Matthew Milam
mmilam.bsky.social
Matthew Milam
@mmilam.bsky.social
Sometime writer, twitch streamer and Chicagoan
https://beacons.ai/matmilam
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I make music - synthwave, delta blues, rnb - a variety of different music.

My links:

SoundCloud - soundcloud.com/karl-krush-m...

YouTube - www.youtube.com/@KarlKrush

Tiktok - www.tiktok.com/@karlkrushmu...

Instagram - instagram.com/karlkrushmusic

Bandcamp - matthewmilam.bandcamp.com
I think it's accomplished that since 2020
The world does iss best to make us apathetic..

I dont ever wanna go cold. Feels as if that'd be like die'n while livin.
December 15, 2025 at 10:58 AM
December 14, 2025 at 6:17 AM
Not even in the winter can we escape this madness
Jesus
At least 20 people reportedly shot at Brown University. www.browndailyherald.com/arti...
December 14, 2025 at 12:01 AM
Wanted to update you - messy roomate left today.
I'm praying for you. I despised living in a space that only I cleaned (but not the only one making the mess)
December 13, 2025 at 11:37 PM
Making a society car-dependent also keeps people single since many won't date anyone without one.
I think it was a huge mistake to make our society so car-dependent. But man. The Discourse today is a good reminder that when it comes to roadways policy, otherwise progressive anti-car people quickly become some of the most pro-carceral, anti-civil liberties people on the planet.
December 13, 2025 at 7:00 PM
this is true.

also, sorry that happened to you
You don't know that though. She could have went through something herself. She did it in a fucked up way but that's not on you. That's on her as a professional.
I had a therapist try to fuck me before I met my current one. I now do virtual only sessions.
December 13, 2025 at 3:18 PM
Also true.
Nowadays, YouTube university is stepping in where the “responsible” people should have
December 13, 2025 at 3:13 PM
I think she felt like I she had no more to give, but rather than tell me that - she just stopped.

Kinda made me not wanna do it again honestly. Like you think your therapist thought you were too much.
Oh shit I'm sorry that happened. Hopefully you find someone who will communicate better. Matter in fact you can put that in your introduction so they'll understand you've been scorned before.
I did that with my new dentist and they have been extra nice to me.
December 13, 2025 at 3:11 PM
essentially.

Even thou I have a work from home job that doesn't pay that great for the years I've put in, it's a job that allows me to work from home and I do it well.
See. We’re hostages 🤣🤣🤣
December 13, 2025 at 3:04 PM
Note to self - never engage in dating/relationship topics.
December 13, 2025 at 3:03 PM
Understood.
I’m not lacking understanding here. We’re all adults. People will invest in being better at what’s important to them.
December 13, 2025 at 3:03 PM
I never saw the video. I'm just replying to what was said. Sorry if i missed the context.
I don’t see the bots much but I’m tired of allllll the comments of people telling the creator they left out their specific experience like either comment on what the actual video is about or scroll!
December 13, 2025 at 2:45 PM
It's not a good excuse - you are right. It is one variable in why there's a struggle with being a partner.
I don’t think that’s a good excuse. We can find solutions to damn near any problem we have online or with a professional. People just invest in what’s important to them and being a good partner ain’t it for many
December 13, 2025 at 2:43 PM
Since the snow and ice and windchill have come, I haven't left the house except to take the trash out.
Morning beautiful ppl. If you’re up here in the Midwest PLEASE STAY WARM. COVER YOUR FACE AND ALL EXPOSED SKIN. IT TOO DAMN COLD TO BE OUTSIDE LINGER THAN A FEW MINUTES.

🗣️ AND COVER UP THOSW FUR BABIES TOO!!
December 13, 2025 at 2:35 PM
I'll try therapy again.

Last therapist ghosted me after she went on vacation.
I may not have been through exactly what you went through, I can empathize with some things for sure. Have you tried therapy? I only say that because it helped me tremendously in my relationships with everyone even myself.
December 13, 2025 at 2:34 PM
The comments tend to have a touch of "what do you want from the store?" or mean girl vibes
TikTok comments are becoming unbearable to read omg
December 13, 2025 at 2:33 PM
I'd like to go back to --- well, I don't know when I would go back.
Take me back to 2018 where I use to sit around around in my room and play in makeup all day. I think this might be what we are missing in the world today lol
December 13, 2025 at 2:33 PM
Words are hard these days. If you can get help, I'd say use it. Might not be able to keep friendships, relationships, etc.
if it bothers you, call it out or stop communicating with him.
This man keeps using ChatGPT to reply to my text messages and it’s driving me up the mf wall.

I don’t know if I’m more upset at the lack of originality or the fact that you think that I can’t tell
December 13, 2025 at 2:32 PM
sounds like it.
so, those two are hopping from podcast to podcast about their relationship then decided to start their own???
December 13, 2025 at 2:30 PM
I was watching Wake Up Dead Man then lol
Ooh that cheese bread and Diet Coke at 1 am is coming back to haunt me. 🤢

Why didn’t y’all stop me
December 13, 2025 at 2:28 PM
Don't really come on here for crushes. Crushing on someone can lead to disappointment.
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Honest question, how many sky crushes have y’all had???
December 13, 2025 at 2:28 PM
When I use OBS, I just configure a few things for those reason - would frustrate me to no end to stream using this and it crashes for no reason
December 13, 2025 at 2:27 PM
Someone purchased two of them actually. One R&B, one neosoul.
December 13, 2025 at 2:26 PM
Woke up a Bandcamp notification - someone purchased a song of mine.
December 13, 2025 at 2:23 PM
I think being a good partner is a difficult mystery to crack since most of us (men and women) don't have many examples of what that looks like or a clear definition of what it is.
This! I only date good men & even they still just don’t get what being a good partner is. I have great dates & individual moments but as a whole, I haven’t met anyone I can see myself committed to.
Had to emphasize that! I’ve been treated very well by men this year and I wanted to share that men can treat you right and STILL not be your person!
December 13, 2025 at 2:19 PM