Kyle L (bruxist)
@haikugoat.bsky.social
wannabe linguist+tutor • social meaning, semantics/pragmatics, philosophy, film, lit, animals, mental anguish • San Francisco boy —> Massachusetts man
One thing that's been clarifying about this trip is it's helped me accept that I despise my father.
December 1, 2025 at 11:15 AM
One thing that's been clarifying about this trip is it's helped me accept that I despise my father.
Maybe this is from not renewing my guanfacine before Japan and having to halve my dose.
December 1, 2025 at 10:25 AM
Maybe this is from not renewing my guanfacine before Japan and having to halve my dose.
I don't know what's wrong with me and I've kind of lost hope that any therapist or psychiatrist will ever be able to help me.
December 1, 2025 at 10:23 AM
I don't know what's wrong with me and I've kind of lost hope that any therapist or psychiatrist will ever be able to help me.
I got taken by my dad on a free trip to Japan (a longtime dream of mine) and I basically feel nothing. Just numb and dissociated and sad. I feel like I'm in some sort of subtle nightmare.
December 1, 2025 at 10:22 AM
I got taken by my dad on a free trip to Japan (a longtime dream of mine) and I basically feel nothing. Just numb and dissociated and sad. I feel like I'm in some sort of subtle nightmare.
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the digital subject is split between
I checked this out so you don't have to
AND
I can't unsee this so you must see it to
I checked this out so you don't have to
AND
I can't unsee this so you must see it to
December 1, 2025 at 10:03 AM
the digital subject is split between
I checked this out so you don't have to
AND
I can't unsee this so you must see it to
I checked this out so you don't have to
AND
I can't unsee this so you must see it to
Something very bad is happening to my brain
December 1, 2025 at 10:08 AM
Something very bad is happening to my brain
I'm losin' it again
December 1, 2025 at 7:44 AM
I'm losin' it again
I feel ill and empty
December 1, 2025 at 7:10 AM
I feel ill and empty
How do I unfuck up my life
December 1, 2025 at 6:48 AM
How do I unfuck up my life
"The Hague" is neither necessary nor sufficient for elite accountability.
What we really need is "people who are willing and capable of physically limiting the bodies, funds, and weapons of the ultra-rich and the ultra-well-armed"
That's a much taller order!
What we really need is "people who are willing and capable of physically limiting the bodies, funds, and weapons of the ultra-rich and the ultra-well-armed"
That's a much taller order!
I feel like people talk about "The Hague" in exactly the same way they talk about guaranteed divine punishment in the afterlife. They use that string of words as a sort of incantation and it's fucking annoying.
December 1, 2025 at 6:31 AM
"The Hague" is neither necessary nor sufficient for elite accountability.
What we really need is "people who are willing and capable of physically limiting the bodies, funds, and weapons of the ultra-rich and the ultra-well-armed"
That's a much taller order!
What we really need is "people who are willing and capable of physically limiting the bodies, funds, and weapons of the ultra-rich and the ultra-well-armed"
That's a much taller order!
I feel like people talk about "The Hague" in exactly the same way they talk about guaranteed divine punishment in the afterlife. They use that string of words as a sort of incantation and it's fucking annoying.
December 1, 2025 at 6:26 AM
I feel like people talk about "The Hague" in exactly the same way they talk about guaranteed divine punishment in the afterlife. They use that string of words as a sort of incantation and it's fucking annoying.
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If the culture of impunity, lawlessness and general vice which has taken root in this administration cannot be punctured through strict adherence to the law as written, then that is a failure of the law to serve its social purpose. And we should not treat those failure points as suicide pacts. (2/2)
November 29, 2025 at 5:37 AM
If the culture of impunity, lawlessness and general vice which has taken root in this administration cannot be punctured through strict adherence to the law as written, then that is a failure of the law to serve its social purpose. And we should not treat those failure points as suicide pacts. (2/2)
The fascists won't stop until they are *physically* forced to stop. I wish people could just be real about this.
Slogans and elections and court rulings matter, but not as much as the horrifying looming question of "Who will physically restrain the fascists and how?".
This is the asymptote.
Slogans and elections and court rulings matter, but not as much as the horrifying looming question of "Who will physically restrain the fascists and how?".
This is the asymptote.
December 1, 2025 at 5:53 AM
The fascists won't stop until they are *physically* forced to stop. I wish people could just be real about this.
Slogans and elections and court rulings matter, but not as much as the horrifying looming question of "Who will physically restrain the fascists and how?".
This is the asymptote.
Slogans and elections and court rulings matter, but not as much as the horrifying looming question of "Who will physically restrain the fascists and how?".
This is the asymptote.
Yeah!
