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𐙚F3RN ໒꒱˖ ࣪
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🩵🩷🤍🩷🩵 🌈♿️🐶 My body functions about as well as a Bethesda game ₊⊹ he/they/it [27] fae/faer vent users: F3RN, Toys, Ropework, +more Diagnosed: ASD, BPD, PCOS, Anxiety, ADHD Diagnosis Pending: POTS, hEDS, IBS
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ah yes another beautiful morning, time to decide if I want to be informed and frozen in panic, or willfully ignorant with a numbing background dread
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This is not something I want to do, but as someone who was food insecure for a long time, here are some ways to get the most out of what you can get.

-if you have dietary restrictions or food aversions, spend some time thinking about what foods are safe. It sounds obvious, but—
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grindr dick photos are their own kind of outsider art, you know. There's a guy out there who thinks if he shows me a picture with 50 pixels of penis against the flash-lit background of some kind of non-Euclidean nightmare dungeon, I'm gonna come over and give him a handy
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the only walk of shame i’ve ever done was away from an all you can eat buffet
At this point imma need to cut my nails or put socks on my hands bc I keep scratching this itchy as fuck rash thats covering over half my body
I also showed her the clock on the stove and said, "It is 8 hours and 25 minutes, not 825 minutes."

And she was like, "There are only 60 minutes in an hour. Why would it say 100?"

So I gave up.
I tried explaining it by saying the dryer time goes up in increments of 10 (30, 40, 50) before going to 1:00 and that it did not make any sense for it to go from increments of 10 to making a 50 minute jump.
The rash has spread so much in my arms that they just look sunburnt unless you look close enough to see the lil splotches of not pink poking through
How to explain to my 50 year old mother that the dryer being set to 1:00 does not mean she is drying her clothes for 100 minutes
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Okay, it's time for a reality check.

[Checks reality]

What. The. Actual. Fuck.

[Unchecks reality]
5 days till I lose my storage unit and no clue how imma pay for it this month .-.
Gah the rash has spread to my legs now as well
And I highly doubt the way to fix my body is to avoid eating, given food is energy and my body is clearly fighting something it didnt like. I need rest and hydration and a lot of benadryl.
... food is morally ambiguous. You're in a cult. It's not healthy to label food as "bad." You're going to get an ED if you keep this up.

Your body needs balance, it needs all food groups. Depriving it won't get you anywhere.
But the vitamin and miniral waters they sell in order to fix my allergic reaction rash bc I need to "reset my gut"

Shes also saying I need to cut out the "bad foods" from now on.
My mum joined this thing that spells "holistic" as "wholeistic" and fancies herself a health coach and shes been asking all of her friends from this little supplement peddling cult headed by a veterinarian and they keep telling her she needs to make me fast for like 3 days and consume nothing
Gotta figure out what to do with my storage unit so future me doesn't hate me.

If I can just pay for it on time or only a lil late one of these months ill be able to rescue my things and put them in my friends' places
I really need to find someone to hire me. I need a routine. I need something to do. I need money. Any longer and I'll start spiraling.
I just feel so empty? Like I'm kinda stressed but im bot feeling it myself. Just giving up on everything and sleeping for 10 years would be so much easier.
So tired of being worried imma lose my storage unit and all my shit. Part of me wants to say fuck it and leave it be and just rebuy my entire life. Im exhausted. Ive spent most of the last 30 days sick. Im living in an emotionally stressful and unsafe environment. I need a fucking break from it all.
Got 2 days to do interviews before my bus pass expires so imma just wear long sleeves and if anyone notices the rash and asks about it ill just have to explain my body hates me and is just an allergic reaction
I sent 🍩 a pic of my rash, and he's like, "I need you to stop dying." 😭 im trying, but my body keeps throwing hands.
Cant get ahold of the dr and the pharmacist was no help