niqaeli torres, child of disaster
@niq.aeli.net
herein you will find: a plexiglass 4th wall, whining, cats, fannishness, occasional intersectional social commentary. she/they. blocks for bad vibes and fuckshittery. 0.00000015% of a Hugo Award Winner.
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this disaster is terrible
and we may not survive it
our descendants may not survive it
but we are children of disaster
the ones that made us and the ones that nearly unmade us but did not
so we might
and we may not survive it
our descendants may not survive it
but we are children of disaster
the ones that made us and the ones that nearly unmade us but did not
so we might
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This is not yet funded. If you can help, it would mean a lot. <3
His family wants to do memorial services in Minneapolis and in Wisconsin where he was born and will be buried.
If you've felt grief, if you've comforted people in grief, please help these folks.
(My own mother died this morning.
If you were gonna bring me a hot dish,
please give here instead.)
If you've felt grief, if you've comforted people in grief, please help these folks.
(My own mother died this morning.
If you were gonna bring me a hot dish,
please give here instead.)
Friends, this relative lost his life due to exposure in the elements last weekend. His family needs support, and this GFM is woefully underfunded.
Please consider donating if you’re able.
gofund.me/5bddd9549
Please consider donating if you’re able.
gofund.me/5bddd9549
February 2, 2026 at 3:01 PM
This is not yet funded. If you can help, it would mean a lot. <3
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relevant to many of yalls interests.
February 1, 2026 at 2:09 AM
relevant to many of yalls interests.
you know, maybe some day I will stop fucking flinching every single time someone blithely references the former owner of Something Awful by his username but that day isn't yet
January 31, 2026 at 6:55 PM
you know, maybe some day I will stop fucking flinching every single time someone blithely references the former owner of Something Awful by his username but that day isn't yet
alright, we're trying the 1-1 patch that lasts 72 hours on my foot again, let's see if it'll actually STAY ON MY DAMN FOOT this time and if I react.
January 31, 2026 at 4:24 AM
alright, we're trying the 1-1 patch that lasts 72 hours on my foot again, let's see if it'll actually STAY ON MY DAMN FOOT this time and if I react.
either I had a low-level UTI for no apparent reason (I'm not actually prone to them) and the vancomycin also killed it or we shoved so much antihistamine in my system to pre-game the anaesthesia it knocked things back into whack, but my interstitial cystitis has been SO much better since my surgery.
January 31, 2026 at 4:16 AM
either I had a low-level UTI for no apparent reason (I'm not actually prone to them) and the vancomycin also killed it or we shoved so much antihistamine in my system to pre-game the anaesthesia it knocked things back into whack, but my interstitial cystitis has been SO much better since my surgery.
child, do not cite the deep dysfunction of the OTW to me; I was there when it was written.
January 31, 2026 at 12:26 AM
child, do not cite the deep dysfunction of the OTW to me; I was there when it was written.
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Oops. That was two serious posts in a row. Let me apologize by paying the cute tax. I don’t have a pet of my own, but this vid about owning Huskies made me giggle this morning
https://youtube.com/shorts/oSqhlEKe29w?si=Zp-r_pzSu5R5zoNd
https://youtube.com/shorts/oSqhlEKe29w?si=Zp-r_pzSu5R5zoNd
Should You Get a Siberian Husky? 🐺🤔 #siberianderpskies #husky #siberianhusky #huskies #huskylife
YouTube video by Siberian Derpskies
youtube.com
January 30, 2026 at 6:32 PM
Oops. That was two serious posts in a row. Let me apologize by paying the cute tax. I don’t have a pet of my own, but this vid about owning Huskies made me giggle this morning
https://youtube.com/shorts/oSqhlEKe29w?si=Zp-r_pzSu5R5zoNd
https://youtube.com/shorts/oSqhlEKe29w?si=Zp-r_pzSu5R5zoNd
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Emergency kitten- Eggy
January 29, 2026 at 2:11 AM
Emergency kitten- Eggy
An excellent attitude and one I share and let me add: describing foolish, unwise, evil or cruel people as smooth-brained (or inversely describing people you admire as wrinkly-brained) is the same goddamn pig in different lipstick.
