compile a list of media that has either helped me face or made not feel alone (or both) about the whole religion thing. I use exvangelical sometimes but it's not a word I like. Religious trauma is legit but I have a hard time claiming it for myself personally. But, a list.
December 27, 2025 at 8:59 PM
Sometimes I think I should compile a list of media that has either helped me face or made not feel alone (or both) about the whole religion thing. I use exvangelical sometimes but it's not a word I like. Religious trauma is legit but I have a hard time claiming it for myself personally. But, a list.
My kid is 12, which means sometimes we get to introduce her to an entirely new word or concept because she hears it for the first time.
Today, Spouse used "ditto" to mean "likewise," and she was baffled. Jer only knowledge of the word is, obviously, the Pokemon. I then, because I'm me, added...
Today, Spouse used "ditto" to mean "likewise," and she was baffled. Jer only knowledge of the word is, obviously, the Pokemon. I then, because I'm me, added...
December 27, 2025 at 3:24 PM
My kid is 12, which means sometimes we get to introduce her to an entirely new word or concept because she hears it for the first time.
Today, Spouse used "ditto" to mean "likewise," and she was baffled. Jer only knowledge of the word is, obviously, the Pokemon. I then, because I'm me, added...
Today, Spouse used "ditto" to mean "likewise," and she was baffled. Jer only knowledge of the word is, obviously, the Pokemon. I then, because I'm me, added...
I'm so mad, still, that Ali Larter turned out to be shitty. When I had figured out I was queer but hadn't yet looked at the gender stuff she was one of the Julia Stilesian spectrum of women I wanted to look like (yes I was anorexic at the time). I watched Drive Me Crazy (1999) about a hundred times.
December 27, 2025 at 12:55 AM
I'm so mad, still, that Ali Larter turned out to be shitty. When I had figured out I was queer but hadn't yet looked at the gender stuff she was one of the Julia Stilesian spectrum of women I wanted to look like (yes I was anorexic at the time). I watched Drive Me Crazy (1999) about a hundred times.
Anyway say what you will about the gay hockey show but I knew the ending the whole time and still gasped in delight. There's something to that. And to not going for Shock! Twist! Surprise! Queer stories can be happy endings, can be sweet, can be hopeful and promising and joyful. It's allowed.
December 26, 2025 at 7:45 PM
Anyway say what you will about the gay hockey show but I knew the ending the whole time and still gasped in delight. There's something to that. And to not going for Shock! Twist! Surprise! Queer stories can be happy endings, can be sweet, can be hopeful and promising and joyful. It's allowed.
It is objectively wild to watch the blonde one from the gay hockey show talk as himself vs his character. His face is. A different shape? I think it's mostly his neck posture and his brow tension plus the mouth's loose vs clenched placement. But it's just a different person up there to me.
December 26, 2025 at 3:21 AM
It is objectively wild to watch the blonde one from the gay hockey show talk as himself vs his character. His face is. A different shape? I think it's mostly his neck posture and his brow tension plus the mouth's loose vs clenched placement. But it's just a different person up there to me.
The salesperson at Ulta unprompted complimented my skin so I will be riding that high for a year now thanks.
December 25, 2025 at 12:54 AM
The salesperson at Ulta unprompted complimented my skin so I will be riding that high for a year now thanks.
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So I am going to say something about romance as a genre.
A lot of people think that romance is ignorable because <insert thing they think about romance> and romance authors don't count because <insert thing they think about romance>.
This thread is not about whether you have to like romance.
A lot of people think that romance is ignorable because <insert thing they think about romance> and romance authors don't count because <insert thing they think about romance>.
This thread is not about whether you have to like romance.
December 24, 2025 at 2:51 AM
So I am going to say something about romance as a genre.
A lot of people think that romance is ignorable because <insert thing they think about romance> and romance authors don't count because <insert thing they think about romance>.
This thread is not about whether you have to like romance.
A lot of people think that romance is ignorable because <insert thing they think about romance> and romance authors don't count because <insert thing they think about romance>.
This thread is not about whether you have to like romance.
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Love doesn't just sit there, like a stone, it has to be made, like bread; remade all the time, made new.
December 23, 2025 at 7:00 PM
Love doesn't just sit there, like a stone, it has to be made, like bread; remade all the time, made new.
"Babe, you okay? You've been listening to the same Gang of Youths song on repeat for two hours." - the measure of when to check in with me is extremely specific. My spouse could give a TED Talk about it. (Girl Talk or rap on repeat just means I'm in the zone, other songs can go either way).
December 23, 2025 at 5:00 PM
"Babe, you okay? You've been listening to the same Gang of Youths song on repeat for two hours." - the measure of when to check in with me is extremely specific. My spouse could give a TED Talk about it. (Girl Talk or rap on repeat just means I'm in the zone, other songs can go either way).
I understand and support Ao3 not showing you who is subscribed to you. I would love a way to tell whoever mine are that after more than a year of silence I'm very close to done with a fic that emerged like Athena, nearly fully-formed. And another on its heels. And to thank them for sticking around.
