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Leen McBeans
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Good intentions, questionable methods.
The Mother of Dad Jokes™️. Recovering academic turned shitposter 🇵🇸 (they/she)🏳️‍🌈

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Social media is fun because you basically just talk to yourself and sometimes a stranger replies to yell at you about why you’re wrong
it’s wild and sad that it’s easier for so many to see the point when “girls” are replaced with “goats”
February 13, 2026 at 12:57 AM
…trafficking goats to friends all over the world who also liked to fuck goats, and his name was in the classified goat fucker chronicles 5,000/38,000 times, and he wished other goat fuckers well in prison… what do you think the odds are that person is also a goat fucker?
February 13, 2026 at 12:25 AM
If someone was accused of having sex w goats by over 30 people & regularly denied it but also dropped very public hints about how much he liked to fuck goats for decades, ran a goat pageant to find the best looking goats, was best friends w someone convicted of fucking goats & trafficking goats… 🧵
February 13, 2026 at 12:23 AM
With the FBI there’s a process or way to request. Idk what the name for it is.
February 12, 2026 at 12:12 PM
Oh yeah no, they’re still very much stalked and monitored (and gaslit about it 😭). Didn’t mean to make it sound otherwise!
February 12, 2026 at 12:10 PM
Years later I worked with survivors of dv/sa and trafficking. Often their feelings of being monitored were dismissed as remnants of trauma. But let me say, like the professor I mentioned, it’s still worth considering and checking— and sometimes still very real/usual, unfortunately
February 12, 2026 at 8:04 AM
To be clear, in this case, he was acting so erratically (calls & letters) that it led to him being on a list. Nothing had come of him being on this list besides monitoring, but when it came to confronting what seemed like delusions this was more difficult to parse out & part self fulfilling prophecy
February 12, 2026 at 7:48 AM
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Over on threads someone just use ai;dr and we all need to adopt that right quick
February 11, 2026 at 7:56 PM
It was a vicious loop in this case. The letters and calls that this man had made put him on a watch list. But, as a clinician, trying to ground and clarify delusions with this patient— it’s a step that is important to not overlook, amirite?
February 12, 2026 at 7:11 AM
In this case, he was paranoid and became so paranoid and erratic that it freaked everyone out and he was put on a list to be watched

But still valid, in a sense. Because he felt like he was being watched (at some point) because he WAS being watched, after all. And that’s important to clarify tbh 😅
February 12, 2026 at 7:08 AM
In this case, the patient was acting so erratic and suspiciously that it put him on a list and became a self-fulfilling prophecy where he felt watched because he was

But it does go to show, sometimes you really gotta check to be sure before disregarding that shit, you know?
February 12, 2026 at 7:05 AM
When I was in grad school, I remember a professor that worked in
both clinical and forensic settings describing a paranoid patient obsessed with the sense of being monitored-

When the professor called the FBI to clarify whether the man was being monitored… he, in fact, was
February 12, 2026 at 7:02 AM
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no joke here, just a reminder that the ultra wealthy do not see you as human but rather as a resource to extract for profit
February 12, 2026 at 4:22 AM
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i finally understand why people admire elon musk; it takes incredible determination and perseverance to have billions of dollars and never, even accidentally, spend a single minute being cool
February 12, 2026 at 5:07 AM
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peering out from between the threads of an unraveled life, rolling the end between my fingertips
February 11, 2026 at 6:34 AM
I appreciate the reassurance because it felt weird to post. And here for the hugs regardless 🥹
February 11, 2026 at 8:00 AM
I’m here for peer support. Appreciate you asking. And sending anticipatory hugs
February 11, 2026 at 7:59 AM
I’m fine now. Sorry to make you sad. I just had a moment. It comes in waves

Usually I dirty delete but I’ve decided to leave this one anyway
February 11, 2026 at 7:56 AM
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does anyone have an attention span I can borrow
February 11, 2026 at 4:03 AM
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Dissociating is not upsetting to others if you patiently explain you are a maidenhead on an ancient ship.
February 11, 2026 at 4:36 AM
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It really is funny watching AI people talk about AI as intelligence. Like Jim Henson telling everyone on Sesame Street how scared he is of "the thing that lives in the can."
February 11, 2026 at 5:05 AM
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go touch fiberglass
February 11, 2026 at 5:38 AM
Anticipatory grief, for me, is: Silently grieving pieces of you while you’re still here, not wanting to upset you or the room, finding quiet corners to sob into, or a void to scream and mourn into later, hoping that letting it out bit by bit makes the final blow somehow easier, but knowing it can’t
February 11, 2026 at 6:52 AM
Anticipatory grief is wondering what questions I should ask now while you can still reply, weighing the cost of you not being ready to answer and me not being ready to hear it with never knowing what you would have said because I never asked
February 11, 2026 at 6:45 AM