If I see you use this word, I'll block you. If you use it "satirically" I'll block you. Using it at all today is a really fine test of character.
I've had some of my books edited because I used it twenty years ago and I'm ashamed today of having used it.
www.nytimes.com/2026/01/26/u...
I've had some of my books edited because I used it twenty years ago and I'm ashamed today of having used it.
www.nytimes.com/2026/01/26/u...
The ‘R-Word’ Returns, Dismaying Those Who Fought to Oust It
www.nytimes.com
January 27, 2026 at 7:31 PM
An excellent attitude and one I share and let me add: describing foolish, unwise, evil or cruel people as smooth-brained (or inversely describing people you admire as wrinkly-brained) is the same goddamn pig in different lipstick.
Dr. Christopher Yeung at Desert Institute of Spine Care is a fantastic surgeon; can’t say I’m super impressed with DISC’s office admin and I’ve found one of his PAs dismissive*, but he’s fucking fantastic and the CORE Institute Specialty Hospital he practices out of has absolutely INCREDIBLE staff.
I am sleeping so, so much and I exhaust super easily just from a few laps walking around the house, but I am doing so amazingly fucking well y’all. Legitimately, this is a goddamned miracle.
January 22, 2026 at 9:19 PM
Dr. Christopher Yeung at Desert Institute of Spine Care is a fantastic surgeon; can’t say I’m super impressed with DISC’s office admin and I’ve found one of his PAs dismissive*, but he’s fucking fantastic and the CORE Institute Specialty Hospital he practices out of has absolutely INCREDIBLE staff.
I am sleeping so, so much and I exhaust super easily just from a few laps walking around the house, but I am doing so amazingly fucking well y’all. Legitimately, this is a goddamned miracle.
January 22, 2026 at 8:34 PM
I am sleeping so, so much and I exhaust super easily just from a few laps walking around the house, but I am doing so amazingly fucking well y’all. Legitimately, this is a goddamned miracle.
In addition to the food being edible?? They also warm the chlorhexidine wipes they give you to wipe down with when you change! And, as I said downthread, the little things add up but also the people who think of the small touches of comfort are paying attention to the details on the big things, too.
If you are in the Phoenix area and you need orthopedic care, the CORE Institute orthopedic hospital (thecoreinstituteaz.com) has achieved the coveted rahaeli "did not severely piss me off once during this entire process" award, AND the food is actually edible.
The CORE Institute AZ | Orthopedic and Neurology Clinics | The CORE Institute
thecoreinstituteaz.com
January 22, 2026 at 1:27 PM
In addition to the food being edible?? They also warm the chlorhexidine wipes they give you to wipe down with when you change! And, as I said downthread, the little things add up but also the people who think of the small touches of comfort are paying attention to the details on the big things, too.
hey, you guys wanna see some fun exciting MCAS fuckshit??
(labels are for medical skin weirdness and a large bandage, there’s nothing gory.)
(labels are for medical skin weirdness and a large bandage, there’s nothing gory.)
January 22, 2026 at 4:09 AM
hey, you guys wanna see some fun exciting MCAS fuckshit??
(labels are for medical skin weirdness and a large bandage, there’s nothing gory.)
(labels are for medical skin weirdness and a large bandage, there’s nothing gory.)
home, in my own bed, laying on my side which is a million times more comfortable and is making my shoulders much less angry, I’ve stripped the gross hospital compression stockings and applied magic masto lotion to my legs and put on less awful compression stockings, and now I just need to eat lunch
I am doing so, so, so fucking incredibly better than I thought I would be, which is both testament to how good my surgeon is and how bad things were in my spine, and also it is testament to the fact that the staff all fucking listened and did all the pre-op stuff I needed not to set off the MCAS.