December 22, 2025 at 11:46 PM
I understand and support Ao3 not showing you who is subscribed to you. I would love a way to tell whoever mine are that after more than a year of silence I'm very close to done with a fic that emerged like Athena, nearly fully-formed. And another on its heels. And to thank them for sticking around.
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If you got a problem, yo, I'll solvent, check out the gunk, isopropyl dissolves it
December 22, 2025 at 6:33 PM
If you got a problem, yo, I'll solvent, check out the gunk, isopropyl dissolves it
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Officials said the error is likely be too minute for the general public to clock it, but it could affect applications such as critical infrastructure, telecommunications and GPS signals. n.pr/3NbOdQk
How a power outage in Colorado caused U.S. official time be 4.8 microseconds off
Officials said the error is likely be too minute for the general public to clock it, but it could affect applications such as critical infrastructure, telecommunications and GPS signals.
n.pr
December 22, 2025 at 10:09 AM
Officials said the error is likely be too minute for the general public to clock it, but it could affect applications such as critical infrastructure, telecommunications and GPS signals. n.pr/3NbOdQk
Was not prepared to see Lance Reddick again. What a loss.
December 21, 2025 at 8:33 PM
Was not prepared to see Lance Reddick again. What a loss.
Ohhhhhh shit. I'm wrapping presents to this now, thank you for the gift.
Fringe is streaming on Hulu! This is not a drill. You can watch Fringe now!
December 21, 2025 at 7:20 PM
Ohhhhhh shit. I'm wrapping presents to this now, thank you for the gift.
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“It’s normal to feel conflict. You were part of something for a long time. You hate it, and it was a terrible thing. But it created you, and you were part of it.”
December 21, 2025 at 7:35 AM
“It’s normal to feel conflict. You were part of something for a long time. You hate it, and it was a terrible thing. But it created you, and you were part of it.”
It's an easy guess that I've got a bunch of evangelical ~stuff, that I've got a lot of post-devout Christian now atheist ~stuff, but I missed every warning that Wake Up Dead Man would leave me sobbing. Not just the ending moments but the lighting and the two sides never moving toward each other...
December 20, 2025 at 6:53 PM
It's an easy guess that I've got a bunch of evangelical ~stuff, that I've got a lot of post-devout Christian now atheist ~stuff, but I missed every warning that Wake Up Dead Man would leave me sobbing. Not just the ending moments but the lighting and the two sides never moving toward each other...
The #1 movie when you were 10 years old is how your 2026 is going to go.
Troubling.
Troubling.
December 19, 2025 at 5:02 PM
The #1 movie when you were 10 years old is how your 2026 is going to go.
Troubling.
Troubling.
Ky kid has a hard time with live-action things she finds scary or sad. Animated, shes totally fine; obvious puppets or bad CGI, no problem. It's when it's real human people saying lines and making facial expressions that she struggles.
Anyway I just had to get up and walk around the room because...
Anyway I just had to get up and walk around the room because...
December 19, 2025 at 3:56 PM
Ky kid has a hard time with live-action things she finds scary or sad. Animated, shes totally fine; obvious puppets or bad CGI, no problem. It's when it's real human people saying lines and making facial expressions that she struggles.
Anyway I just had to get up and walk around the room because...
Anyway I just had to get up and walk around the room because...
Might have just figured out why "it's because he's the one you knew first" has never been a satisfying reason I like Keaton!Batman the best.
Michael Keaton’s Bruce Wayne is autistic and his special interest is JUSTICE
December 19, 2025 at 4:23 AM
Might have just figured out why "it's because he's the one you knew first" has never been a satisfying reason I like Keaton!Batman the best.
I don't usually keep up with newly-airing TV. I rewatch old stuff or get thrown by something small or more often just don't fit the target audience. But this year, with The Pitt and Heated Rivalry and Etoile and Murderbot and even Alien Earth (though I've got qualms about it), it felt different.
December 18, 2025 at 10:01 PM
I don't usually keep up with newly-airing TV. I rewatch old stuff or get thrown by something small or more often just don't fit the target audience. But this year, with The Pitt and Heated Rivalry and Etoile and Murderbot and even Alien Earth (though I've got qualms about it), it felt different.
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Could a person with depression do this?! (grimly goes about activities of daily living)
December 15, 2025 at 2:53 PM
Could a person with depression do this?! (grimly goes about activities of daily living)
Fun game of "was that a falling-asleep noise hallucination or was that actually a concerning noise," always a blast (this time it was the wind shaking a window in a weird way).
December 18, 2025 at 5:55 AM
Fun game of "was that a falling-asleep noise hallucination or was that actually a concerning noise," always a blast (this time it was the wind shaking a window in a weird way).
Does it count as only crying once at work if it's been a slow trickle for like an hour? I feel like that still counts as one cry. In which case, huzzah, I've only cried once at work today! (This is a me problem, I slept awfully and have been awfully worried about wildfires for the last few days...
December 17, 2025 at 10:28 PM
Does it count as only crying once at work if it's been a slow trickle for like an hour? I feel like that still counts as one cry. In which case, huzzah, I've only cried once at work today! (This is a me problem, I slept awfully and have been awfully worried about wildfires for the last few days...