I think it's very rational, for example, to worry about the cultural/institutional pressures that will work against fascists ever being held accountable by Dem leadership. That's not self-indulgent pessimism. It's engagement with the empirical reality of systems of elite impunity!
I think it's very rational, for example, to worry about the cultural/institutional pressures that will work against fascists ever being held accountable by Dem leadership. That's not self-indulgent pessimism. It's engagement with the empirical reality of systems of elite impunity!
The word "doomerism" is horribly abused on here. Some of you use it as code for "telling me what I don't want to hear" and it's childish.
December 1, 2025 at 5:04 AM
Yeah!
I think it's very rational, for example, to worry about the cultural/institutional pressures that will work against fascists ever being held accountable by Dem leadership. That's not self-indulgent pessimism. It's engagement with the empirical reality of systems of elite impunity!
I think it's very rational, for example, to worry about the cultural/institutional pressures that will work against fascists ever being held accountable by Dem leadership. That's not self-indulgent pessimism. It's engagement with the empirical reality of systems of elite impunity!
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presented without comment
December 1, 2025 at 2:28 AM
presented without comment
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LA Noir where a cryogenically preserved Wittgenstein is awakened to investigate the murder of Richard Montague and is forced to confront formalism and his sexuality.
December 1, 2025 at 4:19 AM
LA Noir where a cryogenically preserved Wittgenstein is awakened to investigate the murder of Richard Montague and is forced to confront formalism and his sexuality.
I have pretty severe abandonment/trust issues and I seem to affirmatively attract people and institutions that like to toy with them.
December 1, 2025 at 4:01 AM
I have pretty severe abandonment/trust issues and I seem to affirmatively attract people and institutions that like to toy with them.
Most of all, just lonely and afraid
December 1, 2025 at 3:50 AM
Most of all, just lonely and afraid
Very sad and angry
December 1, 2025 at 3:50 AM
Very sad and angry
Oh fuck it's December
December 1, 2025 at 3:50 AM
Oh fuck it's December
I wouldn't know how to even begin to theorize this, but someone should come with an "affective Marxism" where feelings like power/pleasure/control are what agents and institutions optimize for, rather than material goods.
In the early part of the current Trump admin, I, like many people, was shocked to see econimic rationality falsified. Economically suicidal tariffs, universities & public health systems undoing themselves w/ massive material costs, etc. The only explanation is that folks value power more than USD
December 1, 2025 at 3:35 AM
I wouldn't know how to even begin to theorize this, but someone should come with an "affective Marxism" where feelings like power/pleasure/control are what agents and institutions optimize for, rather than material goods.
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"how to stop bartlebying"
"how to stop bartlebying the scrivener before it kills you"
"bartleby cessation therapist bay area sliding scale"
"how to stop bartlebying the scrivener before it kills you"
"bartleby cessation therapist bay area sliding scale"
May 25, 2025 at 9:49 PM
"how to stop bartlebying"
"how to stop bartlebying the scrivener before it kills you"
"bartleby cessation therapist bay area sliding scale"
"how to stop bartlebying the scrivener before it kills you"
"bartleby cessation therapist bay area sliding scale"
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This is (unironically and sincerely) my actual mental health goal: Bartleby as constructive agent of life, creativity, and history.
August 17, 2025 at 11:44 AM
This is (unironically and sincerely) my actual mental health goal: Bartleby as constructive agent of life, creativity, and history.
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I'm gonna become history's first Meta-Bartelby by lazily looking the parts of society and of me that demand passivity/fear/avoidance right in the eye and continually stating "I'd prefer not to". I will heal the lazy/active dialectic once and for all.
Assert dominance by continually stating “I’d prefer not to.”
August 17, 2025 at 11:42 AM
I'm gonna become history's first Meta-Bartelby by lazily looking the parts of society and of me that demand passivity/fear/avoidance right in the eye and continually stating "I'd prefer not to". I will heal the lazy/active dialectic once and for all.
I'm haunted by a sentiment @lastpositivist.bsky.social posted long ago about "implicit bias" being hard to distinguish from "explicit bias + lying".
Some part of me has been tempted to generalize this into a broader intepersonal theory. Do "hurt people hurt people" unwittingly, out of trauma/pain/
Some part of me has been tempted to generalize this into a broader intepersonal theory. Do "hurt people hurt people" unwittingly, out of trauma/pain/
December 1, 2025 at 3:08 AM
I'm haunted by a sentiment @lastpositivist.bsky.social posted long ago about "implicit bias" being hard to distinguish from "explicit bias + lying".
Some part of me has been tempted to generalize this into a broader intepersonal theory. Do "hurt people hurt people" unwittingly, out of trauma/pain/
Some part of me has been tempted to generalize this into a broader intepersonal theory. Do "hurt people hurt people" unwittingly, out of trauma/pain/