So @niq.aeli.net has received a good grade in Hospital, a thing that is both etc, and we can go home after PT teaches her how to stairs and the hospitalist gives her the final go-over and instructions, yay!
January 21, 2026 at 8:06 PM
home, in my own bed, laying on my side which is a million times more comfortable and is making my shoulders much less angry, I’ve stripped the gross hospital compression stockings and applied magic masto lotion to my legs and put on less awful compression stockings, and now I just need to eat lunch
I am doing so, so, so fucking incredibly better than I thought I would be, which is both testament to how good my surgeon is and how bad things were in my spine, and also it is testament to the fact that the staff all fucking listened and did all the pre-op stuff I needed not to set off the MCAS.
So @niq.aeli.net has received a good grade in Hospital, a thing that is both etc, and we can go home after PT teaches her how to stairs and the hospitalist gives her the final go-over and instructions, yay!
January 21, 2026 at 3:32 PM
I am doing so, so, so fucking incredibly better than I thought I would be, which is both testament to how good my surgeon is and how bad things were in my spine, and also it is testament to the fact that the staff all fucking listened and did all the pre-op stuff I needed not to set off the MCAS.
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anyway, I’m doing fucking amazingly post-surgery, we absolutely fixed the mechanical problem, the pain is mostly a sore throat and my shoulders are furious about the positioning on the table and not happy about the neck brace. which. is WILD to be my complaint about my throat losing a knife fight!!
January 21, 2026 at 3:36 AM
anyway, I’m doing fucking amazingly post-surgery, we absolutely fixed the mechanical problem, the pain is mostly a sore throat and my shoulders are furious about the positioning on the table and not happy about the neck brace. which. is WILD to be my complaint about my throat losing a knife fight!!
post-surgery dinner chic
January 21, 2026 at 3:04 AM
post-surgery dinner chic
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You all need to look at this baby
January 20, 2026 at 3:06 PM
You all need to look at this baby
I of course took all my piercings out and my face is not my face, it is SO WEIRD
given the nap yesterday I actually slept a reasonable amount last night, about six hours, which took the headache back down from dire to merely mildly annoying and made my hip only angry and not tremblingly furious, and I am showered and ready and I keep wanting to have some damn breakfast, whoops.
January 20, 2026 at 2:10 PM
I of course took all my piercings out and my face is not my face, it is SO WEIRD
given the nap yesterday I actually slept a reasonable amount last night, about six hours, which took the headache back down from dire to merely mildly annoying and made my hip only angry and not tremblingly furious, and I am showered and ready and I keep wanting to have some damn breakfast, whoops.
January 20, 2026 at 2:05 PM
given the nap yesterday I actually slept a reasonable amount last night, about six hours, which took the headache back down from dire to merely mildly annoying and made my hip only angry and not tremblingly furious, and I am showered and ready and I keep wanting to have some damn breakfast, whoops.
love how part of my brain, in the pre-surgery anxiety, keeps trying to convince me maybe I’m just being overdramatic and it’s not really that bad and the rest of me is just like “are you fucking kidding me” and just Will Smith hands at all the shit I have to do to fake minimal functionality.
January 19, 2026 at 11:38 PM
love how part of my brain, in the pre-surgery anxiety, keeps trying to convince me maybe I’m just being overdramatic and it’s not really that bad and the rest of me is just like “are you fucking kidding me” and just Will Smith hands at all the shit I have to do to fake minimal functionality.
hey ribs, can we fucking not with the costchondritis right now
January 19, 2026 at 3:33 PM
hey ribs, can we fucking not with the costchondritis right now
hurrah, stress/anxiety insomnia has turned into painsomnia, thanks body. super helpful.
January 19, 2026 at 10:24 AM
hurrah, stress/anxiety insomnia has turned into painsomnia, thanks body. super helpful.